Over it~
Well, as you can probably tell... I am over guys completely this weekend when I was singing the theme song from stuebenville I realized that I could spend my entire life without a guy. I wouldn't mind spending it alone with god. Crazy as it sounds I feel so loved by him and I have never had that stop it has stayed with me unlike the pains the all the other guys give me. I am over them. I have a few things still to figure out but those are going to take time. I will figure them out someday...

Spiderman?
Ha, I talked to a guy I liked today. He is soo funny and weird... but I am not legal yet...haha in 15 days I will be... woo that's a laugh riot. anyways, I love my cousin james he is soo funny. O well haha I am done for now...

None
I am so cold right now. I am tired and I am mad at myself. It seems to me I am mad at myself a lot. I went to gymnastics today, it was quite fun. Except for the fact when i was trying to do a stupid handstand roll-down I couldn't. Oh-well life sucks deal with it. I am going to go now because my wrist hurts...

Bitches
My mom called my cat a bitch, it ticked me off. We put up the christmas tree and got out the christmas stuff. What fun?! I love christmas but my parents have been so moody lately I don't think i am going to like it this year. My mom keeps on arguing with me about the about the fucking computer she is so bitchy I just want to leave I can't stand her or my father anymore. Oh- well I suppose that is life and I am going to have to deal with it.

Parents....
Well, things are fine now except for the fact that I absolutly hate my parents..okay not hate but very much dislike. They seem to not even care anymore. I could kill myself and it wouldnt even cross their mind once that I was gone before a horrible smell arose from the upstairs. I don't like guys and they don't like me so what the fuck is the big deal? my outlook on life has gone down the fucking shitter. O-well I guess I am going to have to live with it until I tragically die somehow (hehehe) can't wait see ya in hell/heaven which ever one I make it to because supposidly you go to hell if you kill yourself...

Well, I am confused and boys are confusing... sometimes I wish I had no feelings at all. NOthing for me to get caught up with or anything like that. YOU know? It's so hard living....

Charming, Beautiful Exterior~
I can't wait until Christmas it is my favorite time of the year. The smells and sites. Everything is so beautiful covered in the white shimmering snow. So peaceful, heaven on earth. I hear that it is going to be a pretty warm winter. Not a lot of snow. It seems to be like that now. Last year there wasn't a lot of snow, each year there seems to be less. Times in December and January where there isn't any snow. So mabye we are failing as an entire nation. Maybe there will be no more heaven on earth...

monkey bone
Ha, i don't know what to think right now. But I am watching monkey bone and so is olivia and in the begining the main character get's a boner (on a cartoon) it is really amuzing. Yeah. I am really bored and I hope that my brother doesn tcome homw and see me on the computer I have been on here the whole time. Well I guess I will not speak anymore nothing to say. confused actually

Mark? is that you?
Ha, I am so dumb. Last night I watched haunted (the show that mark was suppose to be on) and I didn't even realize who he was on the show until the last 5 minutes. He was in it the whole entire time but man does he look different with facial hair... so damn sexy!

Mark is hot...
I am sick and mark hoppus is on t.v tonight...

I hate Bus drivers
It's official I hate bus drivers. I had to ride on a bus and 11 00 at night with out heat because of a fucking bus driver. I am now sick, I would love to sue. Well I read this cool book in 4 hours. I have never read a book in that short of time. Ha nonsense I speak of. Okay Later~

Why?
Well, things suck as always... Why does everything have to be about them? I don't get it. I am an old house and everyone else is a new house. That's just the way it is and will always be.

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I am alone... no one loves me... thank you.