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2004 6 October :: 9.44 pm
:: Music: John Mayor-My Stupid Mouth
You know what? Honestly, I don't think it's a big deal anymore. Well of course it IS a big deal, but not "that." It is my choice, I'm a junior in High School. I am old enough to make my own choices, make up my mind about my life and what I *want* This is what I want, and if I want it of course I'm going to be smart and SAFE about it.
I don't trust myself around you, and something about that makes me want you even more.
Homecoming is soon, and I just want this to be figured out. Because it makes me Happy, and Sad, and Anxious, and Nervous all at the same time.
~jess
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2004 6 October :: 1.07 pm
JUST ASK GOD DAMNIT!!!
UGH i'M GETTING MADDDDD
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2004 5 October :: 9.21 pm
Lol I'm so happy now! You have no idea. Even though I haven't really gotten what I've been waiting for, the fact that I'm pretty sure I will is what makes me happy. heh. *smiles.
Allergic to laytex lol hehe, that cracks me up.
YAY!!!!!! *smiles
I'm so excited for Homcoming!!!
~Jess
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2004 5 October :: 5.45 pm
:: Music: John Mayor-My stupid Mouth
Some of the day was good, and other parts we're really shitty. Then work, just really made me sad. I hate it so much. Then I got home and I just feel even shitter. But Katie Jo is coming over, so hopefully she'll cheer me up.
We talked about it a little bit, but not enough to get out of the conversation what I wanted. There's still a lot of time though, and I don't want to rush things at all. I want to make sure that he means it and wants it as well as I do. I know I do, I just want him to be ready. So hopefully sometime this week it all get sorted out, most likely this weekend, I'm hoping. That would make everything I want, actually happen.
I really just need the biggest hug because I'm on the verge of just breaking down and crying, and I don't even really know why. I'm sure I could pull some reasons out of my ass that actually are some what true but honestly...there isn't an exact reason. Just one of those days. One of those days where I seriously cannot handle any jerks or bitchy people. Anyone willing to spear a hug?
*sigh
~Jess
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2004 5 October :: 1.05 pm
WTF? ughhh I'm so pissed at you. Well not really, just the way you handeld that. It wasn't the way you should have gone about it. And sometimes I think you really don't ever think about what you do before you do it or say it, because if you really had thought this one through you'd see that you're just going to end up messing it all up, for all of us. Thanks a lot genious!
I didn't ask yet....I'm going to in about 25 minutes when this class gets over. Yay! *blushes* I'm so excited!!! "She's got the bomb ass pussy" *laughs
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2004 4 October :: 8.07 pm
So I didn't get to ask, but only because I wasn't around all day, and when I was, he was standing across from the two of us. Whcih wouldn't really be the best thing to ask infront of him.
Me and Kate got our hair done after school today. I like it. I got highlights and a cut, and Kate got red highlights and layers. We both look smookin hot ;) heh
I can't wait till this weekend.
Friday hopefully we're goin to the haunt w/ some people. Then Sat. is Travis's party.
AHHHHHHh I love this boy! Not literally, just like em a lot.
~Jess
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2004 4 October :: 1.09 pm
You fucking little bastard. You are a rat. All of you stupid boys. WTF? Honestly, who the fuck does that? Maybe you didn't go there yourself and rat me out, but dont think I didn't know it was your idea! I will never EVEr in my life be nice to you again you fucking asshole. I swear to God, I'm going to give you the hardest time you've ever gotten from anyone. You dumbass, you are going to wish you had NEVER been my friend, and you're going to regreat crossing me like this.
I'll make it happen.
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2004 3 October :: 7.31 pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: John Mayor-Comfortable
I won't run from it this time. I'm promising myself, no more hiding. I want this more than I've wanted something in a long time. Nothing but good can come from it. And I can't be afraid of something possiably happening before it's even happened. If I don't go for it, don't let it happen, then later I'll regreat it so much more than I know I will, and I'll hate myself for not just letting it happen. I know he won't hurt me, I know that he's an AMAZING guy. He's so understanding and loving. Which is exactlly what I need. I just need to go for it, and let it happen. Stop over thinking everything.
Tomorrow I'll do it.
*smiles*
Jess
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2004 3 October :: 3.37 pm
So Mike asked me to Homecoming today. I got my dress today. Sorta lol. And Kate got hers. I'm excited. Espically since as of yesterday we weren't even going. But oh well lol. We're gonna have fun. I can't wait! I really want to go with him though. We'll see what happens tomorrow.
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2004 3 October :: 12.46 pm
*smiles
I'm so happy.
YAY!!!!!
~Jess
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2004 2 October :: 11.56 pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Nelly and Tim McGraw-Over and Over Again
HAPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
So me and Kate went to the Powder Puff game, and invited pretty much the whole school over to our house for our bonfire.
Yeah, everyone showed up, and I had the best time.
That happiness I was talking about, I got it. I am so happy, you have no idea. I like Mitch so much. And I had a great night.
Thanks for everyone who came, lol which is pretty much everyone...lol
~Jess
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2004 1 October :: 4.40 pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Nelly and Tim McGraw-Over and Over Again
I want it so bad. So bad because it's all that I've wanted. It would make everything perfect, complete me. I promise to you my life that I mean it. I can't make you believe me, but a promise is a promise. Espically coming from me.
You know, I know, and no one else. No one else matters. What happens between us, stays between us.
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Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause it's on in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can't take it yeah I can't shake it
Nooo
I can't wait to see you
Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes
That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes
And it's a shame that we got to spend our time
Being mad about the same things
Over and over again
About the same things
Over and over again
Ohh
But I think she's leaving
Ooh man she's leaving
I don't know what else to do
(I Can't go on not loving you)
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its on in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again yeah
And I can't take it yeah I can't shake it
Nooo
I remember the day you left
I remember the last breath you took right in front of me
When you said that u would leave
I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything
But I see clearly now
and this chose I made keep playing in my head
Over and over again
Playing my head
Over and over again
Ohh
I think she's leaving
Ooh man she's leaving
I don't know what else to do
(I Can't go on not loving you)
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its on in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can't take it I can't shake it
Nooo
(Now that I've realizes that I'm going down
From all this pain you've put me thought
Every time I close my eyes I like it ?
I can't go on not loving you)
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its on in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can't take it I can't shake it
Nooo
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its on in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can't take it I can't shake it
Nooo
Over and Over again
Over and Over again
Cause it's all in my head
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Today was such a good day. Not for any particular reason. I'm just so happy all the time now. THere's nothing to keep my head down.
Tonight.
I'm buying Dakota's car. yay!! For cheap too. I love that kid!
~Jess
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2004 1 October :: 1.38 pm
I am so happy!
*smiles
I'm so glad it's Friday! And Red Flannel Weekend~
~Jess
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2004 30 September :: 9.40 pm
:: Music: Nellly and Tim McGraw-over and over again
I love this song! Nelly and Tim McGraw's song, "Over and Over again" *smiles. Every needs to download that song. It made me tear up when I first heard it.
I'm sorry, but I can't just do everything I use to be able too. You aren't having any understanding at all. You just get too upset way too easily, and I can't help you when you're like that, and I don't feel like I can help you. When you talk like that, it makes me just angry, then no one helps anyone. So just drop the attitude.
Me and Kate went to the soccer game and I had so much fun! I got to see everyone. My little Boom Boom :)
I'm so excited for tomorrow, heh. I dont know why. I'm just happy with everything pretty much. :)
Tomorrow is the first home game, he's comin over, they both are. lol
*Smiles. I'm just so happy that for the first time in a long time. There isn't one thing in my life that I'm not happy with. I'm just so happy!!!!!!!!!!!
~jess
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