To be, or not to be,--that is the question:-- Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune Or to take arms against a sea of troubles, And by opposing end them?--To die,--to sleep,-- No more; and by a sleep to say we end The heartache, and the thousand natural shocks That flesh is heir to,--'tis a consummation Devoutly to be wish'd. To die,--to sleep;-- To sleep! perchance to dream:--ay, there's the rub; For in that sleep of death what dreams may come, When we have shuffled off this mortal coil, Must give us pause: there's the respect That makes calamity of so long life; For who would bear the whips and scorns of time, The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely, The pangs of despis'd love, the law's delay, The insolence of office, and the spurns That patient merit of the unworthy takes, When he himself might his quietus make With a bare bodkin? who would these fardels bear, To grunt and sweat under a weary life, But that the dread of something after death,-- The undiscover'd country, from whose bourn No traveller returns,--puzzles the will, And makes us rather bear those ills we have Than fly to others that we know not of? Thus conscience does make cowards of us all; And thus the native hue of resolution Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought; And enterprises of great pith and moment, With this regard, their currents turn awry, And lose the name of action.--Soft you now! The fair Ophelia!--Nymph, in thy orisons Be all my sins remember'd."

 

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unbleachedblond

:: 2005 6 July :: 3.27pm
:: Mood: chipper

random bitching
well it's official...im 19 years old. big frickin woot.

tommy and amanda took me out to lunch even tho i have a develish eye.

ive been thinking. what is the point to all the shit that i do? is it really worth it to sleep around and get drunk every other nite? what benefit does it do for me? i dont do it for anybody else - jus for the hell of it. i quit smoking pot and shit like that...random drug tests at michigans adventures are to thank for that one. but why? why do it? i have no idea.

my ma is worried. she thinks that im not taking care of myself just cuz i lost 2 lbs in two days. who cares how much i weigh. i know i dont care. i eat when im hungry and i eat what i can afford...which pretty much consists of ritz bits and pringles. i like fake cheese. it's delicious.

i get to see my hailey gorgeous today. shes getting so big. she'll be 1 in a week!! i love that girl so much.

im gunna head out to my ma's pretty soon so im out - cya.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 5 July :: 10.53pm
:: Mood: smitten

so here i am bubbling with excitement because i finally talked to mike. and it is all good, but i won't see him untill christmas. i think that will be okay though, everything is wearing off but i will still miss him. i'll post a pic of us as my icon in a few days.

i just wish i could tell him how i feel.

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unbleachedblond

:: 2005 5 July :: 4.16pm
:: Mood: blah

life is so confusing. i got sent home at 7:45 last friday nite for swearing at coleen. yet theyre pissed at me for not coming to work tonite (i got pink eye). yea life's fun like that.

tomorrow im 19. big frickin woot. it's my only day off, yet i cant really do anything cuz im contagious for 24 hours. my ma wants me to come over, but it would have to be at nite.

hailey will be 1 in two weeks. im excited for her. shes gunna have frosting smeared all over her. i love that girl.

anyways im out. cya.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 5 July :: 4.09pm
:: Music: THe Dresden Dolls- Half Jack

in full circle
you would never guess who i saw today.
it's all so strange, seeing people who you used to know and hearing about people that you used to be friends with.
i am excited about all of it.

I think that skyler likes me alot but i am not entirely excited about the prospect. You see he isn't any of the things that i like in a guy. He isn't very talkative and he doesn't like video games, he isn't spontaneous and he is just kinda bland. Anyways, i am back into the video games, i want to skateboard again, and i just want to be one of the guys. Not totally one of the guys, but i want it to be the way that it was when i hung out with the guys. I miss it. I am excited, everything is coming in full circle.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 4 July :: 1.09pm

so out of boredom, i will sleep all day.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 4 July :: 9.51am
:: Music: the good that won't come out of me

i feel sick to my stomach. i am becoming numb to the fact that mike is gone, and that we can never reach eachother. The hardest thing is knowing that he is probably, no he is having sex with other people. It's not something that is a set fact, but i can feel it. Trisha wants me to hook up with this guy Skyler but i really only like him as a friend. I don't want to get into something else, mostly because i don't feel like dealing with the whole leaving situation again. Plus, i do care about mike, so i really want to see him and probably be with him again in august and at christmas and so on. you know? There's an attachment that i just can't break. I wish that he felt the same about me.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 3 July :: 4.09pm
:: Music: Kaiser Chiefs- Everyday I love you less and less

Juliette wanted Romeo
Leave it to him, i gave up. didn't care and was ready to drop it all, and out of the blue he texts me to say that he just found his phone.

And once again i crave old spice and want to be in omaha.
Damn him

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 3 July :: 6.42am

is it wierd to turn your air conditioning on to make it really cold, just so you can sleep with a comforter?

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 30 June :: 11.02pm

romeo has juliette
and
juliette has romeo

mike has omaha
and
i have my room, to listen to music and miss him

dammit. i need to forget it all

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kitty2004

:: 2005 27 June :: 4.52pm
:: Mood: stressed

Last One
This will be my last posting for a while. I need to go hide my self and think things out. love to all. stay safe this up comeing holiday season.
Kat

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 27 June :: 5.17pm
:: Music: The Beatles-- Here Comes the Sun

One Fine Day
Today was pretty good, i guess. i mean it could have been better but the things to make it better are far away (litterally, i mean like states away). Anyways, i got out of work early because we were dead, my new store manager kinda asked me not to leave, and i got to swim. I mean not swim but lay around on a raft and bask in the sun, while thinking of people and how i wished someone was here to swim with me.

also, my parents are going away for the weekend, and i have to stay home alone. goodie... this is why i wish mike was still here... because he could have come over and i stayed the night-- and i could have woke up in his arms. that would have been nice. But, yeah. I am single and ready to sleep (seriously sleep, you perv).

love ya,
josie

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 23 June :: 11.12pm

no more games, this is it
nobody sees when you are lying in your bed, and i want to crawl in with you but i cry instead....
i want your warmth but it will only make me colder when it's over, so i can't tonight....

joslyn_julia

:: 2005 23 June :: 11.10pm













Your Deadly Sins



Wrath: 100%

Lust: 60%

Envy: 20%

Greed: 20%

Pride: 20%

Sloth: 20%

Gluttony: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 34%

You will die, after conquering the world as an evil dictator.


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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 23 June :: 11.04pm

so i should really stop watching any movie with john cusack in it because it is almost all the same. i am a dork. i keep walking into getting myself hurt and once again, i am alone.

also, apparently i am an attention whore... you know why? because i am afraid to be alone. Fucking MIKE....grrrrr. die

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jburt1

:: 2005 23 June :: 1.23am

Just a little update of what I'm doing with myself this summer.
For starters, I'm working at Bed Bath & Beyond. It's not the kind of job I pictured myself working, but it's a job and it pays. And it's not tough work either. Next week my summer class at MCC starts. HIST 201 for 8 hours a week for a 7.5 weeks. I hope it's not as bad as ratemyprofessor says it is. I wanted this summer to be all about learning, so in my spare time I'm reading books (so far I've read 5 and I'm working on Catcher in the Rye right now), practicing piano, learning card games/tricks, and attempting to pick up guitar, although I'm lazy and it takes a lot of paitience, which I've seemed to've lost. So far I've been to chicago once, to visit Keith, Sara, and Theresa, college pals. I want to go back once more, but Keith's gonna be gone by then. Future roommate right there. Right now my parents and sister are gone on vacation. I decided to stay here and work instead, so I have the house to myself. It's actually kinda tough to run a household, to water the lawn, feed the pets, do the chores...plus it's not very fun being by myself all day. But the situation did allow me to throw a little get together at my house with a few people. I got drunk for the first time in muskegon and for the first time with some of my friends. I've seen everyone at least once, including joslyn, except for Kenesha. It's hard because she works so much. I'm feeling really lonely right now. But I'm sure that'll pass. I'm gonna hang out with Katie tomorrow. I'll be happy to see her.

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