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jedibumblebee

:: 2002 26 December :: 7.28pm
:: Mood: cynical
:: Music: Built to Spill, Modest Mouse- Rentals

And I know the situation's never gonna change....but all I want from you... just tell me, do you love me?
New theory....more hugs, less drugs...

1 Fey | Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 26 December :: 1.41pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: Dead Milkmen- Punk Rock Girl

We got into her car, away we started rollin....I asked "How much you pay for this?", She said, "Nothing, man..,.it's stolen..."
Always stay true to your roots.

Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 26 December :: 2.25am
:: Mood: high

i get into way too much trouble.

peer pressure is a bitch.

and the tally is up to 6.

2 FeyBebop | Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 25 December :: 11.16am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Modest Mouse- Jesus Christ Was an Only Child

I know now what I knew then, but I didn't know then what I know now...
my kitty is so perplexed...

she's perched herself ontop of my computer, and she keeps trying to chase the mouse icon as it moves across the screen.

yeah, this is my amusement for today. merry xmas everyone. happy holidays.

Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 24 December :: 9.49pm

when can i find someone like me?

i just want to be comfortable again. thats really all i want.

Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 24 December :: 9.23pm
:: Mood: discontent
:: Music: Diesal Boy- Emo Boy

Emo boy met emo girl, barrettes in her hair and buddy holly glasses...and laminated passes...they axed the club and went back to his house...and fooled around to the new record from Modest Mouse..
I think i should probably tell him the next time i talk to him...i'll never be who he thinks i am, what he wants me to be. its really sad, he was asking where i got my pants, i think he was expecting me to say "oh, these? i picked them up at abercrombie or american eagle..." and really that's not me, it'll never be me...i cant ride around in his pimp-mobile and pretend that i like DMX. it'll just never be true. this is the definition of "not my type". i mean, i will say i go for a lot of types...but i just dont see this ever working out. i'm a little bohemian punk girl....but with a ghetto homie boyfriend? i dont think so. no way. that and he scared the shit out of me with the romantic bullshit. if he doesnt even know me yet, why waste his time trying to impress me? i'm not what he wants anyhow.

Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 24 December :: 6.02pm
:: Mood: lethargic
:: Music: Modest Mouse- Broke

Broken hearts want broken necks...I've got some things that I want to forget, but I can't...
the day is GONE. already. and i have done nothing. all day. its kindof sad really. i watched two movies though...Dogma and American Pie 2. so basically i havent moved from this computer chair.

and jason, i didnt mean to "hang up" on you last night. my computer disconnected and i didnt feel like screwing with it. however it was difficult falling asleep last night, i was worried that once i did i would never get out of bed again...i didnt have any reasons left...
however, you brought me to an interesting conclusion. i think i might just be afraid of commitment. not real common in females, i know...but when have i ever been known to follow the rules?

Edward


Frost

:: 2002 24 December :: 2.40pm
:: Music: LifeHouse - Everything

more poems

By request of Arual,
Frost will attempt to construct more poems.


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 24 December :: 2.42am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Cranberries- Daffodil Lament

I have decided to start it from here. Thunder and lightening can't change what I'm feeling.
damn. its almost 3am.

i am being lazy this week.

as for the date...
it went ok. he did many things in a vicious attempt to steal my heart and yet did not steal it. i may see him again. i dont know for sure. i dont really see anything developing from it though.

hey, i know you guys are reading, how come i never get comments anymore?

for anyone who hasnt clicked the text ads that have been added to the site-- the one thats up right now...ArtSwag.com...its actually pretty cool. I recommend that you all check it out. I want to get a t-shirt that says WHORE on it in block letters and wear it the first day of classes. See what kind of reaction it gets.

Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 23 December :: 1.32pm
:: Mood: distressed
:: Music: Jack Johnson- Posters

Cause when he's not drunk he's only stuck on himelf, and then he has the nerve to say he needs a decent girl...
i am going on a date tonite. but i dont think i really want to go. i'm afraid he might steal my heart and i'd prefer to keep it where it is.

i'm also afraid i will be there too long. i just like being by myself. yes that is how i like it.

but on another note, there is nothing more frustrating than when someone says they will call and don't. I only wish I knew why.

god, i have to leave in an hour and a half. i dont want to go. not today, why cant he come here??

people can be so inconsiderate. yeah, all of em.

i spent the morning moping about life and watching divorce court. furthering my belief that love is a farce.

maybe i secretly do want to go, i'm just nervous.



nah, i doubt it.

Edward


Frost

:: 2002 23 December :: 10.05am
:: Music: Dixie Chicks - Land Slide

quiz
I always wanted to be cool.
I am a fridge!

what kitchen utensil are YOU?



jedibumblebee

:: 2002 22 December :: 9.59pm
:: Mood: crazy


1) If you could be instantly fluent in one other language that you currently do not read or speak, which would it be? greek. i think it would impress people.
2) If you could have the starring role in any film already made, what would it be?
that is tough. i'll say Lux Lisbon from the Virgin Suicides.
3) If you could receive one small package this very moment, who would it be from and what would be in it? mix tapes make me fall in love. it could be from pretty much anyone.
4) If you could own one painting from any collection in the world but were not able to sell it, which work of art would you select?
Raphael- Cherubini
5) If you were instantly able to play one musical instrument perfectly that you never have played before, what would it be? acoustic guitar.
6) If you could possess one supernatural ability, what would it be? mind-reading.
7) If you had to choose the most valuable thing you ever learned what would it be?
i would have to say, the power of being a female...
8) If you could have only one piece of furniture in your house, what would it be?
one of those futon bunk beds. multipurpose.
9) If you could read the private diary of someone you know personally, whose diary would it be? i think i would pick nicks. but i dont think he has one.
10) If you could have one person you know as your slave for one month, who would it be? i dont think i would want a slave.
11) If you could choose the way you will die, how would you want it to happen?
i would love to die in a super fast car crash.
12) If you could wake up tomorrow to learn that the major newspaper headlines were about you, what would you want them to say? "Western Michigan girl wins hearts of millions in Broadway performances"
13) If you won the lottery, what is the first thing you would do? get a new car. a beeeeaautiful one.
14) If you could choose the music at your funeral, what would it be, and who would play it? maybe my sis could play something on the piano...i dunno what
15) If you could take away the vocal cords of any person, who would it be?
jeremy. he squaks so much.
16) If you had to describe your idea of the perfect mate, how would you do it? intelligent, funny, individualistic, a gentleman.
17) If you had to have a personal friend redecorate your house, who would you pick to do it? definately eliz. "it would be just like trading spaces!"
18) If you had to choose the worst home you've ever lived in, which one was it?
umm...we lived in a trailer on our property for the first three months...i guess it was pretty crappy although i dont remember it...
19) If you could have prevented one thing from happening between you and a friend, what would it have been? i kiss way too many of my friends
20) If you could learn the total number of hours you have spent in your life doing one thing, what would it be?
kissing. yeah.
21) If you had to describe yourself as a child in one word, what would it be? geek

5 FeyBebop | Edward


Frost

:: 2002 22 December :: 8.25pm
:: Mood: Split Minded *again*
:: Music: John Rzeznik - I'm Still Here

Poem
A Friend to the End

Time goes by,
and desieves.
UnNoticed to the eye
small things achieved.

Time flows, flattered
by an ocean of dreams.
many changes added,
like water from streams.

Times bitter truth
leaves us dazed.
So many of youth
with eyes left glazed.

A warm heart
may help you rise,
but like a dart -
times surprise.

What goes up
falls back down
Time goes by.
Taking the crown.

Try hard for your dreams,
but accept the truth.
The find good things redeemed
Like innocence of youth

They are things unseen,
till' near the end
Eyes washed clean,
you find a friend.

Sincerly:
a friend to the end.

:Frost


Frost

:: 2002 22 December :: 8.22pm
:: Mood: split minded- Game and Chat and Journal
:: Music: 3 doors down - When I'm Gone

Poem (my best)
Once upon an ocean blue
Spread upon a Star-lit sea
runs a wake across our view
telling all that once might be

Upon this hazy ocean dream
one star lights the way
It blinds me with its gleam
Then brightens up my day

Float with a star shown sea
and drift among a sky bright blue
Then you will remember me
as I remember you

:Frost


Frost

:: 2002 22 December :: 8.15pm
:: Mood: Split minded - videogame and chat
:: Music: Chris Isaac - Wicked Game

Juggleing stix
These toys of Anient Origin have picked up many names over the years.
They go by such names as:
Juggling stix, hippy stix, devil sticks danceing stix magic stix, meditation stix, and for $15 you may even call them your sticks.
Availible in most colors.

Availible through Brian Davis
and soon through The-Bean.

-- Frost's Stix --

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