He seemed no different from the rest Just a healthy normal boy His mama always did her best And he was daddy's pride and joy He learned to walk and talk on time But never cared much to be held and steadily he would decline Into his solitary shell As a boy he was considered somewhat odd Kept to himself most of the time He would daydream in and out of his own world but in every other way he was fine He's a Monday morning lunatic Disturbed from time to time Lost within himself In his solitary shell A temporary catatonic Madman on occasion When will he break out Of his solitary shell He struggled to get through his day He was helplessly behind He poured himself onto the page Writing for hours at a time As a man he was a danger to himself Fearful and sad most of the time He was drifting in and out of sanity But in every other way he was fine He's a Monday morning lunatic Disturbed from time to time Lost within himself In his solitary shell A momentary maniac With casual delusions When will he be let out Of his solitary shell

 

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:: 2004 1 November :: 6.46 pm

Death is the first Dancing Turtle
woo i got in more applications today, im good now. So i should do my genetics projct...i will, will dont worry blahhhhhhh. so new internet...i have to re-set all my favorites bleh. but hey one acts is going great today we decided on the shirts, and the order and tech stuff and its kinda cool im excited, so i think im going to work now, maybe ill update later. SO MUCH has happened since i last updated but thats cuz my internet was messed up but ill make it up and write stuff laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr bye bye now

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:: 2004 25 October :: 12.05 am

So i figured out how my internet works...dont hate me for not updating in forever, i got it no, so ill update all the time again. woo!

So Friday was awesomly amazing! IT WAS SO FUN! I WAS SO HAPPY! EXCEPTTT when Bellito pronounced my name wrong... :/ bah to him. oh well, i need to get my sleep because everyone knows i will not get much of it for the remainder of the week :) byeeeeeee

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:: 2004 6 October :: 10.06 pm

if you could group all the people in the world into 2 groups which 2 groups would you put them into? excluding political groups and relijious groups and the obvious male and female...

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:: 2004 26 August :: 12.36 am

dont care how many days
Going back into the past is bad. There's a reason its in the past its over. But I cant believe it still makes me mad, makes me want to throw up. Finding out things that someone did behind my back that i never knew about...always great im going to be sick now. i cant believe i was so dumb.

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:: 2004 24 August :: 12.14 am

11/12 days til i see spencer
not sure when he's coming but he's coming back for labor day! :) im excited, i already took off work....hehehe i went out today...not sure it was alright i still feel an abscense, i like staying at home by myself then my saddness doesnt rub off on others and just make people mad and uncomfortable i hate that. so i really dont want to do it so if i decline your offer to hang out im sorry, its probably for the better of you becuase if your stuck home doing nothing there's at least potential to have fun and do cool things by yourself as i have discovered...yes that is my story bye

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:: 2004 21 August :: 11.26 pm

i need to get out of my house as much as possible because so many things about this house just remind me of him and then i cry, i pulled in my driveway and remember last night where we hugged eachother and cried, he wouldnt leave until i stopped. i walked into my house and saw the porch where i hugged him for the last time in a while at 6:30 in the morning. i go inside and to my room...i go downstairs and cant take it anymore i cry because i remember last night at 11:50 where we just held eachother and cried and now im writing this after working a 12 hour shift, where i was ok and now i want to die.

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:: 2004 20 August :: 12.18 am

1 day
tomorrow is my last day with spencer before he leaves

saturday i get to open to close...12 hour shift, that has to be illegal right? guess not, i wish
then sunday open to 530 gggggggggreat! I WANT TO DIE!!!


im so sad and so mad at the same time i wish life didnt have to be like this. im considering quitting work...im going to start looking for a new job its just changed so much, for the bad.


im sad now

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:: 2004 18 August :: 12.39 am

4 days
I wish i could say im swimming in happiness but i definatly am not. not only am i extremely about spencer, and others leaving but i just got in a fight with spencer and im kinda sour towards a few...for...reasons.

its hitting me i want to die, but i know being sad isnt helping him, so im trying im trying soooooooo hard to be happy im sure this is hard for him and i dont want to make it harder, im excited and i help him get ready and buy him things he needs to go to school. i hope it helps.

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:: 2004 16 August :: 1.21 am

5 days
its starting to hit me that this is actually happening...it started with kyle and he left and now its all happening. 5 days. 5...5!


god dammit


did just spend the weekend with him went to michigan with him to the samsons house...they hate me, or at least they think i hate them which i dont but thats because im shy, you all know that. gah. i dont hate them. theyre very nice people. i wish i could spend more time with them because some of them seem very fun. except that kid that never stops talking...lol but he was cute. he's like what 8?


jorie and neils party was amazing. i had a great time. took lots of pictures made cool viedos.


i decided im going to make a cd of all the videos i've taken this summer, im making one for Hul too anyone else want one?

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:: 2004 13 August :: 12.17 am

8 days
i didnt even see him today

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