:: 2020 11 July :: 9.44 am

and just like that he's gone.

3rd in 12 months. life is really fucking unfair.

are you reaching out

:: 2020 7 July :: 10.30 am

trying to remain calm
trying to have positive thoughts
but what if he dies?

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:: 2020 4 July :: 8.25 am

I keep wondering what's the point of moving forward.

I'm a miserable person doomed to feel this way for the rest of life.

I won't make a good mother, I'll teach my child how to be spineless, how to be a doormat, how to pathetically let people walk all over them.

I can't even carry a conversation. I can't make friends. I'm just boring, fat and hideous.

I don't want to buy a house anymore. I don't want to be in a relationship. I don't want to take care of anyone but myself. I just want to be alone and hide in my little hole.

I just want to be let go, so I can start my homesick fade to white.

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:: 2020 27 June :: 11.01 am

I'm not a rock

I'm crumbling sand stone

just garbage in the wind lacerating your lungs

shredding your heart

completely worthless

are you reaching out

:: 2020 11 June :: 2.31 pm

everybody's changing

and I don't feel right

are you reaching out