:: 2021 21 May :: 8.47 am

I hate that feeling of being needed, but taken for granted.

like y'all don't really need me despite how much I do for you.

and I'm left holding that short straw in our life dingy, the next to give my body for nourishment. and unlike the plane crash in the Andes, there is no gratitude. just more fucking trash.

I'm sinking to the bottom, and as I look up to the fading light, I can see the last starlight I'll ever see, into the crushing depths. to feed the bottom dwellers or maybe just feed some scavengers.

and just never be found or thought of again.

I am dead inside

are you reaching out

:: 2021 20 May :: 7.22 am

"you just seemed so honest, but sexy"

is honesty not normally a sexy trait...? oh craigslist you confuse the heck out of me haha

1 night time trust fall | are you reaching out

:: 2021 11 May :: 8.28 am

this extreme tiredness doesn't seem to want to leave

but I'm so damn tired

are you reaching out

:: 2021 6 May :: 9.35 am

everyone I love seems to be drowning in alcohol

and they are too drunk to admit they need to change anything

and literally every serious topic is a joke

please just stop lying to me...

are you reaching out

:: 2021 17 April :: 9.46 pm

had a really good birthday, just feeling pretty good about life when not looking at the parts I don't like.

it's going to be hard going back to work on Monday...

are you reaching out