<marquee> My Soul Cries for deliverance~*</marquee>

:: 2007 5 February :: 10.28pm

i'm running out of moniter space, i want another one....
its awsome to have so many windows open at once.

:: 2007 5 February :: 8.37pm

i have rediscovered the fun in playdough.
rock on.

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:: 2007 5 February :: 11.47am

i'm thinking baja truck....

:: 2007 5 February :: 2.10am
:: Music: MC pee pants (MC chris) - i want candy

so cold, i hate ohio so much, i'm definatally hoping school is cancelled tomorrow.

in other news, things are looking up in life for me.
I'm hopefully getting a truck this weekend.
I've got some hours at howies
going to hang out with some friends.
probably some sledding saturday night after i work.

but like AJ said earlier "What the fuck happened to global warming?"
its like 0 we dont have a tempature in lima i threw some water out on the side walk, come back like 30 seconds later and its ice
i'm betting my car wont start tomorrow to drive to class, and i definataly dont want to walk the 1/4 mile with no temprature. 1320 feet is way way to far in this weather.

anyways, i go to bed happy tonight.

rayray

:: 2007 4 February :: 5.27pm

So I am long overdue for a good rant.
I knew it was too good to be true that I was truly happy.
That all I did was smile.
And that we were getting along so good.
We aren't arguing.
Just creating a huge space.

I hate how when I leave for a few hours when him and his daughter are here, I come back to this place absolutly trashed.
It's fucking ridiculous how little control he has over her.
He doesn't pay any fucking attention to her and just lets her do whatever.
The last time I tried to say anything about it, I got my head bit off.
Not only is it that, she goes through ALL of my stuff.
When she takes a shower, she uses MY towel.
Hello, haven't you ever heard of getting one from the shelf with a TON of towels?
It's actually quite simple. I do it rather often.
I know she's 8 and I shouldn't be so pissed but for Christ Sakes.
When I was 8 years old, I was using my own towel.
Everytime she gets a glass of WATER, she gets different glass.
She attempted to make mac & cheese.
Eats ALL of our food.
It's insane.

What hurts most of all, is that he's not happy.
I try my hardest to make him happy.
I give him everything I can..
I'm not Paula, and I'm not Lori.
Nor will I ever be, and nor do I want to be even close.
For some god forsaken reason, he holds Paula on this pedistal above everyone else.
She cheated on her HUSBAND with Mike, and they had a kid together.

I'm not sure if its the PMS peaking through but I'm in such a terrible mood.
I cried the whole way home from my moms.
And I'm fighting back the tears right now.
Everything is going to fall to shit again.

:: 2007 4 February :: 10.24am

Action shot!

Didn't get any of AJ though, but this one is real good.

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:: 2007 4 February :: 12.21am
:: Music: clutch - the incompariable mr ripley

bed...

sorry for the drunk dials.
you guys rock.

:: 2007 4 February :: 12.07am

i can't belive i wrote any of that...

i feel dumber now.

:: 2007 3 February :: 10.54pm

lizzy sorry i drunk dialed you, i really am, i hate when people do it ot me.

this stuff rocks though. rock on dormbrew!@ i musta drank alto of it or asomthign

lizzzty, i really am sorry.

and if i called anybody else i'm sorry.
you guys are my favroite peoople

whoah man.

thuis post comeas from the cl.oset, cause we made it htere.

i just left a voicemail for mindy telling her she suckjs hahaha.

mindy, you suck haha!

cl;oset wine is great.

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:: 2007 3 February :: 10.50pm

if i drunk dialed anytone, i'm sorty man.

:: 2007 3 February :: 10.34pm

my camera, it wont take man.... it wont take.

haha, durnken update again
i aqwna one scotcatch and one beer.

man i'm drunck.

man where am i, i'm definatally not home.

this is crazy

allright ledzepplin.

i can'tspell, wine pong = bad idea. d

why do i always update this when i'm drunk. haha

this hobo wine is alot more than i expected
AJ wants antoher book, he's not gonna lie, haha

man, i dont know how many games of wine pong ilost haha
i'd like to thanks all my friend, like nate, and jimi, and phil and chelsea and courtany, and AJ and all the cool people out there.

andy, you rock man, man, i dont know even where i am.
youj ,knjow what i hate, skanks.... i really do, i wenout with one for like 2 years and it was a waste of my time and day.

holy shit it was 3-1 tonight in wiune pong, i totally got my ass whipped i think, haha

time for some drunk dialing and sutff. rock on

lizzy your first.
and then who knows who?

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:: 2007 3 February :: 7.18pm

so bored.... but it was fun.
BeaVer says:
wft dude ?
Mindy says:
what
BeaVer says:
nothing
BeaVer says:
geeze
Mindy says:
okay
BeaVer says:
don't flip out on me
Mindy says:
what are you talking about
BeaVer says:
you just snapped at me
BeaVer says:
what'd you snap at me for?
BeaVer says:
gah...
Mindy says:
i'm not mad
BeaVer says:
your sure acting like it
Mindy says:
no, i'm just doing other things
BeaVer says:
yeah, okay... i see how it is

rayray

:: 2007 3 February :: 5.09pm

I hate it when the weather is shitty out because then I don't feel like going anywhere.
Then I get really irritated from being sick of sitting home..
The madness!
Snow = Shitty.

rayray

:: 2007 2 February :: 1.00am

Today we spent opening up to each other.
And I felt awful because he didn't go to sleep until 6:30 this evening after working all night long.
I feel like a load has been lifted.
When he was in showering, I went out and started the car for him, and in 2 inches of snow on the windshield, I wrote "I LOVE YOU"..
It's hard to believe that yesterday marked 15 months.
The more time I spend with him, the more I love him.

I haven't cried in awhile.
And it feels great.
I'm constantly smiling.
It's a wonderful feeling.
And it's not drug alcohol or pill induced either.

Anyway I need to get some rest. I believe Rachel is stopping by on her way home from CMU.
I haven't seen her in FOREVER!
Oh, and I saw Tara yesterday.
I miss her dearly.
She'll always be my best friend.
And so will Justy, and of course my sister who I love more than anything.

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:: 2007 1 February :: 6.57pm

so yeah, the wine is definatally alcoholic heh heh heh.

thirsty thursday as aj says.