alexithymia
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2015 10 November :: 1.02pm
"Between the desire
And the spasm
Between the potency
And the existence
Between the essence
And the descent
Falls the Shadow"
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alexithymia
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2015 20 October :: 6.02am
It is too early for me to be awake.
This new dosage of daily medication for migraines is going to try to kill me.
I really HAVE to go back to work tomorrow but I can't if I can only go two hrs of sleep, body numbness, joint pain, and flu like symptoms from the new dosage and I have to wait another week before doc ups the dosage again and then who knows what symptoms I may or may not get and when they may or may not cease to exist.
But if I stop taking the meds the chronic migraines come back and I can't afford those either.
Though work thinks I'm faking those. Well I can feel the tingling starting in my hand again so I'm going to wrap up this journal entry before I can't type anymore.
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alexithymia
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2015 11 October :: 10.28pm
I just want to be okay, be okay, be okay
I just want to be okay today
I just want to be okay, be okay, be okay
I just want to be okay today
I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
Open me up and you will see
I'm a gallery of broken hearts
I'm beyond repair, let me be
And give me back my broken parts
I just want to know today, know today, know today
I just want to know something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe I will be okay
Open me up and you will see
I'm a gallery of broken hearts
I'm beyond repair, let me be
And give me back my broken parts
Just give me back my pieces
Just give them back to me please
Just give me back my pieces
And let me hold my broken parts
I just want to be okay, be okay, be okay
I just want to be okay today
I just want to be okay, be okay, be okay
I just want to be okay today
I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today (I just want to feel something today)
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe I will be okay (Know that maybe I will be okay)
Know that maybe I will be okay (Know that maybe I will be okay)
Know that maybe I will be okay
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catatonicsean
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2015 12 October :: 12.39am
I have got my wife listening to Tangerine Dream and King Diamond.
Mission: Accomplished.
are you reaching out
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alexithymia
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2015 27 September :: 1.28pm
:: Mood: indescribable
No there ain't nothing that I gotta prove
You think your words will make me black and blue
But I, I think im pretty with these old boots on
I think its funny when I drink too much, hey
You try and change me you can go to hell
Cause I don't want to be nobody else
I like the chip I got in my front teeth
And I got bad tattoos you won't believe
So kick out the jams, kick up the soul
Pour another glass of that rock and roll
Turn up the band, fire in the hole
Gonna lose control tonight
What do you want from me, I'm not america's sweetheart
So beat the drum with me, I'm not america's sweetheart
Well they say I'm too loud for this town
So I lit a match and burned it down
What do you want from me, I'm not americas sweet heart
But you love me anyway
My hands are dirty and my heart is cold the boys
I've been with say I got no soul, when I,
I meet another honey at the bar,
I'll think its funny when I break his heart, mmm now,
My kind of medicine is whiskey straight,
I got a mouth to put you in your place, and they,
They said I'll never be the poster type,
But they don't make posters of my kind of life
So kick out the jams, kick up the soul
Pour another glass of that rock and roll
Turn up the band, fire in the hole
Gonna lose control tonight
What do you want from me, I'm not americas sweetheart
So beat the drum with me, I'm not americas sweetheart
Well they say I'm too loud for this town
So I lit a match and burned it down
What do you want from me, I'm not americas sweetheart, but you love me anyway
You love me anyway
Kick out the jams, kick up the soul
Pour another glass of that rock and roll
Turn up the band, fire in the hole, holler if you ready,
Gonna lose control
Kick out the jams, kick up the soul
Pour another glass of that rock and roll
Turn up the band, fire in the hole,
Gonna lose control tonight
What do you want from me, I'm not americas sweetheart
So beat the drum with me, I'm not americas sweetheart
Well they say I'm too loud for this town
So I lit a match and burned it down
What do you want from me, I'm not americas sweetheart, but you love me anyway
You love me anyway
I'm not americas sweetheart
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