joslyn_julia
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2005 21 April :: 7.52am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Kelly Clarkston- Since you've been gone
is it wrong for me to be so damn cynical about everything with him, i read things... and i get worried and then i read more and i am like.... what an effing loser. idk, it's sort of indecisive. i still kind of like him, but i see so many things in him that i hate and it makes me want to put him in a box and send him to istanbul. lol.
wow, anyways. according to H, I never have a boring day, because every day i have a new story. like today (note that i have hardly been awake for an hour) i didn't have the jeans i was going to wear in my house, so i wore my pajama pants to school and changed in the car. And yesterday, jamie and kat pantsed me in the freshman hall. ah buddy. life just keeps going.
i can't wait till prom next week, i just hope i find a date....
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kitty2004
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2005 20 April :: 9.27pm
:: Mood: pissed off
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Well, I got the job at McKee's but I told Brandon that and guess what he did, he quit his F@#$ing job....... any way I'll make it on a McKee's income I know I can support Kyra and my self, as for Brandon he has one week to find a new job of any kind then I buy him a bus ticket to Michigan. so who thinks I'm over reacting?????
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2005 20 April :: 8.24am
oyea - another random comment. as most of you know, there is a new pope. has anyone noticed that he has an uncanny resemblence to uncle fester?
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kitty2004
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2005 20 April :: 7.25am
:: Mood: tired
Life as I know it
Well it is way to early in the morning right now, I don't even think the sun is awake yet. But it's all for a good reason, I have an Interview at McKee foods you know, it's the place that make little debbies!!! Yep Hopefully I get it It's a great place to work. With really good pay!! LOL well any way off I go. Love to all.
Kat
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unbleachedblond
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2005 20 April :: 8.06am
:: Mood: somewhat tired, but otherwise chipper
:: Music: damn circus song
reflections
i decided that me and peter are extremely good for each other. he is helping me with my downfalls. hes convinced that he can turn me into a better person. now that can be viewed negatively i suppose, but it offers me some hope. my self respect is increasing as is my self esteem. ive given up drinking. my nicotine intake is slowly dwindling. and when i get my license back, i decided that im going to actually attempt to drive between my designated hours. i only need about 50 more credit hours before i can become a probie officer and keep other delinquents in line. my life is shaping up. it's a nice change.
65 days till i have the opportunity to bless the roads with my wonderful driving!
hailey is the most beautiful girl in the whole wide world...and i might get to meet her joel today!
jessa - when are you due?
granted everyone should care about how they physically look, but i decided that im not going to really care much anymore. i will continue to shower and such, its jus the whole weight issue that really bugs me about girls. they think that theyre way to frickin fat, regardless how anorexically thin they are. we stay warm in the winter - there's nothing wrong with that.
today is 4/20. this has absolutely no meaning to me anymore. it just reminds me of the stupidity of my younger years.
i dont have class for another 5 hours so i think im gunna go back to sleep. nite kids.
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2005 19 April :: 2.10pm
Well alot of stuff is goin on I'm working in Wal-Mart Deli, it's not a bad job. any way I'm going to school now then back to work. love ya'll.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 17 April :: 10.21pm
i can't breathe, baby.
i feel all bruised up, my lungs are compressed. i can't breathe.
my heart keeps randomly skipping beats or racing. i'm not in love, so i just don't understand. my stomach hurts when i eat.
i am going to the doctors next month, after prom so i have extra money. i hope i can be okay till then, if not.... i will have to push my cash and make it work
in other news, my birthday was friday.... so here is what i got!
50 cent- Massacre (from Dennis)
Garden State Soundtrack
20$ towards a movie (from aunt dee)
smothie machine
20$ (for prom??)
lotsa hugs
some cards
and my uncles somehow (cough *dad* cough) got my cell # and called to wish me happey birthday
ironicly enough, nobody from my mom's family has called and wished me a happy birthday, or sent a card. with the exception of my grandma.
go figure.
love ya'll-- Josie
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joslyn_julia
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2005 12 April :: 3.49pm
:: Music: The Stones- Till the next goodbye
two faced?
about a month. i am so happy. i feel abandoned, like nobody wants me around, you know i am nicer now than i ever have been and everyone acts like i am a nuissance (sp?). anyways, it is a horrible feeling, and i would appreciate it if you people would stop acting that way. i understand that you have lives too, but most of the people who treat me that way (with one exception coming to mind) are supposedly my friends so hey, if somethings wrong you can probably talk to me not half under your breath say hi and then go whine to someone else. seriously, if that is how it is i might as well just shut back into my shell for the next month. god, high school is dumb.
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2005 11 April :: 11.31pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
WHENEVER Richard Cory went down town,
We people on the pavement looked at him:
He was a gentleman from sole to crown,
Clean favored, and imperially slim.
And he was always quietly arrayed,
And he was always human when he talked;
But still he fluttered pulses when he said,
“Good-morning,” and he glittered when he walked.
And he was rich—yes, richer than a king—
And admirably schooled in every grace:
In fine, we thought that he was everything
To make us wish that we were in his place.
So on we worked, and waited for the light,
And went without the meat, and cursed the bread;
And Richard Cory, one calm summer night,
Went home and put a bullet through his head.
**this is one of the most thought-provoking poems i have ever read. every single one of us can relate to it. we all hide behind masks, and then when something causes us to blow up as a result of all the built up pressure, everyone acts surprised. its crazy. what a damn good poem. this might actually be a fun paper to write. thanks justin!**
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joslyn_julia
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2005 11 April :: 5.27pm
:: Music: The Rolling Stones- Shattered
Shattered, shattered
Love and hope and sex and dreams
Are still surviving on the street
Look at me, I’m in tatters!
I’m a shattered
Shattered
Friends are so alarming
My lover’s never charming
Life’s just a cocktail party on the street
Big apple
People dressed in plastic bags
Directing traffic
Some kind of fashion
Shattered
Laughter, joy, and loneliness and sex and sex and sex and sex
Look at me, I’m in tatters
I’m a shattered
Shattered
All this chitter-chatter, chitter-chatter, chitter-chatter ’bout
Shmatta, shmatta, shmatta -- I can’t give it away on 7th avenue
This town’s been wearing tatters (shattered, shattered)
Work and work for love and sex
Ain’t you hungry for success, success, success, success
Does it matter? (shattered) does it matter?
I’m shattered.
Shattered
Ahhh, look at me, I’m a shattered
I’m a shattered
Look at me- I’m a shattered, yeah
Pride and joy and greed and sex
That’s what makes our town the best
Pride and joy and dirty dreams and still surviving on the street
And look at me, I’m in tatters, yeah
I’ve been battered, what does it matter
Does it matter, uh-huh
Does it matter, uh-huh, I’m a shattered
Don’t you know the crime rate is going up, up, up, up, up
To live in this town you must be tough, tough, tough, tough, tough!
You got rats on the west side
Bed bugs uptown
What a mess this town’s in tatters I’ve been shattered
My brain’s been battered, splattered all over manhattan
Uh-huh, this town’s full of money grabbers
Go ahead, bite the big apple, don’t mind the maggots, huh
Shadoobie, my brain’s been battered
My friends they come around they
Flatter, flatter, flatter, flatter, flatter, flatter, flatter
Pile it up, pile it high on the platter
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joslyn_julia
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2005 11 April :: 5.12pm
:: Music: The Rolling Stones- Shattered
hi, you're hot....
lol. i went shopping today, go a cute skirt that looks like a slip. haha, yeah, and then crystal and i went rollerblading. that was fun, and now i have to work out some more. because i feel chunky.
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2005 10 April :: 2.35am
You are sad because of the loneliness in your life
Why are you sad? [amazing pictures] For darker people
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joslyn_julia
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2005 10 April :: 2.11am
So, i am going to prom with Mike Fuller. He is really good friends w/ trevor (crystals guy) and they hooked us up. so i get to meet him hopefully this week. i smell like dennis, because he sprayed me with very sexy for men the last time i wore this shirt, and it smells yummy so i don't wanna wash it. lol
so yeah. i hope to have a guy in a pinstripe suit and chucks for prom... that would kik mad ass!
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2005 8 April :: 10.06pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Fionna Apple- Love ridden
It's the perfect ending...
Love ridden i have looked at you; with the focus i gave to my birthday candles....
i wished on the lighted blue flame, under your brow.... and baby i wished for you
Nobody sees you when you're lying in your bed, and i want to crawl in with you but i cry instead
i want your warmth but it will only make me colder when its over....
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okay, so i am for sure, hands down not going to prom with kelly. and to be entirely honest. i am kinda happy, because i am like really random and kinda like to fly by the seat of my pants, and he seems.... dull. idk, he is great but i will have more fun if 1. i go with one of trevor's friends *crosses fingers* or 2. go stag.
granted, going stag will blow, because i hate going to every dance alone but hey, idk like pj says... you never know who you'll go home with. lol. yeah, thats about it.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 8 April :: 10.05pm
irony
In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)
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