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2009 20 April :: 10.55pm
So right now out of all the things that were bugging me the only thing left is how emotionally disconnected I feel from my family. Well, I guess you can add friends to that too.
I feel like everyone is against me. Sometimes when I spend time with my family I feel like they aren't even my family and it is a horrible feeling.
Will it ever go away?
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2009 17 April :: 11.50am
Things are better already..
It took them forever to get my check thing situated and really it didnt get situated but whatever..
The owner of the company gave me cash.. Went to the bank, withdrew money and said "here you go, when you get your check in the mail just cash it, and give me back the same amount I just gave you."
Because my check went to my old address it will take up to a week for the tranfer of address to go through or whatever..
Yay!
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2009 16 April :: 7.39pm
Things in my life couldn't be any more crappy..
I have a bitch trying to aggravate me to leave Mike, because she thinks I am not qualified to take care of her sister..
I want to buy a house, but that is not going the way I had planned..
I barely have credit, so I can't get a loan, they want me to get a credit card, but I can't get a credit card because I barely have credit..
I didn't get my paycheck today, and who knows when I will get one..
Apparently it got mailed out, or so they think, they aren't really sure.. My check NEVER gets mailed out..
So I have to wait until tomorrow to see if I get it..
But here is the real kicker, they asked me to verify my address, and they only have my old address on file.. So my check was sent to that address.. Delaying it just a couple of more days..
I asked them to re-issue me a new one and void the one they sent out..
But their response was "we have to wait and see if you get it"
Leaving me to wait until fucking MONDAY to see if I get a check and if I don't then they will re-issue me a new one, and have someone from Owosso drop it off at work for me..
Fucking A.. Not to mention, my boss and I have been going rounds all week because he is a fucking moron..
So I right now, I am ready to just quit life. I want to cry, curl up in a ball and sleep for like a month..
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2009 17 April :: 1.30am
so I'm really drunk....
prime minister Aso gave me 12000 yen today...
while making my poor ass happy, it also made me sad for the people working here.
I suppose they had the right idea in that I will spend it IN japan and not send it anywhere else or save it for America.
good night.
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2009 12 April :: 7.20pm
So I had Easter dinner with both my parents, at my moms house..
Apparently hell froze over..
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2009 8 April :: 5.45pm
So I put an old mixed cd in my cd player today on the way home from work because I needed some new music, and I forgot what was on the CD..
And all these memories hit me like a ton of bricks..
Some good, some bad, and some that I can't seem to get off my mind.
This CD had songs that describe so many things in my life..
One song in particular hit home.. Well actually two songs hit home..
And now I can't get the one song out of my head..
And its probably not the best idea for it to be there..
Ugh.. this is why people label should label their cd's..
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2009 5 April :: 1.35pm
Fuck x64 vista.
32 bit W7 here i come, the time is now.
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2009 5 April :: 2.41am
Opticcipital or Optical Apocalypse
The distinct edges and hard lines are blurring. They pulsate and quiver with an unquenchable need to escape their dimensional restraints. To shift, to fluctuate in size and shape. To annoy and drive the eyes insane*.
*Read more..
Their movements are subtly unmistakable.
They are tired of defining only the objects they envelop, and wish to be seen as entities themselves. They are sick of being the outlining structure that holds everything together and inside.
To inundate, and to invade
Messages on optic nerves
To flood them and to persuade
Chemicals to make it worse
Every rod and cone there is
Each retinal layer and lens
Will rot and finally perish
As my acuity descends
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2009 4 April :: 9.59pm
I seriously feel like I am losing my mind.
And one thing I hate more than anything, is when people don't listen to me, or acknowledge the fact that I am talking to them..
Not to mention I have other things on my mind that are making me want to throw up and crawl in a corner and cry because that is the only way I know how to deal with them, have known how to deal with them for a very long time..
How fucking lame..
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2009 31 March :: 11.11am
things are going good with jordan and i the only trouble is my insecurities
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2009 30 March :: 5.13pm
I feel like all my friends worlds are falling apart and there is nothing I can do about it..
How fucking shitty..
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2009 28 March :: 6.22pm
Bowled a 300 on wii!!
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2009 27 March :: 11.42am
So I took a day off work to recooperate.
Work killed me yesterday, and I can seriously barely move.
I pulled a muscle in my right knee.
Of course it has to be the one that I had surgery on a few years back, not the one that doesn't ever hurt.. Go figure.
I am waiting for a reply back from some people about a washer and dryer.. Hopefully that happens this weekend too, and we can get that.
I had a dream last night, that everyone I used to hang out with from Cedar, showed up at my house in a grey school bus..
So apparently, my sister isn't coming up for two weeks now..
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2009 26 March :: 12.40am
:: Mood: StOcKeD!!!
These weekends just keep getting better and better!
Well Thursday I will be working for the day and the same during the day on friday but I'm not too upset about that because I never work and I need money motha fucka! lol. (I've been hanging out with Jessica too much...) Then Friday night my neice Kylie is going to spend the night with us and that's always a trip. Then Saturday AJ is changing oil on cars, then I'm going to Mindy's to give her her present, and I'll probably stay to party! I'm excited about that one! Then, FINALLY (!), Sunday night we're going to the Far From Finished, Flatfoot 56, and 10 Second March concert!!! Yay! Two other bands are going to be there but we've never heard of them so whatever...But the tickets were only 9 bucks a piece and 3 really kickass bands will be there! I'm super excited! I cant wait. So pretty much my weekend will consist manly of getting drunk and rocking out...! =)
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2009 23 March :: 7.09pm
After a long stressful week filled with 4 weeks worth of homework, a couple of exams, work, and very little sleep, I managed to come out alive.
I also survived a weekend that was filled with a 10 year old for the weekend, a barbeque, major cleaning, lots of wii bowling/golf/tennis and a trip to the movies.
Race to Witch Mountain, wasn't the greatest.
I have a PowerPoint presentation to work on, but I lack all sense of creativity.
Isn't it lovely how that works out?
It's like a vicious cycle.
Once I finish one workload, I get another thrown at me.
Not to mention, I need to figure out if I want to take classes this summer..
But it would also be nice to know what is going to happen once May comes..
My whole world will be up in a whirlwind then.
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