To be, or not to be,--that is the question:-- Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune Or to take arms against a sea of troubles, And by opposing end them?--To die,--to sleep,-- No more; and by a sleep to say we end The heartache, and the thousand natural shocks That flesh is heir to,--'tis a consummation Devoutly to be wish'd. To die,--to sleep;-- To sleep! perchance to dream:--ay, there's the rub; For in that sleep of death what dreams may come, When we have shuffled off this mortal coil, Must give us pause: there's the respect That makes calamity of so long life; For who would bear the whips and scorns of time, The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely, The pangs of despis'd love, the law's delay, The insolence of office, and the spurns That patient merit of the unworthy takes, When he himself might his quietus make With a bare bodkin? who would these fardels bear, To grunt and sweat under a weary life, But that the dread of something after death,-- The undiscover'd country, from whose bourn No traveller returns,--puzzles the will, And makes us rather bear those ills we have Than fly to others that we know not of? Thus conscience does make cowards of us all; And thus the native hue of resolution Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought; And enterprises of great pith and moment, With this regard, their currents turn awry, And lose the name of action.--Soft you now! The fair Ophelia!--Nymph, in thy orisons Be all my sins remember'd."

 

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kitty2004

:: 2005 12 June :: 2.33pm
:: Mood: peaceful

none really
Well I just figured I would post a new update on my life. Work is ok, hurt my shoulder a while back so I'm stuck on restriction. Kyra is getting big she's enjoying being able to eat "real" food now. Mango's are her favorite.other than that life is going ok i guess. I miss my best friend a lot and don't really have a way to see him but it'll work out eventually right!! well I gotta got I have things to do.
Love to all
Kat

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 11 June :: 10.36pm

hello despondence.
here i am again.
i hope to leave soon, never to behold your dark embrace again

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 11 June :: 10.02pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: the smiths-- asleep

so i am really out of it again. i want to sleep, don't wake me up, i don't want to eat. just sleep and ignore the world around me. it turns out rei has a girlfriend. that would have been nice to know when he was telling me that i am beautiful and blah blah blah.
i am such a fucking stupid child. why would anyone like me, and why did i actually believe that he would seriously mean any of what he told me. he was just trying to get tips. fuck, i hate being alone and i want to have something so much that it hurts.

i was all by myself at the coffee shop, so i finished my drink and left to come home and just broke down in tears. i don't want to wake up on my own anymore. i scratched and dug my nails into my arm just to release this hurt. make it go away....

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 9 June :: 4.59pm

so i can't help but think. how the fuck am i going to get my computer??

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 9 June :: 4.23pm

so i just talked to my room mate and she definitly rocks. she is in track and she is really nice.

god. i am excited for college!

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 9 June :: 3.40pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes- Lua

Food at last

so i am now a vegitarian, but my parents wouldn't get me food to eat... so i just went and bought food. unfrotunatley none of it is all too healthy and it mostly consists of breakfast. so i can eat lots of breakfast and veggie dogs and veggie buffalo wings w/ blue cheese.

haha. if i could only give up dairy too... i guess i will have to wait until i am in the big city that i can go and eat like california rolls and shit.

oh, i will be so pretty by the time school starts. i will find love

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 8 June :: 3.08pm

i love having a pool
i love working out, and i love the possibility of getting some

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unbleachedblond

:: 2005 7 June :: 4.16pm

well isnt it toasty warm outside? summer has finally arrived.


good luck jessa! god be with you!

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 5 June :: 11.05pm

so, i am that girl
you know, the perfect girl... the one that nobody notices because they are too full of shit looking at outward apearances.
when really, deep down, the only thing i want is to care for someone

to be the person who they run to everynight, just because it was the best comfort they can get. i want to listen, i want to feel. i want to be heard and i want to love again, is there anyone who will let me love them??

joslyn_julia

:: 2005 5 June :: 10.30pm

so, the open house went well. kells stopped by, as did lizzy, pj, chris, lisa and some others.
i went and saw rei afterwards, and then again today.
he called me darling. i want to just like listen to him all day, because i just like being around him. he is a nice mysterious guy. and a very hot one. haha. yeah. any ways.... i am very excited about this summer.
i am now a vegitarian (for you kids that don't know) and also i am going to start modeling again, here sometime this summer. starting next month with my test shots to update my portfolio and jessica's photography portfolio. haha, yeah they might get me a wedding dress, and rei said he would be the groom, if we paid him to, so he can pay his bills. haha, that was a very odd and random situation done more in jest than actually being serious. fuck me. i love grand rapids and MS75

i look forward to me being a party girl all summer.
i love the summer, and i will love this fall even more so.

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kitty2004

:: 2005 2 June :: 2.08pm

Who knows
"It can't rain all the time"

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kitty2004

:: 2005 31 May :: 3.59pm
:: Mood: Good Question

BOO

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 30 May :: 3.49pm

so... my cat died last night
i am really sad because i have had her since i was little but she was really old and i know she was in alot of pain, so on that note things are better for her.

in other news, my open house is next saturday (June 4th-be there) and like none of the house stuff that has to be done is done so.... we gotta bust some ass.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 26 May :: 4.46pm

so, i feel better now.
hardly, but still better

tonight is the last.... i can't wait to not have it all looming over my head.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 26 May :: 12.18pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Bright Eyes-- First Day of My Life

so i had like a total breakdown in dufty's class, it just came out of like nowhere when i got to school this morning how much i seriously want to leave this town. If i had more gas in the car, and more money i think i would have just fled. the whole ending high school and "beginning life" thing is such a lie. i have been working for a long time and a helluva lot harder than most others but i still don't get paid for what i do. i put in soo much extra time at work but newbies who can't do shit get paid more than me. ah fuck. and i am just "beginning". fuck that. i want september here now.

i want college, and vegetarianism and to be rediculously good looking in chicago. i want the REAL real world. not cedar springs, and not the falsity that occurs here.

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