jedibumblebee
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2002 7 November :: 2.50pm
and as i stood there, left alone, i attempted to muster up the courage to cry. it wasn't until that moment that i realized that all of that is gone. i've blocked everything out for so long that i am no longer capable of feeling. i am numb.
i wish that wasnt true.
Edward
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jedibumblebee
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2002 6 November :: 11.59am
How can I label you?
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Edward
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jedibumblebee
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2002 1 November :: 9.34pm
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: Sixpence None The Richer- Breathe Your Name
The part of you that's part of me will never die, willl never leave...
i said i don't like snow
i don't like to feel it
when its cold outside
and he said he could show me
show me what warmth is
and he held me
and lifted me up
until my baby hands
too close to the sun
became fire red
instead of milky white
maybe i didn't understand
Edward
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jedibumblebee
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2002 30 October :: 5.18pm
:: Mood: bored
GENERAL INFO
Time: 5:18pm
Birth Date: 8-17-84
Name on Birth Certificate: SteFanie AnnE
WildE
Age: 18
College: Western Michigan
Location: well, my room...my dorm...
Email : jedibumblebee@bolt.com
Color of Eyes: baby blue
Hair: blonde with red, orange, and brown streaks...like a calico kitty
Fantasy Height: fantasy...hmm...i think either 4' 11" or 5' 7"...one extreme or the other.
Shoe Size: 9-ish
Brothers/Sisters: frequently
Bedtime: always
--HAVE YOU EVER--
Ever been so drunk you blacked out: never!
Put a body part on fire for amusement: hahaha...not recently
Been in a car accident: kindof
Been hurt emotionally:every day
Kept a secret from everyone: every day
Had an imaginary friend: sure
Wanted to hook up with a friend: totally...
Cried during a movie: occasionally
Had a crush on a teacher: no...
Ever thought an animated character was hot? hmm...spongebob is pretty sexy...
Had a New Kids On The Block tape: my first "tape" was Sublime...I was a little punk.
Cut your hair: again, frequently.
FAVORITES--
Shampoo: i'm not real picky, to be honest. i just want it to smell ok.
Color: olive green NOT purple.
Day/Night: def night
Summer/Winter: summer please
Lace or satin: eh
Cartoon characters: i am a spongebob fan. and dexters laboratory.
Food: chocolate chip cookies. and peanut butter and jelly bagels.
Advertisement: that snickers commercial! where he says "ooh..a clamshell!"
Movie: West Side Story or the New Guy
Ice Cream: mmm...moosetracks.
Subject: uhmm...sociology.
--RIGHT NOW--
>Wearing: i'm all punked out...green day tshirt, bubblegum jeans, leopard-print tennis shoes
Drinking: i want some juice but that requires doing dishes so that i have a glass to drink out of...
Thinking about: I told my class that reading the newpaper makes me happy? how retarded am i? what shoud i do for halloween? i should be writing my paper... i'm afraid i'm in love... i'm feeling lonely. i might want to eat dinner soon... i shouldnt have skipped my econ class today. i need to call nick, and my scholarship sponsers.... ok, there's a lot running around.
Listening to: in the middle of changing between Elvis vs. JXL- A Little Less Conversation and Michelle Branch and Santana- The Game of Love.
Talking to: jessa, sortof
Watching: CTN. all the time.
>*--WITHIN THE LAST 24 HOURS--
Cried: nope
Worn a skirt: as a part of my halloween costume last night.
Met someone new: yeah.
Cleaned your room: I am always tidying.
Done laundry: unfortunatly no. I am a college student.
Drove a car: nope.
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--DO YOU BELIEVE IN--
Yourself: occasionally.
Santa Claus: perhaps
Tooth Fairy: i'm out of teeth.
Angels: sure
Ghosts: perhaps
UFO's: yeah
Jesus Christ: sometimes
--FRIENDS AND LIFE--
Like anyone?: i love everyone.
Who's the loudest?: me.
Who's the weirdest?: me.
Who do you go to for advice? i dont take advice from strangers.
Who do you think about most when you're not online?: you know its you.
Who do you cry with?: i dont cry.
When did you last cry?: its been months since i've cried effectively.
What's the best feeling in the world?: i'll get back to you on that.
Worst Feeling?: loneliness.
Edward
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2002 30 October :: 1.38pm
:: Mood: accomplished
i just wrote a 7 page research paper from scratch in under 2 1/2 hours.
go me.
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jedibumblebee
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2002 28 October :: 8.27pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: Sophie Ellis-Baxter- Murder on the Dance Floor
If you think you're getting away, I will prove you wrong...I'll blow you all away...
YEA-H! I'm doing good in my classes!
Thank GoD for stupid people and the grading curve!!
Edward
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2002 28 October :: 8.14pm
:: Mood: amused
HAHAHAHA
You Are A Manic Kisser!
You've kissed your brother's friends and your friends' brothers...
In fact, you've kissed almost everyone in your circle (plus a few strangers).
You're a total kissing fool - just make sure you don't look like one!
How Do *You* Kiss?
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2002 24 October :: 10.58pm
:: Mood: complacent
:: Music: Simple Plan- I'd Do Anything
I'd do anything just to hold you in my arms, to try to make you laugh, cause somehow I can't put you in the past. I'd do anything, just to fall asleep with you...will you remember me, because I know
ok so i lied. i cant get off campus before the end of this year because they change unbelievable fees if you do. oh well. things are getting better. but my grades are not so hot. i think i am averaging a B which doesnt work for me. eh. oh well.
other parts of life are still rough. but i am pretending to be cool with it. i think i'm doing alright, i havent done anything drastic or totally retarded lately. Lately. yeah. but i am finding things to distract me.
Edward
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2002 20 October :: 9.50pm
yeah, i was wrong...dorm life sucks and i've leaving ASAP. too many people around here make judgement calls on too many thigns that i do that are not my business, i'm sick of my roommate trying to get me to go to church, i'm sick of the stupid things that everyone says about me. its so dumb, everyone talks about everyone behind everyone else's back, even if you think they don't, they do it to EVERYONE. there's always at least one reason why no one likes you. and isnt it great, those people who fuck you over and then they're like, "oops, sorry, it wont happen again"....damn right it wont. i'm finding a way out of here.
i like the school. just not living here. too many distractions and people suck. all of them. no one lets me be me.
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2002 19 October :: 2.36am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: MOdest Mouse- You're The Good Things
"You're the flowers on my table when my allergies come out..."
i need you to stay away from me because i cant stay away from you. and you still won't let me close. and i'm dying in the middle.
i cant handle you and your indecisivenss. i cant handle being caught in the middle. i cant handle not having what i want, to tell the truth. i need to get away because being here makes me hate my life. i have too many other things i should be worrying about...you're my neon distraction.
i cant fight with myself. i'm sick of losing.
i'm sure this is all fucking hilarious, right...just like everything else that you laugh through.
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2002 17 October :: 9.43pm
[ Current Clothes ] faded bubblegum jeans, soccer shirt, granny sweater, green bandanna
[ Current Mood ] lonely
[ Current Music ] Ben Harper- Another Lonely Day (how appropriate!)
[ Current Taste ] diet coke
[ Current Annoyance ] not being able to act out how i feel
[ Current Smell ] someone burnt popcorn on my floor and its nasty shit
[ Current thing I ought to be doing ] maybe studying for spanish? or finding people...or looking for apartments... or socializing... or heavy drinking...hmmm
[ Current Desktop Picture ] I rarely see my desktop...but its me jumping into the arms of Dustin P. and we're cool punks...
[ Current Favorite Artist ] Ben Kweller (coming to Lansing Nov 22nd...ye-ah!)
[ Current Favorite Group ] mmmmm...Modest Mouse
[ Current Book ] I dont read by choice
[ Current CD in CD Player ] I dont really have a cd player...I have a winamp playlist
[ Current DVD In Player ] there's nothing in there right now. plus i watch more movies on my computer anyhow...yesterday it was the virgin suicides
[ Current Refreshment ] diet coke
[ Current Worry ] hahhahaha. which one? i'll keep it simple and say that i'm worried i'll fail spanish 101 and lose my scholarship....
[ Current Crush ] I dont do the crush thing, its too complex. I have the attention span of a goldfish.
[ Current Favorite Celebrity ] i dont know
LAST PERSON...
[ You Touched ] god, i dont even remember...i attempted to hug nate and got blown off... does that count?
[ You Talked to ] nick's roommate on the phone when i tried to call him back..
[ You Hugged ] probably nate
[ You Instant messaged ] chris or jessa
[ You Yelled At ] jeremy for hitting my ass with a lunch tray
[ You Had A Crush On ] i dont do the crush thing
[ Who Broke Your Heart ] i dont have a heart
FAVORITE...
[ Food ] chocolate chip bagels.
[ Drink ] diet coke
[ Color ] olive green
[ Album ] Sha-Sha- Ben kweller....if anyone wants to buy a copy I have 5 of them for $10 a piece
[ Shoes ] good god, how can i decide? i love my cowgirl boots despite their lack of practicality.
[ Candy ] i like mentos and strawberry and cremesavers.
[ Animal ] le tigre
[ TV Show ] i dotn watch shows. only CTN at odd hours of the morning.
[ Movie ] west side story or the new guy
[ Dance ] polynesian
[ Song ] at the moment? "linger" by the cranberries
[ Vegetable ] potatoes or corn
[ Fruit ] strawberries or nectarines
[ Cartoon ] spongebob will always have a place in my heart.
ARE YOU...
[ Understanding ] occassionally
[ Open-minded ] i think so
[ Arrogant ] yeah
[ Insecure ] depends
[ Interesting ] no way
[ Random ] BAH!
[ Hungry ] always
[ Friendly ] rarely
[ Smart ] sure
[ Moody ] totally
[ Childish ] usually
[ Independent ] uhhuh
[ Hard working ] sometimes
[ Organized ] with some things but not everything
[ Healthy ] i'm alive, thats all i can really say about that
[ Emotionally Stable ] is anyone?
[ Shy ] eh
[ Difficult ] always
[ Bored Easily ] no, i have the attention span of a goldfish... (look, something shiny!)
[ Messy ] i thought i was until i came to college
[ Thirsty ] not particularly
[ Responsible ] if i feel like it
[ Obsessed ] obsissIVE maybe
[ Angry ] eh
[ Sad ] grr..
[ Happy ] not especially
[ Hyper ] not right now
[ Trusting ] too trusting
[ Talkative ] if you get me started you'll regret it
[ Legal ] heh
[ Original ] umm
[ Different ] i would hope so
[ Unique ] suuurre
[ Ignored ] grr
[ Reliable ] eh
[ Content ] never
[ Optimistic ] eh
[ Deep thinker ] goldfish...
[ Self-disciplined ] never
[ Sleepy ] always
[ Lonely ] stated.
5 things that scare you:
1. not accomplishing everything i need to get done
2. getting too caught up in things to realize the good parts of life
3. people hiding behind the shower curtain...eesh..
4. people who believe that god will take care of everything
5. people who believe that fate directs your life
5 things that make you laugh:
1. feet hanging out of car windows
2. when you find silly cute notes that other people wrote for their girlfriend/boyfriends
3. the girls who walk to class talking on their nextels about the "guy they met at this party"
4. jcrew hippies
5. giant fuzzy pink bunnies
5 things you love:
1. cookies
2. music
3. cuddling
4. heavy drinking
5. sleeping
5 things you hate:
1. boys
2. mean people
3. boys
4. being cold
5. oh yeah...boys
2 things you don't understand:
1. umm...boys?
2. me
5 things on your desk:
umm, i have two desks...
1. a hairdryer
2. chapstick
3. pictures
4. some pants
5. textbooks and apartment guides
Right now you are:
1. um...filling this out
2. drinking a coke
3. humming along to the cranberries
4. falling asleep
5. debating what to do later
5 positive facts about you:
1. i'm affectionate
2. i can read people well
3. i can work my ass off to get what i want
4. i'm SMART...sometimes
5. i've got a cute ass :) hows that
5 things you plan to do before you die:
1. finish school.
2. get a career.
3. be successful.
4. have children.
5. live.
5 things you can do:
1. sit here and be lazy
2. complain
3. go to sleep
4. kick people in the butt
5. finish this survey...
3 Things You Can't Do:
1. make up my mind
2. play a musical instrument
3. fly
5 Famous People You Want To Meet:
1. ben kweller OH WAIT ALREADY DID THAT,,,hahaha
2. i dont really care. i actually dont especially want to meet any famous people....unless they give me money or power or fame and good stuff like that
Top 5 songs you think are cool:
I'll just take my "desk collection" of lyrics i've printed...
1. Modest Mouse- You're the Good Things...or Whenever You See Fit
2. Counting Crows- High Life
3. Cranberries- Linger
4. Jack Johnson- Flake
5. Ben Kweller- Launch Ramp
Top 5 movies:
1. West Side Story
2. The New Guy
3. Ferris Bueller
4. Gone in 60 Seconds
5. Roadtrip
Top 5 things you say the most:
1. totally
2. sooo....
3. eh
4. yea-aw
5. can i put this on your menards big card today and save you one percent?
Edward
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2002 15 October :: 10.36pm
i am not a part of anything.
i am not important to anyone.
i spend my time asking special permission to be a part of people's lives.
fuck you. i cant help you when i cant help myself.
and you dont care anyway.
how long did it take for you to realize
that i'm
no
longer
walking
behind
you.
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jedibumblebee
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2002 9 October :: 5.43pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Jack Johnson- Flake
I'm so, I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying....
the quiz...
god i hurt so bad...
i hope i'm getting sick
i hope i'm sick
i hope i'm dying
i only ask so i can know
i only look so i can see
i only want so i can have?
i hurt so bad.
and i'm tired....too tired.
and i only read so i can make myself suffer.
i pick and choose..
look at your uploads...text files...the ones that i know will be the most painful to read...
and i make you talk about what i want to hear the least...and you go through all the description and all the details and then i dont know where to go...you tell it like a beautiful story....
all i know...i don't belong in this.
but i cant get out.
and i hurt so badly....
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Edward
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2002 7 October :: 7.29pm
the world wants to kick me in the butt.
i watched roadtrip...
it made me cry?
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