<- I could watch this for hours...

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:: 2006 3 December :: 7.47pm

poking smot is great fun.
lol

:: 2006 2 December :: 8.50pm

sooooooo. i am bored and have been sleeping alot. i got home from work and fell asleep for like 4 hours until my room mate came home. lol, damn.

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:: 2006 29 November :: 10.10pm

umm, my tongue kinda hurts....

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:: 2006 27 November :: 12.12am

and so it is....

i <3 m.w. i don't know if that heart is plutonic or not. but i enjoy the daily (sometimes 3x daily) phone calls, and the plans for winter break, and knowing i have a date to my cousins wedding. and knowing that i will have someone to wrap their arms around me!!!!!!

i love knowing that i only have 2 weeks until fall semester is done, and 3 until zales is not prioritzing my life. and i love feeling loved, by all my friends and people i have been meeting.

i don't miss michigan, but i do miss some people there. and i wish i could stop caring about people that don't want me in their lives, but i can't. and i can't talk to them, but i do care. that's just who i am.

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:: 2006 2 November :: 1.23pm

fuck.

:: 2006 27 October :: 10.17pm

2 jobs plus being a full time student is killing me.
i don't eat when i work or basically on the days that i work at zales.
i hate knowing more about computers and jewelry than my bosses, aaaand
i really just wish that i could get shitfaced and not have to worry about when i need to get up the next day...
but wait, i never have time to do anything but homework and take brief intervals to vent about how much i hate or love my life depending on the day.

gah. if only life was easier... but wait, i guess then it wouldn't be life. : (

:: 2006 22 October :: 7.42pm

would getting a third job be comparable to suicide... figuratively?

:: 2006 21 October :: 11.04pm
:: Music: The rolling stones- luxury

so, i got the 2nd job, and now i just have to wait until life calms down.
i didn't eat for over 24 hours because i was working and then just wasn't given the option. I haven't gotten nearly enough sleep and homework is the only thing making this worse.

I am already distant... now, i may as well be gone to the kids who called me their friend.
I am so insanely busy. the next few months should be interesting. but they will be covered, i won't have to worry about being short on paying my bills... it should all be normal again.
just me, and being a workaholic to stay out of trouble. i like it.

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:: 2006 15 October :: 1.28pm

weeeeellllllllllllllllllllllll.
i don't know how much i have to say other than
I BOUGHT A NEW CAR!!!!!!!!!
OH YEAH!
lol, my dad had heart surgery last week so, i was home. but i didn't see anyone. which is neither good nor bad.
I am now being a hermit in my quiet dorm, where i can peacefully do homework and ignore the girls down the hall. go figure.

anyways, i plan to finish my homework, find a second job, aaaaand paint or knit. something like that.
toodles!

:: 2006 26 September :: 9.01am

well here we are. school again. the so-called happy place.
no, things are pretty good. i have a few crazy teachers this semester but it really isnt that bad. except for the damn cold that i have recently acquired.

my parents got a new puppy. His name is riley and he is adorable. but i think i should go get ready for class, so i will see you.... wait, no.... well maybe i will run into one of you this weekend when i am at home.

:: 2006 29 July :: 11.49am
:: Music: Snow Patrol- Chasing Cars

I smell a little disdain in your mind... but why so much towards me?
i just had to come on to thank gunny for putting the color codes up since i am lazy and like to have things in a place that i don't have to spend an hour to change my site.

aside from that, i wish that it was the end of next month already b/c i would really like to get back to camp carthage. i miss my friends, but am concerned about the roommate situation for the coming year. this will either be very good or incredibly aweful. only time will tell.
gah i need food, before my insides deside to eat them selves.

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:: 2006 10 July :: 9.20am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Pink

emotionaly f*cked
Some people sit and think of how they can end all of the bull sh*t going on in their life. I know b/c I used to be one of those people. I would just sit in my room playing my favorite cd over and over again. Trying to think of the best way to comit suicide. Then I found out I was pregnant with Kyra. I had no problem killing my self but i would never kill a child. I never knew that such a small child could save my life. I still get depressed but I know I have a reason to wake up now.

I some times just wanna grab my daughter and drive away untill I can keep my eyes open. Just drive to some where I've never been. Ever wish you could exscape reality! just take a vacation!

I'm so emotionaly f*cked right now. I'm happy and sad all at the same time! all I wanna do is run away and at the same time I just wanna curl up in his arms and fade out the world. I have so much shit to do and I don't even know where to begin. life is just spinning me in circles I thank every friend I have that has stuck by my side threw all the b.s that has gone on in my life.It's nice to know that some people would miss me if I was ever to leave this earth.

:: 2006 26 June :: 3.45pm
:: Mood: blah

Pisces

Daily extended (by Astrology.com)
When you put your passion into something there is no limit to your success, and that will be true especially when you're given the chance to take control. Grab the steering wheel and put the pedal to the metal. If you think about it long enough, you'll realize that you know exactly where you need to be right now -- so get there quickly. Put everything you are into this journey, and don't make any compromises. Nothing you do can be done only halfway now

:: 2006 26 June :: 2.29pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Pink-Dear Mr. President

life is too short
Today I went to my Grandma Carols Funeral. I kept telling my self that I was ok but now that everyone is gone. I realize that I'm not ok at all. It's so hard to realize that she's really gone. I miss all the things about her. I know she's in a better place now, but that doesn't make it any easier. Well that's about all for now.............

Kat

:: 2006 25 June :: 12.46pm
:: Music: Disturbed- Get down with the sickness

Well I just thought I would write and say hello ! Today I'm doing better! I stayed up way to late last nigt and then Kyra had bad dreams so I had to get her back to sleep. But it's all ok today! Yesturday evening I went swimming with my sister and MacKenzie, We had a blast. Kyra loved the water! well I'll write later ok Love to all
Kat