I am so relieved. How fast dissapointment and pain can be relieved again by just a few simple words. How scared I was aswell. People can make many mistakes but using drugs is probably one of the biggest mistakes you can ever make. I can live with smoking and some alcohol now and then. But drugs just fucks you up, I mean so much worse then smoking and alcohol combined. Man I hate this world. So much temptation everywhere you look. And there is nothing that keeps people from taking temptation in to their hearts. Oh yeah there is something called a consience right? But who listens to that anymore these days. God made earth and the people. God is almighty. God knew what mankind was gonna do. God also makes mistakes.

At one point I feel like a total jerk / asshole to ask or tell somebody not to do drugs or smoking or alcohol. Cause I did... I mean, it doesn't make me feel good at all when I ask them that. But I am very relieved when they don't do it. I don't wanna forbid anyone anything, but please be smart and just don't do anything stupid. Don't you know whats good for you and what's not.

I lost a bit of my believe in you yesterday, I hope it will come back cause you also made the right choice.

I always wondered where my dumb sense of humor went off to. But now I know. When you have so much shit coming at you over and over again you can't really make a joke bout it anymore. I like to laugh, but not right now cause there is nothing to laugh about.

Everyone lies. Only the ones who truly love will not lie to their loved one. Still they lie sometimes and you know its not love then. Over time people have twisted love in so many shapes and forms that they forgot what it actually means and is. Don't you remember how it feels? You say yes but you have no idea. You will never hear me say "I KNOW what love is". I have no idea what love is but I know that I woul'dnt like anything more then to be with that one person who is there for me. She is waiting for me and I'm waiting for her. Our time together will come. She is the reason why I live and shall live on. I'd share my deepest thoughts with her and my saddest moments. I'd enjoy every second of having her with me. And sometimes we'll fight. And after fighting we kiss and make up. This is the girl I wanna share my life with and I hope she will let me into her world.
I can't say what love is, but I know what I feel for her. That's all that matters. I guess it's the closest thing that can be called love so I'll say I love her. I'll love her with every cell in my body and the matter of my soul.

What is my tomorrow gonna look like

Getting out of bed at 1 pm or something. Taking a shower, then go into town to buy some RWCD's. Get back home, burn some Iron Maiden and other bands. Then maybe some gaming with Athan, still need to gain some gold with him, 10 gold I loaned from Turath. That's gonna be at least 3 baron run's I guess. Ah well, then later at 19:00 Emperor raid starts, I hope to get my Lightforge Gauntlets. And after the Emperor raid there will be Molten Core raid at 21:00. Probably till 0:00 or something. And then I don't know...bleh.
In 9 days I'm gonna be in school again...man thats really some getting used to. I've been spending all my time inside behind my comp for how long? At least 7 weeks I think...damn.]
Ah well. Time to go studying. Shit happens. Now I'm gonna sleep and Gaby is the best girl in the world. I love you Gaby.