what was it now when u mix a fish and a monkey?
yea its been awhile...

breeze blowing in my window as i sit here contemplating what to write...sitting here the color of a tomato...
got burned at the beach saturday and wo does it hurt...
A birthday gone by yet again...this one seeming a lil more important that usual...it was amazing thanks to all the cards, flowers, presents and gummy bear covered cars... :)
-Driving is great except my parents seem to think im gunna get in a wreck very soon...aw how kind of them to say...
-saw The Passion
-Been to sick all week...finally after 5 days can actually taste food once again...
-Shopping today...got some shirts no bathing suit though cause im fat...
- Want to go to Los Ochos tonight but need to find someone to go with...
-still have not found "my love"...
-just got told to go set the table...later xoxo

*My prayers are with you*

So whats been going on...
wow lots of stuff...k hmm saturday had a piano competition...uhh got superior and going to state...yea! was planning on going to heather's surprise party but got stuck in orlando- wish i couldve been there heather! so sunday...finally got my car!!!! 98 Honda Accord-lightish gold color...hehe i love it!
-This week..yea def has been not one of the best ones...4 exams tuesday-pretty much did real bad on all of them...got my economics test back today- that was just laughable ive never done so bad on a test before...that one will go in travis and cody's collection of "heather's bad grades" that they plan on looking at whenever theyre feeling bad..okk dude everyone is turning 16...we're all growing up ::tear:: This whole growing up process is going wayy to fast though...i mean 7 days...wow i miss being small enough to curl up in my mom's lap...
Relient K concert this weekend...woop woop hopefully we get a bus so we can go and it all works out...Jeff said he might take us to Cornerstone in May...that would be truly amazing...some great bands playing there... Softball game in Deland Friday...i gotta find a way to get back to Creek to see them play Seabreeze... ;)
Lifes been incredibly overwhelming and stressful...not quite sure why maybe cause of softball ::shrug::...i promise guys i will get back to normal- but for now ill apologize for acting different!

Missing...

::sigh::
i love it when people tell me something that actually means a lot to me and puts a great big grin on my face...it makes me feel like im doing something right...

New screen name: xheathbonex :)

~!Thank you...!~

Happy V-day guys!
Yesterday- most def one of the top 10 days of this year...lol u probably dont want to hear bout u...but oh sry u have 2! :P
so after easy day of softball headed home...walked in the door and my dad handed me an application for Hallmark telling me i could start working like next week...alright well in all my spare time ill work yea that whole 2 min of my week lol once softball ends id love to work there- its where ive wanted to work so yea that would be great...after mandys guitar lessons su hermano y madre y ella picked me up and we headed to PIERSON AND SAW CHIPPER JONES play in allumni or alluminum or whatever it is- (yea mandy stop making fun of me lol!) woohoo there were a lot of cute baseball boys there well that is if u kept that 100ft rule applied :)!! good times were had def! We got a "hug" from Chipper haha right mandy!?? and he signed my shirt and mandys card and we wont go to where mrs. lawrence wanted him to sign oh man hahaha...well anyway hes got a great smile lol then me and mandy headed to elli mae and katie's party...wooo was elli hyper- she got her bass!!!! woop woop! she'll have fun with that im sure! so hung out there for a lil- long enough to see a cake/icing fight...great stuff! then went home and slept a whole 9 hours...it was an amazing day indeed!
*This morning went to piano lessons and sucked royally..urgh no time to practice anymore...later candace came over to do FCAT with me...so we knocked out like 20 stories between the 2 of us in like 3 hours...i swear that thing is the stupidest thing alive...im very glad me and candace worked together...very very glad! Tonight went with the family to some friends...great food, laughs, relaxing...it was nice...my parents were talking to one of our friends that was there- telling him i was looking for a car- well he remember his bro was selling a 98 Honda Accord...so hes gunna bring it by hopefully next week for me to check it out...this could be it!!! :)17 days guys!! right on!
*No school monday!!!!!!!!!!!! yeaaaaa!

*It's funny how u remember all of the smallest memories in life...*
He is good....all the time...

Its all about the game...
Last night went to the Kanon concert at Riverbend...lots of people from la escuela were there...it was mucho divertido...spent the night at mandy's and had to get up at dang 8'o clock for softball...so was at the fields till like 12 and then went to clean up the math competition...me and mandy raced to see who could clean the fastest...she def won...we got done early so we were waiting for mi madre watching the math kids roll pennies down the halls...we got scared and decided to walk to wal mart lol now im finally home...and need a nap...but have tons of chores to do....and probably homework that im not doing....
Feb.28th- Relient K- Audio Adrenaline concert and others in Lakeland...meeting at my church at 3...u should go...even if u think theyre horrible good times will be had...

*Have u ever noticed how many people have names that are the months of the year...april, may, june...im gunna name my daughter november...and nickname her novvy...hahaha okkk*

:/
a lil boy named marc thomas came to my door...he wanted ms. heather so he could give her the lil kite that he made his babysitter... that lil kid made my day....

i spent all day riding on the emotional swing...by no means was it fun....

i could tell myself 700 X70 times that i dont care, but i think i would still be lying to myself...

sometimes i get lost in my own world, a world where i am you. and i can have what u do...a world so few get to experience...

i want that...but im stuck here...watching from a distance...

*And the voice of truth, says do not be afraid*

Today in church...
98 Freightliner Semi-Truck
14000ft/lbs of torque
7 tons of power
a steal for $134,000!!!
Jesse was bored today in church...i told him before that he better find me a car...so this is what he came up with...he is so goin to get me in trouble in church one of these days, i laugh so hard everytime i sit next to him im surprised i dont get slapped by the people around me...
*batting cages in PO
*drove around town with mi padre
its been an amusing day...

Tonight at 8- TheDigProject at CPC...if u have nothing to do tonight come listen to these guys...i have no idea if theyre good but i would be pretty bored now so im going...

necestio un coche...

dumm diddy dumm...
Amazing Grace how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
Once was lost but now am found
once was blind but now i see
hallelujah...

Never say good bye, know that saying that is to final, just say so long...for one day..in a place we can only imagine...will we meet once again...

Didnt go to softball today...im bad i know but my wrist is killing me...school is alright i guess...as long as i have my friends there making me laugh ill be fine...haha chels "Through out my whole life, i have never had to pay for oxygen!" oh wow...yea u know u liked that...hopefully go carting or movies saturday woop woop! gummy bears in ice cream...good times!

Keep ur chin up kiddo...life can seem so cruel at times but we'll make it...

*!~U rock my socks...(which are underneath my rad shoes with green laces :) hahaha)

its bugging me but i dont know what it is...
i did my math hw after school on a rock...
we got left at school..mandys mom forgot about us... piano tonight...learning how to play jazz so i can learn how to play with the jazz band at school woop woop! coffee this morning :) woohoo yea that woke me up...school...same dang thing every single urgh day...besides now i have economics to fail...grand! softball try outs are one day soon...urhghgh joy to the world...mandy i played sissy ball to long im really bad lol
I bought cookie dough from a baseball player today...he wouldnt shut up till i did...now i owe him 12 bucks... well i have nothing to write about...spilling what im thinking about would include knowing what im thinking but i dont know...not at all...im bugged about something...one day i will figure this out... maybe im just tired about life...i want like a lil monkey to stick in my head and take all my problems and sort them out for me...why a monkey...porque...

We are so the radderestitest mandy...haha dude im so pattening that word...

...
church this morning...
car looking this afternoon...
movies tonight...
school in one day...harsh...

Without music my life would be very hollow...each day i am surrounded by all sorts of music...ever just sit in the dark and listen to the lyrics of these songs...i do it all the time...music adds to life whether just listening to it or actually playing it...yea whateva thought id just share that...

!~* is there something wrong with me...do i not say the right things...do i not look the way im supossed to...do u look at me different because of my beliefs...
its who i am...
as a new year starts i hope to improve somethings in my life...