the PS overnight was nice last night
i learned a lot about Timmy and Dave that i hadn't known before
i had always seen Tim as the perfect guy and it's just interesting to see him in such a different light
i'm really glad i'm in Dave's small group, lots of people were worried about it but they have no idea what it's like to be him and i have only the slightest idea and it just seemed like hell; we had shared our testimonies in the first small group of the evening and i shared mine and then at the next one Dave went into greater detail about what his life was like during his freshman and sophomore year and he made a comment (i'm not going to say what it is because it's not my place and he even said that he doesn't go sharing this with anyone) and he just looked straight at me and that was the only time he'd looked at me because i was sitting on the side of him and he had to turn his head and it was just like, "wow" i mean that sounds weird but there really isn't any other way to describe how i felt after he had looked at me; i don't know if it was that or just because he's good, but when Dave played the guitar and sang while we were there, it was so hard not to listen to because it just sounded soo good. he played a song for us that he had written that was like "when she frowns, the day goes grey" and you'd think he were talking about a crush but when i asked him, he said it was for his little sister
awwwwwwww
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AP IS OVER!!!!!!
HA! i'm so happy! history is done! over with! final! gone! WOOOHHHOOOOOOOO! :) :) :) :)
*sings to self* the essays were majorly easy
the multiple choice was a bit challenging but it was still better than i thought
um..... project serve overnight is tonight
oh! so i had a job interview at Wheaton Sports Center for the child care place and the woman called me and said "some people took on more hours but if they hadn't done that, you would have gotten the job so if anything comes up, you're going to be the first person i call" i was like WHAT!!!! (on the inside) but so hopefully something changes because there was this little baby/toddler girl who was crying and they didn't know because they couldn't hear her over the noise with the baby monitor and she motioned for the girl showing me the place to pick her up... i felt so bad, i wanted to pick her up and carry her around for a while
but yeah, i don't know, i'm tired so i'm going
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PS
AP IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sleeps
well, well, well, two years
i've survived through the crap
amazing, eh?
but yeah, one week more and i'll be done with the AP and crying either way, if i'm happy that it's over which i'm going to be anyways or if i did terrible
so i went and saw Radio at church this evening and i think Chris fell asleep
i don't know why he came, he said he didn't even like the movie
but yeah, i'm smoothing out the edges for the shirt design for relay
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HISTORY OVERLOAD
hey just a quick update, my computer's been messed up lately so i haven't been able to update in the safety of my room, i'm in my mom's room and i don't know when she's getting home so that's why this is going to be quick.... so i've been overly stressing about school, my AP test is on May 7th and i'm nervous as anything
i hung out with Sus last night which was nice because we hadn't hung out in a while
this school week is going to be great, i've got two days of normal school and then a morning test, no school thursday and a half day friday
Friday is the two year mark AHHH! it's crazy
Thursday i'm hanging out with Dahvede and Ruthie during the day and Ruthie and Manny at night because we're going to see a play at Timothy Christian and then on Friday Ruthie and i are going to Dinner, Movie, and a Chat, probably unless she doesn't like the movie (Radio) i do, i think it's really sweet, it does make me want to cry though but yeah, ummm history's been insane lately and i think that's all i'm going to risk writing

stressed out a bit
hi, okay so today in english we had a sub, so if you couldn't guess, we didn't do anything and randomly Manny jumps up from the heater/cooler thing (which is right by my desk) and puts his hands to his zipper on his pants. i just assumed he was fooling around with me to see how i would react but he unzipped his pants and showed me his boxers. so Veronica asks what we were talking about and Manny turns to do the same thing to her and she wasn't as okay with it, i attempted to stop him but he did it anyways so yeah, oh, and he also commented on what i said to him last night before i got offline, it was something like "alright, well i'm off for the evening, ha i'm getting off before you" because he was supposed to have gotten offline two hours earlier and he thought i was making an innuendo which i completely wasn't and didn't fully understand what he was talking about until i went back and looked at the end of the conversation... oops.
ummm, what else? oh, i had a PS training last night and i think i understand Dave a little bit more than i did which is good
well i've got to go do more crap that i don't want to do, but oh well, school's over in seven weeks and the AP is over in three *cries* it's so soon
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i have had the chorus of that song stuck in my head for a really long time
note: this is from yesterday, my computer was being stupid and then i will write for today
Okay, first of all, what gives anyone the idea that they have the right to judge other people? It’s even worse when the people don’t even know the people they are judging. It’s like they think they’re the most important people in the world and, in truth, the people they make fun of are going to be more successful at life in the next five years than those people will be for their entire lives. All right, so we had a pep assembly today (woo, woo, *rolls eyes*) and there were these morons behind me (the preps/jocks/all around morons/jerks/self-centered idiots) that were making fun of the kids on Scholastic Bowl. It’s this team full of uber smart people and they compete with other schools with facts and stuff and our school is really good and we’ve won state for three years in a row so the team members went up to hang the banner we got. The guys behind me called them nerds and laughed about it. That ticked me off, and I was getting more and more angry as they talked about the girls on the dance team. These are the girls that wear the revealing, tight clothes to attract “that kind of attention” just so they can feel powerful by shooting their suitors down. When one of the aforementioned morons yelled “Smear the Queer” directed at Manny, I couldn’t just sit there. I turned around and glared at one of them and I know he saw me and I turned around. However, they continued to talk about it so I turned around and asked the guy who had seen me “Are you done?” so he asks the guy who made the comment if they were done. You know, it would be easier if I just put this in dialogue.
Me: “Are you done?”
Moron A: “I don’t know. Hey Jono, are we done?”
Moron B: “Umm, no, I’m not done.”
Me: “Are you done?” (still glaring)
Moron B: No, I still go to school here, I haven’t graduated yet.”
Me: (sneers and turns around)
Okay, so now I understand why Manny hates him. What kind of idiot cracks jokes like that? I wanted to crack something and let me tell you, it was not a joke.
In other news, I chatted a little bit with Berit today, which was nice because I normally don’t see him, ever. I explained why Ruthie had been out of school for the past three days and apparently, he hadn’t even noticed even though they see each other several times during the day and even stop and talk once every day. *sighs* oh well, I’m off, I’ll update later
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note: on to today
okay, so last night i went mini-golfing and let's just say that was interesting and then went to get ice cream and saw a girl with a skirt that was, no joke, six inches from top to bottom RARGH people make me mad when they do that, but yeah, so my dream last night, it had Manny in it, and i really don't understand why i had it because i wasn't thinking about him at all before i fell asleep so who knows what happened with that and it's truly embarrassing and i hated it so i'm not putting it in here.... today, did some chores, went outside and sunbathed while doing homework, went over to Ruthie's, finished Sleepless in Seattle and watched Guys and Dolls (Nathan Detroit, I want you out of my life! (i'm going to go up to Manny tomorrow and say that to him and see how he reacts)) and then went out to eat with my dad, and after hating my computer for a little while, am now here, typing this
hi
okay, i'm done
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Ruthie *sighs*
okay, so she got hit in the eye with a birdie that got smashed and she's got blood in her eye (if you want a better definition, i can't help you) so she can't go to school for the rest of the week and can't put her head down (so she probably shouldn't have been laying down for all that time in the trainers office, oops) but yeah.... umm... i don't really know what else to say today... oh! i started my short story. this is the first paragraph:

His weight overwhelmed her so that she could not carry him any farther. Leaves shuffled as he fell from her shoulder to the forest floor. Finding her instrument in her rucksack, she unzipped his jeans and slowly slid them down his legs. He moaned softly and she held her fingers to his lips. “Goodbye Cade.” She leapt up to avoid the spurts of blood. The knife had cut it so beautifully, so perfectly. Tears surged from his eyes and his mouth opened in vain protest of what he could not help. After sliding his pants back up, she closed his eyelids to cover his motionless eyes. She reached into his back pocket for his wallet and cut up his driver’s license with the bloodied knife, letting the pieces flutter to the silent forest floor. After taking the sixty-six dollars out of his wallet, she wiped her knife with the red cloth also kept in her rucksack and put them back in the small pouch they came from. The rucksack was thrown over her shoulder and she began back to the truck on the side of the dirt road that led into Harmony.

great, i know, it's fun. it's about a female hitchhiker who was abused by her father as a child so when a girl picks her up it's fine, but when a guy picks her up, she asks for lunch and slips some slow acting poison into his drink and then cuts of his genitals right before he dies and he ends up bleeding to death (okay i got the idea from an article that i read, that women murderers tend to use poison, (finds article) an abundance of shallow stab wounds indicating a lack of upper-body strength, overkill, bludgeoning in which teh victim is immobilized or drunk, genital mutilation, or a drop of blood that comes back without a Y chromosome
lovely right?
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Okay, first of all, one of my friends told me today that her boyfriend has eaten her out already but she won’t give him a blowjob because “it’s against her morals”. How in the heck can one be against someone’s morals and not the other? I don’t know, she just makes me sad. Her life has been going down the drain and I can’t stop it. Anyways, so I was online last night and Manny had a somewhat inappropriate away message up so I commented on it and he told me today that he wasn’t going to put it up anymore. That was fun. He was really surprised, though, when I told him why my weekend sucked. I found that really amusing. I had a biology test today and I don’t know if I did well at all. I’m really nervous about it. I’ve actually been looking for a downloadable font that is elvish. I think that would be sweet because I can write in it but it would just look nicer if I could type out stuff in it. OOHHHH!!! Okay, I definitely just found it. Yay!! I really shouldn’t be doing this right now because I’ve got a ton of stuff to do so I’m going to go take my shower and then continue doing all my homework and other stuff.
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