home | profile | guestbook


'How can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you.'

recent entries | past entries


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 25 August :: 8.32pm

you're the good things yeah thats you.....
you're the icing on the cake on the table at my wake
you're the flowers in my house when my allergies come out
you're the extra ton of cash on my sinking life raft
you're the loud sound of fun when im trying to sleep

Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 25 August :: 1.30am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Modest Mouse- Positive Negative

Hey, haven't seen you around in a while
Hey, haven't seen you around in a while
Hey, haven't seen you around in a while
Hey, haven't seen you around in a while
I didn't go to work for a month
I didn't leave my bed for eight days straight
I haven't hung out with anyone
'Cause if I did, I'd have nothing to say
I didn't feel angry or depressed
I didn't feel anything at all
I didn't want to go to bed
And I didn't want to stay up late
When youre living your life, well, that's the price you pay
Whenever I breath out, you're breathing it in
Whenever I speak out, you're speaking out
I didn't go to work for a month
I didn't leave my bed for eight days straight
I haven't hung out with anyone
'Cause if I did, I'd have nothing to say

Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 24 August :: 11.43pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Modest Mouse- Gravity Rides Everything

All the spilt milk, sex and weight, everything will fall into place...
all i want is to talk to him to kill my paranoia and confirm that all is not lost. is that too much to ask.

a sign.

life can be so cruel.


a yellow, spiral-bound, college ruled, single subject MEAD notebook.

Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 24 August :: 11.37am
:: Mood: cold

I dont think he understands how much I truly do hate him... I don't know which of my friends are doing the talking but it doesnt matter. he doesnt know me anymore, wouldnt want to...i dont want him to. I want him as far away from me as I can get him.

It's so over. Just let it go.

1 Fey | Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 22 August :: 11.17am
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: Radish- Little Pink Stars

Seems to me thats how things are...giving and taking little pink stars....I want the world to know that you're mine...I want to touch you...
i sit here and to myself i say, "don't even get started." and then it just makes me think even more. the whole situation is disaster in a basket. and of course, i can't keep myself out of this trouble.

Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 22 August :: 12.32am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Modest Mouse- Lives

It's hard to remember to live before you die...
Ok. Update? Sure.

I went to a party on my birthday. It was interesting. Talk to me if you want details, I don't feel like typing out the pieces.

One thing I will mention is kissing boys. I kissed more than one, but there is one that I have since kissed again. Good stuff. Don't know what's going down with that, he lives FAR away, so....

I leave for school in 8 days. I am not packed but I am more than ready.

My daddy got me a present for my birthday...I have my own digital cam. SO expect some fun business from that front.

I got in a minor car accident today. Actually it's really dumb because I hit a truck while pulling into a space at the mall, I wasn't paying attention, but I called my daddy at work and when he came we realized that all it was was a lot of paint. He had some cleaner in the back of his car, so basically we cleaned it up and left. ZERO damage to this guys truck, but I need a whole new turn signal assembley and my beautifully freshly painted bumper cover is back to shit. Yay.

I was in Disc-GO-Round on Alpine today and I found the Radish (Ben Kweller's band when he was 15) CD. It's out of print and copies are nearly impossible to find, I was so thrilled. Six bucks.

3 FeyBebop | Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 17 August :: 12.33pm

it's my BIRTHDAY..
woohoo
yippie
hooray

5 FeyBebop | Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 16 August :: 12.38pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: If I Could Give All My Love (Richard Manuel is Dead)- Counting Crows

Got a message in my head
That papers all had come
Richard Manuel is dead
And the daylight's coming on
I've been wandering through the dark
Now I'm standing on the lawn

If I could give all my love to you
I could justify myself
But I'm just not coming though
You're a pill to ease the pain
Of all the stupid things I do
I'm an anchor on the line
Of a clock that tells the time
That is running out on you

It was cold when I awoke
And the day was halfway done
Nearly spring in San Francisco
And I cannot feel the sun
You were sleeping next to me
But I knew you'd be gone

If I could give all my love to you
I could justify myself
But I'm just not coming through
You're a pill to ease the pain
Of all the stupid things I do
I'm an anchor on the line
Of a clock that tells the time
That is running out on you

Take some time before you go
To think of Mondays coming down
And the people that you knew
And the ones that aren't around
You've been fading day to day
I've been moving town to town

If I oould give all my love to you
I could justify myself
But I'm just not coming though
You're a pill to ease the pain
Of all the stupid things I do
I'm an anchor on the line
Of a clock that tells the time
That is running out on you

2 FeyBebop | Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 13 August :: 10.46pm
:: Mood: gloomy

I just got dumped.

Life really comes back to bite you in the butt sometimes.
I'm not very happy. It's raining. I'm eating chocolate.

1 Fey | Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 12 August :: 11.07pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: Ben Kweller- Problems

I'll be the one to listen to your radio...


For those of you who dont know, that's me and Ben Kweller. You know, "sex reminds her of eating spaghetti"... He's my fave. Thats what this weekend was all about.

2 FeyBebop | Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 8 August :: 11.11pm
:: Mood: discouraged

JediBumblebee: i dont think i have friends anymore
exitboot: Why do you think that?
JediBumblebee: i think i kissed them all away.
exitboot: heh..
exitboot: Most likely.

1 Fey | Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 7 August :: 10.24pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Jill Sobule- Supermodel

Cause I'm young...and I'm hip...and so beautiful...I'm gonna be a supermodel....and I'd write my school report on how I love my jeans....
*What you'd like to change your name to: i like my name the way it is.
*Do you eat to live or live to eat? that all depends on if i'm hungry or not.
*Rate your feet out of 5 stars on the way they look: ***and 1/2. my feet arent that bad as far as feet go. except when stupid people step on me and break my toenails, i hate that...
*Worst book you ever read (even if forced): i hated "my antonia" and that dumb sailor/jungle book we read last year, what the hell was that??
*Would you eat SPAM for $5? yes. there are a lot of things i would do for five bucks.
*Movie that has the most sequels (that you can think of): the land before time...you know, the cartoon dinosaurs? last time i was babysitting there were like 8 or 9 sequels.
*Title of the theme song of your life: Bne Kweller, Sha Sha.
*How many people do you know that share your birthday? umm...i dont know ANYONE with my birthday. I have a cousin who's is the day after, nick's is the day before...but thats it.
What does your name mean? it means "crown".
What are your worst qualities: i worry a lot about dumb stuff, and i panick a lot. i take other peoples situations onto myself. short attention span.
What are your best qualities: darn it, i'm FUN. and spontaneous.
How long does it take you get ready in the morning: today i did it in six minutes. traditionally, i prefer about 45.
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? guys.
Have you ever lied to a friend? probably.
Have you ever stolen a friends boyfriend/girlfriend? nope. never really had the desire to either.
Do you like your parents? occasionally.
Ever run away from home? one time i tried but my mom hit me with the van. long story.
Do you have any siblings? yep.
If so, do you like or get annoyed with them? ........
How old are they? 11, 12, 14.
Do you feel your parents spoil you? nope.
Do you not get along with any of your family? sometimes.
Do you have big family get togethers ever? occasionally.... i dont go to many of them though.
Ever done something stupid to impress someone you were attracted to? frequently!
Have you ever experienced unrequited love? hmm.
Do you have a religion? a nonspecific one.
Do you practice it, i.e go to church? not usually
If you died tomorrow what do you believe will happen to you? umm...they'd put me in the ground i suppose.
Does death scare you? not really
Have you ever been drunk? yes
taken drugs? no
shoplifted? no
Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend? sure
gotten into a fight? i love the catfights eliz and i used to have in the hallways. where we'd slap each other and call each other bitches and whores and everyone would look at us like we were insane.
Would you date a drug addict? i doubt it
have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict? no
Are you racist? no
Have you been a hypocrite in the past? i probably have
Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings? i think i'm pretty open
Do you watch tons of tv? i watch no tv.
How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months? around 20?
Do you listen to the radio often? depends on the mood i'm in.
Whats your fave sport? soccer
Whats your fave sport to watch? hockey.
Do you have a fave team of any sort? nope.
Do you play a lot of sports? i cant play sports.
ever won anything for sport? i have a varsity letter?
Are you funny or serious? more funny than serious.
Creative or not? i dont really know.
Logical thinker or lateral thinker? lateral? how about longitudical?
Are you outgoing or shy? Depends on the situation...usually more on the outgoing side.
Are you lazy or active? actively lazy.
Are you happy with the way you look? suitable.
What would you change? right now my frikken skin is breaking out like mad. so i'd change that.
Do you wear makeup regularly? i've only worn it twice since school got out.
Do you have a large wardrobe? yah. i like clothes.
Do you have a job? several.
Do you like it? usually.
Are you a saver or a spender? a spender...but in a good way. i get a lot for my money. i like to call myself an "investor".
Have you ever been fired? nope.
In trouble at work? not very much.
Made a major mistake? i've made a few.
Your all time most embarassing moment? too many. the tigger suit was pretty bad.
Ever giggled like an idiot? all the time
Whats the coolest holiday you remember having? new years with gramma and grampa bubbles.
Ever had funny thoughts and laughed and no one understood you? constantly....story of my life.

Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 30 July :: 11.11am
:: Mood: cheerful

Wow...I officially have NOTHING to do today. It's so strange. I might have to go into work and change some more stuff around so that I don't get FIRED like everyone else has been.... It's so weird, we're losing people left and right. Plus I think six people got married in one week. That was weird too.
I worked a morning shift yesterday, which was strange. I don't think I like the morning stockers...they were a little creepy. One of the guys insisted on hovering around my lane and telling em about how I smelled good...a little uncomfortable. So I get out of work at 4 and just spontaneously decide that it's about time for me to put a CD player in my car. So I did. Nothing too fancy (not work ripping off...hey-o) but it plays CD's without all the cords and junk. Which is nice. I might go today and get some new tires...it's about time for those. I'm not sure when Nick has to work so I don't know if I'll see him today. Which makes me a little sad. But I will survive. Yeah, Nick's my new boyfriend for those of you who still need to tie it together. A 21-yr old phtography student who also works at Menards. he's really sweet and awfully cute. Dani can vouch for that one. And we have millions of things in common. So for the last eleven days or so it's been working out pretty good.
I got a lot of college info the other day. I finally got my roommate assigned. I called her on the phone...she's a band geek but thats cool, it seems like we will probably get along ok. I'm dropping my "Comunication Disorders" class because it starts too early, so now I'l have the perfect schedule. I have Beginning Spanish II M, T, R, F. Econ M, W, F. HNRS Tragic Theater T,R. HNRS Human Behavior W.
So my schedule is nicely balanced, I dont get up before 10, and on mondays and fridays I am out by 1:00. Which will be GREAT.



I CANT WAIT TIL COLLEGE!!!

2 FeyBebop | Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 28 July :: 9.54pm

Hello Streetteamers! Upcoming Ben Kweller in-store performances!

On Saturday, August 10th at 2:30 pm,
Ben will be performing at Borders
34300 Woodward Avenue, Birmingham, MI

aug 8th and 9th: chicago, IL @ schubas, 3159 North Southport.
doors @ 6:30pm, bk, @ 9pm. all ages, ($10). info: 773-525-2508

aug 10th: detroit, MI @ shelter, 431 East Congress.
doors @ 8pm, bk @ 10:30pm. all ages, ($8). general admission. Boxoffice & Info Line: 313-961-6923

SUMMARY
Driving distance: 696.2 miles
Total travel time: 2 days, 2 hours, 27 minutes
Driving time: 11 hours, 32 minutes

Edward


jedibumblebee

:: 2002 20 July :: 12.05am
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional- The Brilliant Dance

This is incredible... Starving, insatiable, yes, this is love for the first time...
I have new boyfriend. I like him very muchly.

1 Fey | Edward

Woohu.com | Random Journal