:: 2025 14 February :: 6.13 am

sometimes my husband talks in his sleep. I've never been with someone who does it so regularly.

sometimes he's very angry saying "fuck" a lot. but last night be was talking in a cute baby voice saying something I couldn't understand but it sure sounded sweet and happy. it was the cutest thing.

he's just so adorable. I am lucky all those other ladies were too stupid to realize what they had.

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:: 2025 5 February :: 11.21 am

can't talk to my friends, can't talk to my family.

this isolation is killing me.

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:: 2025 26 January :: 6.25 am

our baby turns 7 months this week. she is almost walking, and says "hi dada" when her dad walks into the room. she also calls grandpa dada (dad looks just like Grandpa haha) she has one tooth out and a second is coming right now.

and I FINALLY feel like she loves me. and trusts me. and isn't just trying to placate me so I keep her alive. she loses her shit if she can't see me. she wakes up at night and won't calm down unless I pick her up and rock her on my shoulder. she crawls to me and looks to me for reassurance.

she naps in her crib. she loves eating chicken. she is starting to giggle. she is just so freaking cute and amazing and I am just blown away by her every day. I love her so much, and I just hope she's always happy. she just lights up the whole room.

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:: 2025 19 January :: 6.44 am

put in an offer on a nice ass house, it was accepted. getting major cold feet.

feeling abandoned by my family.

fucking on my wits end with this child. only because I'm having pms. and that makes me feel so incredibly guilty.

I'm tired. and heartbroken. and frustrated.

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:: 2024 16 December :: 10.29 am

that feeling when you find out your best friend has cancer and there's really nothing that can be done.

I'm not ready to say goodbye.

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