:: 2017 31 October :: 10.35 pm

Sometimes you make me wish I could disappear

It not that I don't listen to you because I do, I just have a hard time piecing things together about people

Maybe it's just me being selfish maybe I feel like you never listen to me either

Maybe nothing really matters and everything is just a big old fucking waste of time we all end up dead anyway

are you reaching out

:: 2017 30 October :: 2.13 pm

i hate that you love them so much. the stories related to me don’t inspire trust or confidence and i find myself reaching to make connections that aren’t there.

where does this loyalty come from?
why are these drug addicts so important?

but there’s no way to talk to you about it. and there’s no way to express my feelings without sounding like a dumb jealous cunt.

but i can’t see their value in your mind, i can’t even see their value to society.




but they are probably right. i suck. i’m fat and ugly and stupid. a waste of time. just like they are to me.

are you reaching out

:: 2017 22 October :: 8.40 am

so much debt
so many stupid fucking decisions
i’m a fucking piece of shit and i don’t deserve nice things

are you reaching out

:: 2017 14 October :: 7.55 pm

i love the feeling of fresh ink

especially when i know the next session will be the last and this sleeve will finally be done and i can move onto something else is so exciting

i was to get an evil eye on my chest between my wings, get the wings touched up...

i really need to get my back stars covered or fixed because they are just so terrible and i would love to have something awesome back there instead of just some half ass whatever.

but man my legs are so bare

are you reaching out

:: 2017 10 October :: 12.29 am

vanilla huckleberry macarons

meh

my back hurts and i’m tired

i just want to cuddle

are you reaching out