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tuwang

:: 2011 19 November :: 3.25pm

alright, so more detail....

Basically, when I came back from Japan I was living with my mom for the time being and didn't really have any friends outside of work.That's when I decided to fill my schedule with nothing but work.

Now, I live on my own and have a girlfriend whom I'd like to see on occasion. I DO get to see her usually twice a week, but she's in school and by the time our friday hangout date rolls around she's so exhausted all she wants to do is sleep. I on the other hand, have been sleeping all week and want to go out.

This week, I got a drunk phone call from her on thursday around 2 in the morning. She was too exhausted to really "hang out" or do whatever yesterday, and now that I have to work until midnight tonight she's going out with all her friends. I mean... I'm not upset that she's going out without me, but she had planted the idea in my head and I thought we were going somewhere other than inside on friday.

but of course she was too tired to really even have a conversation with me.

Also notable, when she goes out... she looks good, and she's fun to dance with. I haven't really had an opportunity to combine those two things at once. Usually she comes over on saturdays anyway, but she's been out and has taken the heels off and only wants to sleep because we both have to work early on sundays.

I feel like this should be the other way around, or at least that's what I've been told my entire life.

I am a glorified body pillow at the moment.

I'm sure this will change in the future as I get a new job hopefully within the next few months, and I'm positive it's not that she doesn't WANT me there, but damnit I'm getting frustrated and I don't know how to quell it.

I wouldn't be so frustrated if I didn't like her so much. She's really bright, I enjoy hanging out with her, tri-lingual, and has an ass that (as I've said before) is claimable on your taxes as a dependent.

What also doesn't help is that my room mates suck and keep me up all night. This has put me on a weird schedule and they are stressing me out, and I"m sick of my job that makes me work only the days I can see anyone outside of work.

I'm moving out in the next month and that's stressing me out as well.

I have finished re-doing the resume I've lost, including recontacting all of the references I've had, and for the most part looking at it I'm not the worst candidate in the "to be" place for my field.

I just feel like I"m getting the raw deal, and I want a break from stress.

advice? how does one be patient and motivated at the same time?

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tuwang

:: 2011 19 November :: 4.28am

I've never had this problem before... ever...

It's really frustrating. I've done this a thousand times with everyone else but when it really matters I can't follow through....

the hell?

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phil-himself

:: 2011 9 November :: 6.27pm

I think I lost my fuckin headache.

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tuwang

:: 2011 9 November :: 4.09pm

Started redoing the resume I lost when my old lappy blew up. It's been a pain in the ass recalling some of the information I had but hopefully it shouldn't be too much longer and I'll be able to get my foot in the door somewhere.

Not sure where to start but D.C. is apparently where it's at for my field so... good luck to me I guess.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 3 November :: 8.21am

in the now

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phil-himself

:: 2011 28 October :: 11.30am

yeah you're life's hard, tough shit, there's 7 billion people in this world and you think your issues are tough

first world problems

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phil-himself

:: 2011 20 October :: 7.02pm

And it's gonna be hell to pay.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 13 October :: 11.29pm

I have conversations with Nathan sometimes, they are pleasant. We talk about our lives and the world.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 10 October :: 12.25pm

No gods, No masters

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phil-himself

:: 2011 3 October :: 2.54pm

Sometimes I scare the hell out of myself, I like those days.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 30 September :: 11.26am

BAWWWWW LIFE'S HARD

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phil-himself

:: 2011 29 September :: 8.29pm

Tired of everyone's QQ on facebook

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andrea

:: 2011 17 September :: 3.25am

Sprawled in the cushioned whirl of pillows and sheets, I wonder if I'll ever get far enough away from this city, and it's poisonous orange glow, to see the starry sky again.

But the constant contrast of silhouettes against the ever illuminated night is more than charming...

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phil-himself

:: 2011 13 September :: 11.21am

All I know about Katy Perry is huge tits and music I don't care for.

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tuwang

:: 2011 28 August :: 10.59am

today should be interesting.

It's time to get it together.

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tuwang

:: 2011 28 August :: 10.59am

today should be interesting.

It's time to get it together.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 24 August :: 3.11pm

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phil-himself

:: 2011 24 August :: 3.10pm

coldcuts make me fart a lot

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phil-himself

:: 2011 20 August :: 11.07am

This is what losing your mind looks like; it's hilarious

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phil-himself

:: 2011 8 August :: 7.59pm

I should have been around in the 40s I think

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phil-himself

:: 2011 5 August :: 12.14pm

incoming sandwhich report

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phil-himself

:: 2011 1 August :: 3.31pm

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tuwang

:: 2011 1 August :: 1.57pm

so I finally put up the deuces, and for good reason too.

The idea that I was being played was apparent, but I didn't mind as long as it wasn't staring me in the face. Last Tuesday it spit in my face and I was left with no choice. Really I should have drawn this conclusion in the beginning. too bad because that ass is seriously tax deductible. I mean that in the nicest sense.

what was nice as well was the back up that I got from everyone.

But worry not, you think I don't have a back up plan? pfff... I don't really. But you know me, perpetually on the prowl.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 1 August :: 11.59am

You ever stare into oblivion and realize ain't nothing staring back?

yep

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phil-himself

:: 2011 27 July :: 8.02pm

Yeah well I don't give a damn

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