<marquee> My Soul Cries for deliverance~*</marquee>

:: 2008 27 October :: 11.37am

the sun came out today.

:: 2008 27 October :: 5.46am

All my eggs are now in one basket.

Chapter 2: the beginning.

tuwang

:: 2008 27 October :: 2.33pm

So, as with most updates as of late, I will preface my story with "interesting weekend".

this one I might actually describe though...

So Friday night was the Halloween party, which I feel like I'm continuously misspelling for some reason or another. A lot of fun, I got all good and sauced up for that because I had announcing to do. It helped with making everyone laugh, but did not help with pronouncing japanese names with horrible handwriting. To be crude, it looks like chicken scratch to me as is, but when someone writes like a 2 year old it makes it even more difficult. Either way, there was no harm done, and the party went off. It ended in a good mood and I continued to move on with my day. So at about 9 PM, me and my group of friends, including Nate, who thinks I'm a racist, Kelly, the blonde cutie who also thinks I am a racist, Yui, Nick, Megan, Adam, and Cooper, headed out to Kyoto for a wonderful night of dancing and getting shit faced! yay!

There were a few things wrong with this for me....

1) I was dehydrated

2) I was way too tired to be pulling an all nighter

3) I didn't eat all day

So, after consuming 3 chu-his, a bottle of vodka, and a half a bottle of wine, my mind was in a state of intoxication that I have never seen before. Granted for the first few hours of dancing my mind worked fine, but after 3 LIT's in the club I started to have crazy ideas. This lead to me leaving my group and wandering around Kyoto at 4:30 in the AM. Not cool at all. Although moderately entertaining.

I'm sorry Chris. I wish you could have been there to see it.

I'm pretty sure I'm an alcoholic...

three cheers?

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:: 2008 26 October :: 9.54pm

Its hard to forgive what happened.

Its also hard to lose a friend that close.

what to do?

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alastar

:: 2008 26 October :: 4.49pm
:: Mood: determined
:: Music: Manchester Orchestra

I will indulge in every whim and woman that I meet.

:: 2008 26 October :: 3.52pm
:: Music: blink 182 - always

for once, i'm enjoying the rain

:: 2008 26 October :: 1.19pm

it really sucks losing sombody i was that close with, Its not worth my pain for that though.

also, with all the depressing entry's lately, i bring you ken, the lawn jockey

:: 2008 25 October :: 4.11am
:: Mood: numb

"regret nothing, Live every day as if it we're your last"
Since red flannel I've learned alot about myself, alot more than I care to know.

I know now that I try and change myself to fit in with someone else.
I know what its like to say "I love you" and truly mean it
I have cried, I don't do that ever.
I have driven to points where I feel nothing at all, then I cut myself just to see if pain even exists, it doesn't.
I have compleatly handed my heart to someone
who had no idea what to do with it, and later crushed it.

I knew what I was getting into, she warned me, told me not to do it.
I've also learned to listen.
I've learned lies hurt more than the truth.

In the past month, I've felt the best I ever have in life, I feel the worst I ever have right now.

This girl has driven me to do things I've never considered ever before, I wish I could put into words the way I'm feeling now.

flexeril can't even take these feelings away.

When the time comes, just remember.
"Regret nothing and live every day as if its your last."

Erin Marie Crisp,

Again, I've never been as sorry as I am now about how much i hurt you.
again I'm sorry.

Justin McW,
You we're right, my knife is definatally not sharp enough.

:: 2008 22 October :: 11.28pm

Sons of Anarchy
so far on SoA i've recognized 2 songs

clutch - can't stop progress
Dropkick murphys - johnny i hardly knew ya

jax is a badass, plain and simple, throwing a guy through a glass door last week, then this week shooting him in the head.

also gemma's friend had a good one liner "six years of taking two in the ass while a teenager cums on
my face!"

rayray

:: 2008 22 October :: 6.16pm

So after a lot of discussing, we have highly considered moving to Wyoming..
The final decision isn't going to be up to me, because I am not the one that has a child.
Also, we are looking at getting an english bulldog puppy.
Im still waiting for my civil service date.
And at this rate, I don't think I am going to get in to take it until december.

alastar

:: 2008 21 October :: 1.03am
:: Music: Saul Williams

Time
All of mankind grows and falls while seconds pass to centuries
And none of the ones left behind can find the answer to what's meant of these
Temples built in ancient times, lines written in the bible
Ignorance breeds confusion, birthing chaos, war, and squabble
While every turn and twitch of hands marks a moments stark abscission
One man thinks inside his mind with blurry, clouded vision
How many days can possibly reside within this hour?
And all he wants is someone who will praise him for his power
Not to bow or even beg, just simply nod in their agreement
That all his work was not in vain, to bring him closer to the cement
That every picture taken doesn't fade to nonexistence
The lens, the frame, the cameras flash; they serve as his resistance
To forgotten times, dead languages, and man's own great collapse
And so he strives to capture time itself within his photographs
He reflects upon the devastation and thinks that man can now do no worse
But the ticking clocks with twirling hands, their swinging pendulum it lowers
With a razors edge, moving back and forth, it slices time into its portions
While everyone lines up to find their months are now divided
The calendar hangs gutted, pages flip full of distortions
But dates erased can't be replaced no matter where they hide it

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:: 2008 19 October :: 11.11pm
:: Music: weigh on my mind - the transplants

I've made the decision to stop drinking so much, also i need to get some shit straightened out in my life.

and i bring some lyrics,

Read more..

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tuwang

:: 2008 19 October :: 7.43pm

so. Interesting weekend.

I went and saw some old temple. I say it like that because after your 5th or 6th temple you stop appreciating the grandeur of them. Not that I have no appreciation at all... but they start to blend together. This one happened to be on top of this hill/mountain and almost naturally blended into the scenery. I mean, you had to look past the hordes of people that were there but otherwise it was quite scenic. It also helped that I had a fantastic tour guide, although I dont' think she thought so so much. Whatev, it was a good time.

Afterwards we went to eat pizza... which you don't see very often. (I've been here for about a month and 3 weeksish now and I've done pretty good, so I deserve a good cheating).

I've been progressivly losing weight... not so healthy I don't think, but I eat alot. Maybe I should just eat more?

this up coming weekend will be very hectic. Shigadai party on friday, and then kyoto on saturday (like every fucking weekend). But it's sort of the halloween weekend for them, so it should be interesting to see how they percieve the condemned holiday.

speaking of which, I still can't decide on a costume... any ideas?

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:: 2008 18 October :: 3.28am
:: Mood: high

i see it, i wonder if they do too.