:: 2004 13 July :: 12.30 am

Im watching Aqua teen hunger force, its the one with meat mountain. I dont get it but i actually like this show, and i love the ball or meat, hes so funny! yeah goli and melanies party today it was fun, sweaty smelly boys, and bugs, and tickling and i went to go see my spency...:( i hope he's better soon hes really sick. And i went to the scrapbook store today and got beach stuff, sooooooo cool! and i printed my pictures heeh theyre funny i have funny pictures espically this one of wender where he looks like a guy from baywatch, and hes running. and pictures of spency and our sandcastle :) good times!

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:: 2004 5 July :: 11.59 pm

Alright, im back, i was in Bolingbrook for the weekend and i came back today so i could go to work, where they made me come in early, and stay late, which my friends bites. gah. today was my first official day not in training anymore! :) im so happy cuz i was being trianed for 4 weeks, and now im done! im special! And my drawer...wasnt bad today, being as it was open all day constantle serving customers because of the stupid work holiday and millions of zillions coming to see movies! GAH! Well i got throught it alive, and just because i have nothing better to do, im going to tell you a little bit more about it. Ok so first, last summer i got sick almost everytime i had a frappiccuino and since that was a year ago since i had one, i figured it was over, and i had a frappiccuino today, and guess what i got sick and i still geel sick. so i got my butt up, forced myself to stop being so sick, made food, and went to work, where i stared at food and served foor all day. bleh. then it was sooooooooooo busy i didnt have 3 minutes to go to the bathroom it was insane i had to wait 3 hours, by that point with all the hot popcorn and stuff and the not feeling well thing i started sweating, which I NEVER DO! i almost NEVER sweat, because of my hormone imbalance thingy...but anyway i felt really sick and i started feeling dehydrated, and this customer came up to me, and i just walked away, and i went to the bathroom and i got some water...ahhhhhhhh. Then i went back to work and worked 6 hours until i got my break, bux poopy Dost wouldnt let me go! gah! ok so then i came back from stuffing my face on break, which turned out to not go well with my stomach but this was 9 and i hadnt eaten a thing all day. so then Benito, gosh i love Benito sometimes, pulled my drawer only like 10 minutes after 10, which is pretty good, and then i went home. to sit. and not serve people. :)


This weekend was AMAZING well ok it wasnt like that fun, i was at my dads the whole time, but our friend got thousands of dollars of illegal fireworks that were so cool! i really enjoied it, and we had lots of good good, and this super amazing taco dip (honestly its the first time i've ever had taco dip cuz everyone puts meat in it :/) so it was good, and fireworks were sweet! stupid people next door letting their 4 and 6 year olds shoot off fireworks INSIDE their garage. They were so stupid! they did it for a long time too! o man they were stupid!!!! and i played with the most adorable little kids, spencer, mackalia, and josh, 4, 6, and 8. I love them theyre soooooooo cute! Espically spencer!!!! and i took them swimming and spencer kept thinking that he could swim and he definatly cant so it was scary...( he was holding onto a noodle the whole time and then he would let go ahhhhhh) not good. yeah so this is a really long entry, i havent been on line in a long time. SPencer comes home tonight :) im so excited!!!!!!! YAY! yeah i talked to him today, not for long but it was good! Yipee! okie bye bye

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:: 2004 3 July :: 12.56 am

blah, i didnt update yesterday, and i didnt really update the day before either. thats because theres nothing good to say, so i wont say much at all. spencer is gone, i miss him, hes in michigan with neil, he invited me to go but couldnt. i think i am going to make invitations to my party now. im really really sorry if i forget someone theres a limit to how many people i can have, but if you just call me im sure i can arrange something, its nothing perosnal, i promise!

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:: 2004 1 July :: 1.24 am

I....I am not going to say anything (besides this) about my day, because people will then just say im only thinking about myself, when im not. so if you think that, they why are you reading my journal?

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:: 2004 29 June :: 1.47 am

Amaxzing day, with the exception of the previous entry
Today was so much fun. I really enjoyed it. I went to the beach early in the morning, and later on spencer, wender and stunkel joined me. it was very fun. we built a sand castle then splashed everyone with the dirty sandy water, which then led to everyone going in the actual water and splashing, dunking and throwing people. and unfourtanatly (wtf? sp?) (for me at least) throwing people. it was very fun, then we all took a nap, my family went home and we went on a boat, where stunkel was crazy, ahhh. ten wender went home and spencer stunkel and i ate at my house...food was good. then we watched the ending of office space, i felt so bad for the guy without the cake. :( im going to make him some cake, lots of cake. so then i called patrice who i guess called me much earlier but both of out stupid phones werent working so she didnt join us at the beach :( which would have been a lot more fun. but anyway theni called her and we went in my hot tub. yummy pina colada hot tub! yea thats the end of my story

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:: 2004 29 June :: 12.30 am

GRRR!
people should be allowed to be friends with whoever they want to. What reasons do you have for hating someone because theyre friends with someone. Thats stupid you know that, i can be friends with whoever i want, and if they want to be friends with me they can. you should not think its dumb or anything, people make their own choices they do what they want!

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:: 2004 28 June :: 12.59 am
:: Music: the silent man

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:: 2004 27 June :: 1.22 am

i am starving grr neil for not having vegetarian food...im sooooooo hungry. houmph (thats the sound of me eating) Neils party was fun. but i was so mad at spencer for playing video games all day...(thats what he wants me to say, im not really mad) so im eating now. yeah. i think im tired. i dont think i have anything else to say either...OMG! YES I DO!!! so corey told me today that im directing a one act! (sweetness) and Wender is going to write me one, and Sandy Kim if shes not Sming for Dracula, is going to be my stage manager!!!!! it is so amazingly sweet!!! i am excited

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:: 2004 26 June :: 2.07 am

singing
Subconscious strange sensation
Unconscious relaxation
What a pleasant nightmare
And I can`t wait to get there again

Every time I close my eyes
There`s another vivid surprise
Another whole life waiting
Chapters unfinished, fading

Closer now - Slowly coming into view
I`ve arrived - Blinding sunshine beaming through

There`s a house I`m drawn into
Familiar settings, nothing new
There`s a pathway leading there
With a haunting chill in the air

There`s room at the top of the stairs
Every night I`m drawn up there
There`s a girl in the mirror
Her face is getting clearer
Young child won`t you tell me why I`m here?

In her eyes -I sense a story never told
Behinde the disguise - There`s something tearing
At her soul

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:: 2004 26 June :: 1.22 am

"Burn the women and rape the crops"
tonight was fun. i didnt actually expect to get out. first i cashed my paycheck (oh yeah) then went to tokyo bowl with wender and spencer. then spencer and i went to world market where i got my baskets which were 2o dollars more than last time. poop. but i bought them then then... then we went to my house and spencer left and i went to the dealership to drop off my car theni ate pizza by myself and jackie called me but i didnt know it and so i scrapbooked then i noticed jackie called me like hours earlier and i went to the park, which was halirious these other people form out school showed up and stunkel, q, neil and campy ran around the park and screamed burn the women and rape the crops, and stulnkel took his pants off. ew! then we went to baskin robbins and jackie and i shared this really good ice cream. then these people were driving in the parking lot, and like id ont know what they were doing but it was bad and i was going to call the police but then the police came. and campy was so funny, you had to be there, then wender walked there and he showed up right when we were leaving then we went to bentons and ashley and i "fought" over my pants...theni fell and it hurt, then i left and now im home...on line. yup i think that concludes my day, ill be right back i have to go write down my dream from last night.

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