'How can I stand here with you, and not be moved by you.'

:: 2002 1 May :: 7.35pm
:: Mood: excited

I got my new computer. It is fun but not that fun because I haven't pimped it out with software and MP3's and whatnot.

:: 2002 29 April :: 10.33pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Ben Kweller- Make It Up

I need a good alarm to wake me up...
I think I might be dying.

I'm so so sick.

When I cough, I get weird shooting pains through my sides.

I also have currently lost my voice. Like, completely. GONE. I don't know if it will be back tommorrow. I lose my voice far too easily.

Along with all these totally appealing symptoms, I have massive sneezles, itchy eyes, and a head that feels like it's full of heavy marshmellows...you know what I mean?

4 FeyBebop | Edward

:: 2002 29 April :: 9.26am
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: Ben Kweller- It's Not Fair

What can I say when things don't go my way? I've got to get it off of my back...but most of it's in my head...
Weird weekend. Like...the weirdest weekend I have had in months. Well, maybe not but darn close.

I'm sick. I hate being sick. There's nothing worse than not feeling good. :(
But I will be at school...I hate makeup work too much to give in to the sickness.

JediBumblebee

:: 2002 27 April :: 12.27am
:: Music: Ben Kweller- Falling

it's back
Wind is cold alright back in Dallas. The neon light
from the building lets you know you're home.
You'd go way back when if you wanted to be my
friend or you'd call me . I'd understand, it's true.

I don't feel like i'm falling.
No, I don't feel like i'm falling
No, I don't feel like i'm falling down.
Just say "hello" to the ground.

Ba ba ba ba ba ba

Wait there, I'll be right back. Down in Times Square
it's a heart attack. All the feeling makes you feel so new.
Trees fall and so do men. Even the walls start caving
in and you feel like there's no pretend for you.

But I don't feel like i'm falling.
No, I don't feel like i'm falling
No, I don't feel like i'm falling down.
Just say "hello" to the ground.

We could talk if days weren't so fast,
and mistakes just leave it so unsure.
Wanna hold you like never before
'cause we're falling and i love you more and more.

Do you feel like you're falling down?
Do you feel like you're falling down?
I don't feel like i'm falling-falling-falling down.

I don't feel like i'm falling.
No, I don't feel like i'm falling
No, I don't feel like i'm falling down.
Just say "hello" to the ground.

:: 2002 24 April :: 9.31am
:: Music: Ben Kweller- No Reason

Let me get lost...I'll drive you around til I run out of gas...
So I had mad adventures yesterday...

But I'm too tired to type them in right now.

The rest of you are doing school type things. All you Cedaranian's and your senior interviews and career explorations and MEAP tests and field trips..bahahaha.

I'm taking a nap.

:: 2002 22 April :: 10.55pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: Ben Kweller- Sha Sha

So, so me...It's up to me if I decide to be what I be....it's right...
exitboot: heh..
exitboot: who cares.
JediBumblebee: not heh
JediBumblebee: i care
exitboot: good.. then care all the time.. or don't care all the time. you can't do that.
JediBumblebee: well fuck having opinion
JediBumblebee: s
exitboot: well fuck being a bitch
JediBumblebee: thanks for screwing up something that had nothing to do with you
exitboot: right. sorry. i really am.

why would you do something that is obviously not pleasing to either party? unless it's some sick pleasure of yours you should recognize the pointlessness of hurting feelings.

i wonder about interpretation skills. what is a friend to you? i think you are afraid of them. and so you avoid having them. too risky. too deep.

:: 2002 22 April :: 7.28pm
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: Ben Kweller- Superneat

I don't wanna be happy tommorrow, I wanna be happy today...
damn it, why doesn't anyone like me?

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:: 2002 20 April :: 12.21am

:: 2002 18 April :: 11.29pm

You're a song
Written by
The hands of God
Don't get me wrong
This might sound
To you a bit odd
But you're the place
Where all my thoughts
Go hiding
Right under your clothes
Is where I'll find them

:: 2002 17 April :: 3.47pm
:: Mood: silly
:: Music: Ben Kweller- Sha Sha

Nothing isn't nothing, nothing something thats's important to me...that's right...and everyone's a little nothing, that is how it should be...that's right...that's right....sha sha sha doo...
stupid chat rejects me again.

I stole this from someone else's journal...ahaha.
YOU KNOW YOU'RE FROM MICHIGAN IF:
1. You've never met any celebrities. -true...

2. "Vacation" means going to Cedar Point. -what's wrong with that??

3. At least 1 member of your family disowns you the week of the Michigan/Michigan State game. -used to be true...

4. Half the change in your pocket is Canadian.....eh! -lol

5. You drive 86 mph on the highway and pass on the right. -again, what's wrong with that???

6. Your idea of a traffic jam is 40 cars waiting to pass an orange barrel. -arghh...

7. You know how to play (and pronounce) Euchre. -i didnt know it was so foreign. but i can't play it very well...

8. It's easy to get VERNORS ginger ale and Sanders hot fudge sauce, and Faygo pop. -lol

9. You know how to pronounce "Mackinac. -umm....yeah?

10. You've had to switch on the "heat" and the "A/C" in the same day. -did it today.

11. You bake with SODA and drink a POP. -not true for all of us...

12. The movie "Escanaba in Da Moonlight" wasn't funny. You consider it a documentary. -eh?

13. Your little league game was snowed out. -lol!

14. The word "thumb" has geographical, rather than anatomical significance. -yep

15. You show people where you grew up by pointing to a spot on your left hand. -yes yes

16. Traveling coast-to-coast means driving from Port Huron to Muskegon. -hah

17. You measure distance in minutes. -i thought everyone did?

18. When giving directions, you refer to "A Michigan Left." -rockford anyone?

19. You know that Kalamazoo not only exists, but isn't that far from Hell. -and i'm going to college there!

20. Your year has 2 seasons: Winter and Construction. -bah

21. Home Depot (((MENARDS))) on any Saturday is busier than toy stores at Christmas. -i can seriously vouch for this one.

22. You know when it has rained because of the smell of worms. -lol!

23. Owning a Japanese car was a hangin' offense in your hometown. -maybe not hometown, but eh!

:: 2002 15 April :: 11.08pm
:: Mood: wasted
:: Music: Ben Kweller- Wasted and Ready

this song is fun and funny
I can't get into the chat so i will post a song yay

Forcefield, supershield, AA.
Junior high love affair is OK.
Jump on the big wagon 'cause I'm SoCal.
I'm big in every way.
I'm running as fast as I can.
She goes above and beyond her call of duty.
She is a slut but her ex thinks it's sexy.
Sex reminds her of eating spaghetti.
I am wasted, but I'm ready.
If you want to move it so, why don't you make it go?
Prove it to everybody who doesn't understand.
All the nights, all the fights, you are out of sight.
Some say more with their hands.
I'm running as fast as I can.
She goes above and beyond her call of duty.
She is a slut but her ex thinks it's sexy.
Sex reminds her of eating spaghetti.
I am wasted, but I'm ready.
I am wasted, but I'm ready.
I am wasted, but I'm ready.
I'm running as fast as I can.
I'm running as fast as I can.
Why am I dealing with this feeling?
I'm maxed out like a credit card.
I'll pretend you'll be my worst enemy.
It's easy, but it seems so hard.
You're near but you seem so far.
She goes above and beyond her call of duty.
She is a slut but her ex thinks it's sexy.
Sex reminds her of eating spaghetti.
I am wasted, but I'm ready.
She goes above and beyond her call of duty.
She is a slut but her ex thinks it's sexy.
Sex reminds her of eating spaghetti.
I am wasted, but I'm ready.
I am wasted, but I'm ready.
I am wasted, but I'm ready.
I am wasted, but I'm ready.
I'm running as fast as I can.
I'm running as fast as I can.
I'm running as fast as I can.
I'm running as fast as I can.

:: 2002 12 April :: 11.54pm
:: Mood: impressed
:: Music: Ben Folds Five- Song for the Dumped

So you wanted to take a break....Slow it down some and have some space...Well, fuck you too...
So I had this meeting with my boss today and it put me in a better mood...I finally got paid for designing and maintaining her website. Which means back wages for about 50 hours of off the clock work. So a nice check went into the bank today.

I went with it and bought myself my much-coveted Salomon blades from MC. Which took a nice chunk out of the nice check. Oh well. Splurging was necessary.

So I thought it would also be fun to buy one of those Theraband resistance thingys...like a giant rubber band that you use to stretch and exercise with. Turned out not to be so fun. Whatever type of rubber it is made of is causing a bad allergic reaction. Plus I've been playing with it all night, so now my hands and arms are breaking out in a horrible rash! How stupid do I feel?

:: 2002 11 April :: 10.33pm
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: Sugar Cult- Bouncing Off The Walls

I'm bouncing off the walls again....whoa-oh...I'm looking like a fool again...whoa-oh...So go ahead and take a picture...and hang it up so you can tear me down...And I don't care...'cause I'm still he
I pierced my cartilage again. OW!

Also, found a prom dress. It is so fun and will go PERFECT with cowboy boots and the hat that I won off of Ebay yesterday! ;)

yay! i get to sleep in tommorrow! hahahahahahahaha to everyone who doesn't! just kidding (well i guess i'm not but i hope to not sound so heartless).

yeah...so...how's it going?

:: 2002 10 April :: 9.52pm

Well kids, that says it.

:: 2002 9 April :: 10.58pm
:: Music: music swims back to me

no i did not

Wait Mister. Which way is home?
They turned the light out
and the dark is moving in the corner.
There are no sign posts in this room,
four ladies, over eighty,
in diapers every one of them.
La la la, Oh music swims back to me
and I can feel the tune they played
the night they left me
in this private institution on a hill.

Imagine it. A radio playing
and everyone here was crazy.
I liked it and danced in a circle.
Music pours over the sense
and in a funny way
music sees more than I.
I mean it remembers better;
remembers the first night here.
It was the strangled cold of November;
even the stars were strapped in the sky
and that moon too bright
forking through the bars to stick me
with a singing in the head.
I have forgotten all the rest.

They lock me in this chair at eight a.m.
and there are no signs to tell the way,
just the radio beating to itself
and the song that remembers
more than I. Oh, la la la,
this music swims back to me.
The night I came I danced a circle
and was not afraid.
Mister?