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2013 15 December :: 11.08pm
Desolation is a lonely place.
You can describe in prose, and use words to shape it.
But, just like a cold breeze, you'll never feel the full effect unless you're right there in the moment.
Even for a moment; a cold breeze feels like the end of it all.
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skife
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2013 15 December :: 11.03pm
a friend of mine post this on facebook a few days ago...
i read it and realised that i'm an introvert...
life made alot of sense afterwards.
http://www.buzzfeed.com/erinlarosa/problems-only-introverts-will-understand
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catatonicsean
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2013 14 December :: 4.30pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: Tangerine Dream - Hyperborea
It's Winter, and the temperature hovers around eighty (fahrenheit).
I want to move to a place that is bleak and cold and sparsely populated, and whoever dwells there is either capable of tolerating my presence, or prepared for a feud that ends when someone dies.
I've run out of cigarettes, and who-so-ever makes eye contact with me will wish they hadn't.
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catatonicsean
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2013 10 December :: 6.47pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Black Flag - Damaged II
I hear voices, but not in the hackneyed "I'm fucking batty, and God told me to do it!" sense. More or less, I hear layers of inner monologue screaming and consuling and blathering inanities all at the same time.
This has gone on for years, and most have assumed my lack of attention span is due to some juvenile issue like ADD, or some such nonsense, but it's just a thousand shrieking thoughts fighting for priority. And they can all fuck off, let me tell you.
Things are difficult at this juncture (no shit moron, get on with it), and with external noise compounded with the internal ranting, I'm so damned flustered and ineffective as a person, I figure the proper solution is a bullet in the brain pan, but I don't own a gun, and no one I know would let me borrow one.
I am at a loss.
Shrinks are useless unless you're a total sucker, medication is fine as long as it's cheap and no you don't rely on a prescription (proactivity beats a doctor's opinion any day), and talking about it is somewhat cathartic, but not a solution, either.
Who knows?
Not I.
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alexithymia
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2013 10 December :: 6.38am
Yesterday took 6 muscle relaxers and pain pills to get through the day. Its not even 7 am yet and I'm already at 4. Today is going to be hell. I should have called out.
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