catatonicsean
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2014 25 January :: 4.12pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Joy Division - Autosuggestion
I think I may die alone.
No, I will not get a haircut. No, I will not get a high paying job that I hate just to impress insipid little girls. No, I will not adopt a new sense of humor that eschews the moribund and obscene.
I was always told that "being yourself" was the best thing you can do, but it appears that the world at large is far too shallow, and only rewards those who fit in because they were never given the option to be anything else. Whoever claimed "being yourself" was the ticket to finding a mate was full of shit, and obviously won the Dating Lottery if it worked out for them.
It's time to give up and be a bitter old misogynist.
are you reaching out
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alexithymia
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2014 23 January :: 5.12pm
Stage One = Complete.
Stage Two = Processing.
Stage Three = Pending.
Did well enough on my phone interview to get to the second interview. Now, to impress the socks off the two floor managers at the in-person interview.
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catatonicsean
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2014 19 January :: 5.38pm
:: Mood: apathetic
:: Music: Sunn O))) - Mocking Solemnity
After a night of hard drinking and doing coke (also: somebody smoked hash out of my tobacco pipe, and now every drag tastes wretched, like cheap homemade hash), I believe I have shut down emotionally. I pray they never come back.
It's been a while since last I indulged in anything resembling legitimate substance abuse, and my system forgot what it means to be bombarded with exagerrated drug-induced sensation. My system has gotten rather senile since I turned 25, methinks.
It'll all come slithering back after a spell, but at the present, it doesn't seem so.
This is what the weekend is for.
are you reaching out
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alexithymia
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2014 18 January :: 9.08am
Refinancing my car and getting lower monthly payments.
Transferring my BOA balance to STCU reducing my minimum payments there.
Interview with possible new job on Thursday.
And going to Point Defiance Zoo and Aquarium for my birthday.
Hopefully this is just the start of new good things to come.
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alexithymia
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2014 14 January :: 4.59pm
So out of shape I wasn't able to make it through T25s Alpha Cardio all the way. I will persevere though.
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