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2010 15 August :: 12.13am
Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more
Listen to my heart can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you I love you until the end of time
Come what may come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh come what may come what may
I will love you oh i will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Come what may come what may
I will love you until my dying day
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hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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2010 9 August :: 8.23pm
:: Music: A Rocket To the Moon; Like We Used To
I haven't seen you in days.
I'd miss you
...if I could
I've been working a lot, I know.
But seeing your face at the end of the day has always felt so right.
Why don't you look at me, or greet me at the door like you once did?
(is this the beginning of the end?)
A question a dread to ask.
You glue yourself to the television as if it were God himself standing there before you...I don't even get a glance.
I smile at you and jokingly ask if you've missed me...'No'
(did you realize that it has been 5 days...now 6)
Honey what's wrong? Long day at work? ' Nothings wrong. '
(I'm sure)
I'm so numb to you. And I know that its a defense mechanism but that's the only way I can protect myself from you now. What happens from here on out is.... I wish I knew.
I'd miss you
....if I could
It has become hard now to miss something unresponsive and blank.
But oh, is it easy to miss the one who once would drive 20 miles to see me, even if it meant not leaving the driveway, or the man who would wrap his arms around me when he thought I was asleep and whisper in my ear 'I love you' then give me a squeeze before a kiss on the neck.
Yet in the same breath I am not dense I know he's not there anymore.
But in all fairness
...neither am I
The only difference is - how long will it take for you to notice?
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hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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2010 3 August :: 11.21pm
A guy called me a bitch at work today. He looked 16, didn't have an ID so I didn't sell him chew. So he called me a bitch. And I don't know why, but I laughed like it was the funniest damn thing I have heard in a long time.
hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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2010 2 August :: 5.05pm
I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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acidtears
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2010 1 August :: 9.19pm
:: Mood: amused
Adam Lambert has been like crack for me the past week.
hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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2010 31 July :: 3.58pm
:: Music: Lily Allen
I could say that I'll always be here for you
But that would be a lie and quite a pointless thing to do
I could says that I'll always have feelings for you
But I've got a life ahead of me, I'm only twenty two
Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older
And now you've gone it as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage
You always made it clear that you hated my friends
You made me feel so guilty when I was running around with them
And everything was always about being cool
And now I've come to realize there's nothing cool about you at all
Lily Allen Lyrics on www.lyrics-celebrities.anekatips.com
Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older
And now you've gone it as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage
Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder,
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older,
And now you've gone it feels as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage
hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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2010 31 July :: 3.48pm
:: Mood: accomplished
Moving on, and it feels good. :)
hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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2010 27 July :: 11.31am
Hang on
When the water is rising
Hang on
When the waves are crashing
Hang on
Just don't ever let go
I'm so stubborn
It's how I got here
So alone
Feels like forever
I wanna swim away
And breath the open air
But I feel so afraid
Then I hear you say
Hang on
When the water is rising
Hang on
When the waves are crashing
Hang on
Just don't ever let go
I'm so hungry
How can I stay here?
I'm starving
For what I hold so dear
Like a hurricane
It takes everything
From me
Wake me from this dream
Hang on
When the water is rising
Hang on
When the waves are crashing
Hang on
Just don't ever let go
Hang on
When you're barely breathing
Hang on
When your heart's still beating
Hang on
Just don't ever let go
Three days
Or thirty years
So hopeless
It doesn't matter
Don't say it's too late
If you blink your eyes
The sun is rising
The sun is rising
Hang on
When the water is rising
Hang on
When the waves are crashing
Hang on
Just don't ever let go
Hang on
When you are barely breathing
Hang on
When your hearts still beating
Hang on
Just don't ever let go
hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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2010 26 July :: 11.05pm
:: Mood: drained
shfxnvmxasjf....i don't even know.
The new job is going good. I am working everyday this week except Thursday. The only bad thing about this job is being on my feet all day. I'm getting used to it though. It never fails, the gas station becomes empty, so I go to sit down, and as soon as my ass touches the chair, there's a customer. I have phrases like "Have a good Day?", "How are you?", and "Credit or Debit?" stuck in my head. I dream in PLU numbers. But, I do not regret starting there. Everyone's friendly, my boss and co workers are awesome and hilarious. It's very laid back. I like it. It's easy. But, first thing I need to get is my driver's license, then GED, then save money for the tattoo job next summer. And eventually, once all is taken care of, start looking at apartments. But, it's going to be a busy week. Luckily tomorrow is going to be very easy. My shortest shit yet will be tomorrow, only 2 hours. Not bad at all. My downtime consists of talking about booty calls and other dirty things with my boss. Love it. But, better get to bed. See ya.
hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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2010 23 July :: 11.57am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: "Happy" By Leona Lewis
Fucking Doctors
Well, today sucks so far. I kept trying to get a hold of the Gastro office, when I finally got through I learned my Doctor doesn't work there anymore, and they have a note not to schedule me there anymore with anyone. Because I had to reschedule a few times. Excuse the fuck out of me, Life happens. The majority of the time my mom was not feeling well enough to drive me, and I cannot walk to Greenville. Fuck that. Whatever, the nurses and Secretaries there were bitches anyway. So luckily I found 3 highly respected Gastro Doctors that I need to call. I hope they accept my insurance, because I need to see a Gastro Doctor. But, onto another subject. My grandparents are picking me up later and we're going out to dinner, then tomorrow, I start work. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. No, it's not my dream job, but its a job and sure beats the hell out of working at a Fast Food place. I start tomorrow at 2, then end at closing time, 10. So, luckily I don't have to wake up earlier or a anything. Then next week Me and David might hang out, depends on my work schedule and a few other factors. But, I better get going. Bye.
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hasten to drown into beautiful eyes..
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