Life, Love, & Fairytale endings...

Soo..feels like forever since I update this thing.. I was reading emmys journal tonight and I figured why not, im bored at home so I'll go update it...and here I am. :o)

So..Love?..Its so confusing, one minute everythings okay...the next somethings wrong. I just don't know what to do anymore. I always loved you and I don't think that will ever really change. I'm just not sure what to do about some other people. I love the sweet guys, cuddling, kissing, hugging, holding hands... the stuff guys in high school almost never want. But I found that in you. And I wish I could bring myself to......

nevermind my love life anymore. My dreams? my fantasies? I wish they'd come true. I wish I could get the best grades, the grades I know im capeable of..I wish I could just change myself, and everything about my life. but this dream?...it'll never come true.

So last week, I decided i want to learn how to surf. I wanna be a california girl..I want to go to college in cali and be a surfer soo bad, ahha that'll be another dream that doesnt come true tho..im sure of it.

USY- my life. obsession. best friends forever. 12 days from tomorrow we will be at ramah. the sophomore leadership bunk of 07' girls... ahhh i cant freakin wait. 3 days of absolute insanity is just 12 days away!!!!! ahhh! JANNA- abe and i were talking today and were gonna be in the same bunk aka 07 girls.. anddd its gonna be just crazzzzzyyy. hahahahahah

welll...nothing else i feel a need to say here. if you wanna kno more just talk to me u idiot! haha...

loveeers: im out. *JoDi*

p.s.- omg Heather, beccaw, beccag, beccab, cara, and michelle i am beyhond jealous of you visiting camp tonight. You being at camp with all the leaves on the ground, everything closed up. I am so insanly jealous. I wanna visit camp now. I also wanna visit camp when theres snow on the ground..it is the type of place that i feel, in the snow..would actualyl be romantic..walking down the bunny path...into the horseshoe. :o) sitting on the snow covered beach with the lake frozen..can we go skating on it? :o) aww im smiling, I want to make this dream..come true.

haven't written latley...

"so...its been real hasn't it... summer came and went so fast...6 years flew by..and now, its gone. Memories may last and the friendships too, but damn my ladies, I MISS YOU!"- a quote from a friend :o)

i miss camp so muchhh...its like those nights when u have nothing to do..which dont happen much, but when they do..ur like.. why cant I be at camp...at evening activity.. entertaineddd!! ahhh!! hahah
i miss yrush 04' and only 57 days till reunion... :o)

so...nothings new around here.. :o) so i have nothing new to say. mwahahhh

verry sickkk :o(


I can't remember the last time I threw up because I was sick :o( It suckss! I woke up from my nap and i was numbingly cold. I put on a sweatshirt and sweatpants and was still freezing. So mommy took my temperature and sure enough 102.3 eek! well it got worse, at dinner..i could barely eat, and then...i threw up what little chicken i could manage down. Then i took my temp again later and it was 103.8 so i took 3 tylonol and went to sleep. -barely slept too, it sucked. My dad kept checking on me, and asking if i needed anything. Then I woke up this morning, and threw up again. my temp didnt go down much...102.5 and i have been sleeping and resting alll day.
I cant go to prozdor or canouing tomorrow :o( i am soo upset about it too. -TO Natick USY: i love u, have fun and ill miss youuu! and to the pdorks i havent seen yet: :o/ another week now... boo~ :(
well- ima go to sleep. night night.
to me feeling better...*jodi*