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2006 14 July :: 11.09pm
I want to go to the zoo but sadly there are some obsticals that I would need to get over first so I made a check list of things needed to be done before I am able to go
1. Get a license
2. Get gas
3. Get people to come that can carry interesting conversations
4. Get my mafia family up from Detroit
5. Learn all their names
6. Buy a lion suit
7. Get $367 in spending money
8. Buy new pants (must look smashing before the tiger claws my face off)
9. Buy a map
Now I thought about it and usually a list doesn't look right unless it has things grouped in fives so I obviously have to add one last "to do"
10. Get a bag for Hilly's face
Thats all I got to do before I'm off to the zoo I'm excited. Hmm...Now who should go with me?
*ponders*
My hair is a vibrant purple
very vibrant
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hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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2006 8 July :: 11.20pm
:: Mood: cranky
I went to my mothers wedding today. It was awesome. Hillary and I danced nearly the entire time while people took photos of us. I have never been so sick of taking pictures in my life, it becomes tiring; I don't know how models do it.
I was expecting to stay with Michelle tonight but she has turned up missing and my love ditched me. So now I'm cranky and I want to kill someone.
I went out this morning but right when I got into the car a man came running out telling us he has been running from the cops and needs a ride two blocks. He was telling us about what happend and how his underage drinking was the reason he was running. We knew he wasn't lying 'cause you could smell the alcohal. Long story short we ended up knowing who he was talked for a bit and dropped him off at a house somewhere.
hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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2006 8 July :: 12.42am
:: Mood: blank
I miss what I feel I never had
I miss what I feel I never had.
In some part of my mind I feel as if there were a time that I could wake early and go to see a sunrise. I don't see them anymore. In my mind I can almost recall a walk on a beach with a longing to be something more. Now I cant recall what more is. And I dont recall who I am at all. Maybe by saying yes I lost myself. I dont see how that could be so. My god I have become one of those pathetic kids that type sad stories on sites. Stories that I dispise.
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hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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2006 26 June :: 11.52am
:: Music: Engelbert Humperdink- Love Story
I cannot believe I've been on summer break for about a month already. It only seems like yesterday I was talking to Becca and Michelle in the hallways talking about our fun filled summer full of beaches and par-tays. But now Michelle is either in Califorina or in jail. I guess I'll find out when I recieve a letter from either spot.
- if you mix up the letters in spot you get stop or pots or post or tops or ospt or opts
I'm thinking about taking over the garage for the summer. Cleaning it up and making it mine...No I'll most likely just put a couch in it and have a thing of juicy juice sitting next to it. I'll just spend my time in there playing with the garage opener and listening to Engelbert Humperdink whilst playing with my new 1950's gear I got at a flea market in Paw Paw.
Anyone up for Paw Paw flea markets while we're on the subject anyone...anyone?
Well then
I'm off to take a shower and play with my amazingly large hat.
hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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2006 19 June :: 12.33pm
How does it feel to be locked inside another dream
That never had a chance of being realized?
What the fuck are you looking at?
I'll tell you what you're looking at
Everyone you ever fucking laughed at
Look in my eyes for the answers - typical
I can feel it underneath like a miracle
Everybody in the world needs more than
Lies and consequences to power them
Once again, it's me and no one else
I can't remember if there was a someone else
It's not mine, it's not fair, it's outta my hands
And it's shaking - you'll never take me
-Slipknot
You strive for perfection
But you don't have the tools
Human weakness embodied
Fodder for fools
Feeding the fear of life itself
Over and over again
And choose not to see
Bow down and worship me at the altar of shame
So you're the saint and I'm the sinner?
You will never understand
You're the saint and I'm the sinner
No - you will never understand
Born with eyes
But they are not to see
Living on your knees
Choking on your spiritual agony
Follow the traces of blood
Throughout the past centuries
You choose not to see
Bow down and worship me at the altar of shame
-Arch Enemy
Ignorance is not bliss
-Arch Enemy
It is funny how one day can be so great and the next it seems as if you walk across hell for someone so they can spit in your face time and time again. I am not feeling well at all today and yet somehow still someone desides to make it his duty to cut me down. Nice. I want absolutely nothing to do with him right now. Oh I know that I'll add it to my mountain of brush-offs sooner or later, but like I said its a mountain, and even mountains have to crumble eventually. I'd like to see what happens when mine does.
On another note Cedar Point people have been dropping out because of fear of fast moving objects soo I'm sure we'll have enough room.
: D
hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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2006 18 June :: 1.21pm
:: Mood: chipper
helsinki was great. came home a bit early, but that's to my liking i suppose.
no more worries about anymore stupid prats, and for that i'm glad. now i have my prospects set on the hope that everyone around me will get on with their lives, stop lying, and live happily- if not ever after.
nananana
amen
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2006 15 June :: 10.08am
:: Music: Informatik- A Matter of Time
Its hard to believe their gone.
Hill and I were supposed to hang out with Jess the day before they left but sadly that didn't work out. Buuuut hopefully there will be a bonfire at Jess's house when they return. Yup, its about time everything had gotten straightend out. Now I believe everythings going okay again. No more drama. *sigh of relief*
Cedar Point is coming up! This year I'm having a shit load of people coming such as Ryan, Josiah, Uzzi (most likely), Kimber, hopefully Michelle will come..that is if she isn't in jail, Hillary, Thaddeus, Christina, Phil, and I know I'm missing someone. But whatever. Now we're working on ride situations. I know I'm riding with Hilly and Thad, who knows maybe Josiah will ride with us, doubtful seeing how Ryan has a bigger truck than Thad. Everything will be worked out though. I made sure to change the date because I wanted to make sure if Hill wanted to go she could. If Jess wants to come she is more than welcome as well. But like I said we still need to figure out how to get everyone down there. Stuff a couple of the fatties in the trunk and make room for about five other people, yeah I think that would work.
-Hill I'll make sure you have water, you can pound on the roof if you dont have enough air. : D
We'll I guess I'm off to find some cookies to exturminate.
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2006 3 June :: 4.45pm
:: Music: Savage Garden- I don't know you anymore
Wow
Things can really change in two hours.
Brittanys tonight.
Dying my hair, I hope it turns out alright. Eh *shrug*
Man have you ever been so mad that your heart feels like its literaly breaking?
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2006 27 May :: 11.09pm
:: Music: Dj Sammy: California Dreamin'
Man today was something else.
I went out with mum to buy wedding shoes, and smoothies for Christina. Damn Chrissy for not sharing. Yes anyways. Then we had people over right after I had a major break-down. It took my mind off of things for awhile until I completely fucked up my ancle again. I have very weak ancles and they tend to snap. It hurts like a bitch, then on top of the nausea I'm lonely. Whatever. I guess everyone gets lonely now and then but its one of those days I really wish I had someone here.
hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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