:: 2024 16 November :: 8.13 am

I am so thankful and grateful and just beyond in awe of this process.

but man do I feel lonely and isolated.

and the closest therapist in network is two towns away. and there's only 8 for this whole metro area. I haven't reached out yet, idk who to pick.

I've lost 15 lbs in a month and a half. ultimately I'd like to lose a total of 100, but baby steps is where I'm at. I think I'm definitely looking better. soon I'll be able to fit into my pre-baby clothes. my lightest weigh in was 227, I'm at 242 right now. slowly but surely. all this Halloween candy doesn't help... we only had 5 groups of trick or treaters! super lame turn out.

we are sleep training the baby right now. it is exhausting but I think we are making progress. she's so smart and strong, she just amazes me every day. now if only we could get baths to be fun.

are you reaching out

:: 2024 4 November :: 8.11 am

my life is perfect the literal American dream

to complete it all I need is a prescription of Xanax for this intense morning anxiety I feel for no specific reason. makes me want to jump out of my skin and run away.

my baby loves dancing to old house music. she can't dance on her own but she loves when we make her dance. she's so fun

are you reaching out

:: 2024 25 September :: 8.00 am

I wonder what dolphins think about when they stare at themselves in a mirror

are you reaching out

:: 2024 1 September :: 1.59 pm

I am in such a deep dark hole.

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:: 2024 1 August :: 9.49 pm

in the third quiet place they blow up the new York bridges... that is where escape from new york starts.

are you reaching out