To be, or not to be,--that is the question:-- Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune Or to take arms against a sea of troubles, And by opposing end them?--To die,--to sleep,-- No more; and by a sleep to say we end The heartache, and the thousand natural shocks That flesh is heir to,--'tis a consummation Devoutly to be wish'd. To die,--to sleep;-- To sleep! perchance to dream:--ay, there's the rub; For in that sleep of death what dreams may come, When we have shuffled off this mortal coil, Must give us pause: there's the respect That makes calamity of so long life; For who would bear the whips and scorns of time, The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely, The pangs of despis'd love, the law's delay, The insolence of office, and the spurns That patient merit of the unworthy takes, When he himself might his quietus make With a bare bodkin? who would these fardels bear, To grunt and sweat under a weary life, But that the dread of something after death,-- The undiscover'd country, from whose bourn No traveller returns,--puzzles the will, And makes us rather bear those ills we have Than fly to others that we know not of? Thus conscience does make cowards of us all; And thus the native hue of resolution Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought; And enterprises of great pith and moment, With this regard, their currents turn awry, And lose the name of action.--Soft you now! The fair Ophelia!--Nymph, in thy orisons Be all my sins remember'd."

 

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 20 March :: 9.27pm

i was at work for like 13 hours yesterday. my body hurts everywhere from it. and i am soo exhausted.
i was reading esquire and it is flippin awesome, every guy should read it. well not cedar guys because they wouldn't understand it, so every business guy should read it.

also i love nylon magazine
and
I WANT TO LOVE YOU MADLY.... *starts dancing* haha, yeah. my life feels like such a movie. lol

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 18 March :: 4.16pm

everything is so well understood but i keep getting confused
fuck, i am tired.

stephen (steven?) is really nice, he amuses me. silly freshman.
real tired. i guess that is all i have to say

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 17 March :: 6.17pm
:: Mood: anxious

here is my infinate question:

WHAT IF.....

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 17 March :: 5.27pm

i feel so much better.
things are calm, today f*ing rawked
and yeah, i just really can't wait until we don't have school.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 17 March :: 8.17am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: The Eagles- Take it easy

Soo sorry.
thanks to who ever posted, but now i am more confused than ever. i should learn to put my foot in my mouth and not speak without thinking things through. i may have lost something that would have been great, but i may have saved myself from having to deal with a whole lot. idk anymore.

i will be here unsure for another 2 months. i'm sorry about my rage.
i would take it all back, just to be your friend, and only your friend.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 16 March :: 5.00pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: some mirror song from broadway

so, i started to work out to calm down
and then i got a head ache and wanted to puke
now i want to puke and sleep,
i feel so flippin wore out

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 16 March :: 4.01pm

in all honesty, i am sick of this bull shit.
i am done. there is no tomorrow with you,
i want nothing to do with you, i don't want to even talk to you unless you have something worthwhile to say

i say things out of anger, but if it is always going to me like this
you don't deserve me.
you could have had the best of me, emotionally

i am caring and giving and supportive
but you are all fucking assholes who are unworthy of my fucking time
i'll be 18 next month, i can do whatever the fuck i want
and when i leave in 2 months you better know i will be so fucking glad to go.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 16 March :: 3.54pm

for my sake i would like it if everyone who reads my journal would leave me a llist of my pro's and con's.

you can post anon. it doesn't matter, because i want to know what you think.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 15 March :: 10.15pm
:: Music: Seether- Gasoline

i made chocolate chunk cookies and all of my friends get one, but mainly i made them for chad so he will maybe behave for once. lol, doubtful but worth a shot. i don't think i will see him tomorrow and it may be soo good not to, because i still don't want to deal with any of it.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 15 March :: 6.36pm

In response
i am looking for happiness, and someone to care for maybe someone to care about me

i could have been the best anyone could ever have. not like i am going anywhere or something but i seriously, might just quit iwth it. i odn't even feel like going to prom, and i wish i could take back my dress and just sleep. it could have been so much fun but why should i waste my time. it is only going to be one more dance that i don't have a date for, and one more crappy HS memory.

joslyn_julia

:: 2005 15 March :: 3.31pm

well, that was a nice trip down memory lane.

i just went back and read a bunch of my past entries, and guess what i am just as fucked up now as i was then, if not more so.

except now i know that i won't get that guy who loves me that i am always dreaming about, just a friend that i am supposed to settle on talking too, not fooling around with. i get nothin.
no dice. i need something now, i have to find it. i am going to get messed up again, all of my old habits have slowly been resurfacing.
fuck

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 15 March :: 2.54pm
:: Mood: empty
:: Music: Incubus- Here in my room

God is empty, so am i
if i am beautiful, i don't see it
i feel empty. god is empty.
fate is out to get me, not really but maybe

i will ruin myself in the end
there is no sleep for the wicked, that's what they keep saying
i sleep everynight, but i am bad.
bad wicked empty and feeling alone.

this is just one of those days, i can't feel the happiness
i hear the words. i have nothing to say
i can't push you, the motivation is here but you are blind

i won't find love
i'm too messed up. life is too queer.
i feel like it's all against me, have i turned my back it?
no, maybe. i can't be sure with my head in the clouds
but i am back. i can't have what i want, because i will never deserve it

i only deserve the tears, that's all i have ever been good for.

joslyn_julia

:: 2005 14 March :: 10.19pm

so the paper is finished, the end is half assed but eh.
i found a bunch of pictures of me as a kid and i look like a little boy in half of them, and i had vampire teeth. it was friggin funny, i am bringing them to school tomorrow. Lol. wow, yeah.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2005 14 March :: 3.05pm





You Are From Mercury



You are talkative, clever, and knowledgeable - and it shows.
You probably never leave home without your cell phone!
You're witty, expressive, and aware of everything going on around you.
You love learning, playing, and taking in all of what life has to offer.
Be careful not to talk your friends' ears off, and temper your need to know everything.


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unbleachedblond

:: 2005 14 March :: 8.32am
:: Mood: chipper

i like petey!!!





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