jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 1 March :: 4.45pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: BLink-182....The PARTY song!
Do you want to come to a party?...maybe we'd have some fun....
Yay! It's party day.
My sister is having a birthday party with about 20 or so 13 and 14 year olds taking over my house...so i'll be escaping... Betty and I shall throw a party. Maybe a weak one, but a party nonetheless..yippie! We be a bunch 'o crazy kids! I'm so glad that my parents have given up on caring what i do anymore...
Edward
|
jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 28 February :: 6.51am
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Blink-182- Don't Leave Me
She said it stopped being fun...Just like last time but a little worse....
i can't talk deep; i'm too shallow.
1 Fey |
Edward
|
jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 25 February :: 6.52am
:: Mood: calm
i wonder if you've noticed that I'm hesistant to talk to you unless you talk to me first.
i realized a few days ago that I am truly the definition of a loner. I drift. If I have nowhere to latch ahold...I can drift for quite a while.
totally off the topic... I really hate when I feel fat. I mean, I know I'm generally small but I haven't been watching myself and I'm getting a bit of a tummy. I had to throw a sweater over my outfit today...I just felt too exposed. I needed to hold myself in.
Old memories are really flooding back. I feel weak. Bad habits are on their way back too... please watch out for me.
4 FeyBebop |
Edward
|
jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 20 February :: 9.59pm
:: Mood: complacent
it's easier to do nothing than do something. i wonder sometimes if people process this. why put the effort into something with no return? forgive me, i really tried not to try...
i realize that this makes no sense which is exactly why it is silly.
6 FeyBebop |
Edward
|
jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 19 February :: 9.56pm
Take the What Should Your New Year's Resolution Be? Quiz
This just cracks me up. A little late, but the idea's still there, eh? ;)
Edward
|
jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 18 February :: 9.42pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Outkast- The Whole World (just don't ask)
And the whole, world, loves it when you sing the blues...
you know...i really hate my job somedays. like really really hate it. i totally get the shaft, and honestly, i've put up with it for two years or more. we've got this new girl who was automatically promoted to my status...and has decided to take advantage of that and start pushing me around and telling me what to do, all because she's a few years older than me and has a college degree. but not a REAL college degree. she has a degree in BEEF AND CATTLE MANAGEMENT. COWS. I've being pushed around by someone who has gone to school to raise cows. and when i complain about what's going on, i'm just a petty little kid on a power trip.
1 Fey |
Edward
|
jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 18 February :: 11.01am
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: alanis m- hands clean
gotta love the chick rock
If it weren't for your maturity none of this would have happened
If you weren't so wise beyond your years I would've been able to control myself
If it weren't for my attention you wouldn't have been successful and
If it weren't for me you would never have amounted to very much
Ooh this could be messy
But you don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime
We'll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
And I have honored your request for silence
And you've washed your hands clean of this
You're essentially an employee and I like you having to depend on me
You're kind of my protégé and one day you'll say you learned all you know from me
I know you depend on me like a young thing would to a guardian
I know you sexualize me like a young thing would and I think I like it
Ooh this could get messy
But you don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime
We'll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
And I have honored your request for silence
And you've washed your hands clean of this
what part of our history's reinvented and under rug swept?
what part of your memory is selective and tends to forget?
what with this distance it seems so obvious?
Just make sure you don't tell on me especially to members of your family
We best keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse
I wish I could tell the world cuz you're such a pretty thing when you're done up properly
I might want to marry you one day if you watch that weight and keep your firm body
Ooh this could be messy and
Ooh I don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime
We'll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
And I have honored your request for silence
And you've washed your hands clean of this
Ooh this could be messy and
Ooh I don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime
We'll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
And I have honored your request for silence
And you've washed your hands clean of this
Edward
|
jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 15 February :: 5.00pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Ace of Base- The Sign
I, I got a new life....you would hardly recognize me, I'm so glad...
WoW! To anyone and everyone who went to swirl...Did you have as much fun as I did? :)
I've always liked the big V-day, even when I don't have a boyfriend....everybody is really happy and mushy and its sorta cute. Valentines are great, even when they're from buddies, or daddies... Flowers are fun too. :) I may be a little kids, but all the lovey-doveyness gives me the greatest warm fuzzy feeling inside. Especially when it happens to me too! So I'm sortof bouncing around in my happy haze, mosta my buddies are going to be in FLA with the band, so I probably won't get too many responses to my journalling.
But, I thought swirl was fun...even though our dinner plans went to hell, even though I can't dance, even though I bruised myself during the cha-cha slide, even though I kicked my shoe across the floor and nearly injured a few people, even though my corsage was crushed and I lost my flower at some unknown point. I generally had a great time. And I hope everyone else had a happy V-day too, whether you were there, or not! :)
Edward
|
jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 13 February :: 10.23pm
2 FeyBebop |
Edward
|
jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 13 February :: 9.57pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: Ben Harper- Steal My Kisses
I've been hanging 'round you for days....But when I lean in, you just turn your head away....(alright, it's stuck in my head!!)
Alrighty....the swirl update. Due to a bit of luck, and I think also due to a chatty mommy, I've got a swirl date... It's the one that I wanted to go with and was too chicken to ask. I'm all flustered because it ends up that HE asked ME yesterday and said that HE'D been wanting to ask ME for a while!! Argh! How silly do I feel? :)
But as you can see...
Expect the unexpected, because often, good things work themselves out in the end.
Edward
|
jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 13 February :: 9.50pm
:: Mood: amused
I'm the Spirit of Contemplation
You're not sure where you fit in this world right now, and maybe you never will. You're a little bit of everything all rolled into one. You're spirited when the time comes, you take responsibility for your actions, you are in love or have loved deeply, and you are looked up to for advice.
Well, how does that sound? About right?
Edward
|
jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 11 February :: 9.45pm
:: Mood: determined
Well, now I've got the dress, finally found the perfect shoes...I'll have the purse in a few...now all I need is the date...hmm..
If only I weren't such chicken shit!
3 FeyBebop |
Edward
|
jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 8 February :: 11.04pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: all my music on my computer is broken right now....all it does is make clicky noises. imagine the s
Stressin' YO!
arrgh too many things going on in my life! i have a scholarship competetion tommorrow, i have had to work every day this week except wednesday, when i had a huge test in my world politics night class...which sucked and was followed the next morning with my first business exam, and then today my Cossin scholarship interview as well as filming for academic moments, which meant i went to school even though i didnt have classes. i have a big speech due on monday and cedar pride week, and swirl... ack...that whole ordeal. lets not even GO there...and new songs in choir stress me out because i feel like i have to work extra hard to keep up with the rest of that class... i haven't done my physics homework yet and i dont have any clean socks because i haven't had the time to do laundry. but HEY, its not a big deal that i dont have shoes, tickets, or even a date to swirl yet, that can wait til, oh, monday? plus i have to do a massive updating to the lazer skate website because i scanned a bunch of pics that need to be coded into the new format of the pages before i upload...all of which i plan on keeping a detailed time sheet which I WILL turn in because i am sick of working so much for free. also ignoring the fact that i've been roughly working 14 hours each week at menards, plus AT LEAST 3 parties a week at lazer skate... plus a couple good flyers and a mailing or two, and my slowly neglected databases and agendas. which is about 15 hours, NOT COUNTING the 12 hour minimum all night skate on the 15th, which i will probably be suckered into working the WHOLE DAMN NIGHT. because everyone knows i have no LIFE.
2 FeyBebop |
Edward
|
jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 7 February :: 5.22pm
:: Mood: geeky
I am SO PATHETIC!!
ARRGGHHH!!
1 Fey |
Edward
|
jedibumblebee
|
::
2002 6 February :: 9.49pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Everlast- Black Jesus
Still I've gotta find someone to abuse...So won't you run spread the news.. Help say the word...And jump the fuck back and act like you heard...
weirdness! oddness! I want to sing! I want to fling out my arms and sing out the news!
Edward
|
|