He seemed no different from the rest Just a healthy normal boy His mama always did her best And he was daddy's pride and joy He learned to walk and talk on time But never cared much to be held and steadily he would decline Into his solitary shell As a boy he was considered somewhat odd Kept to himself most of the time He would daydream in and out of his own world but in every other way he was fine He's a Monday morning lunatic Disturbed from time to time Lost within himself In his solitary shell A temporary catatonic Madman on occasion When will he break out Of his solitary shell He struggled to get through his day He was helplessly behind He poured himself onto the page Writing for hours at a time As a man he was a danger to himself Fearful and sad most of the time He was drifting in and out of sanity But in every other way he was fine He's a Monday morning lunatic Disturbed from time to time Lost within himself In his solitary shell A momentary maniac With casual delusions When will he be let out Of his solitary shell

 

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:: 2004 25 June :: 2.49 am

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Are you in a Solitary Shell?

:: 2004 25 June :: 1.17 am

i smell like popcorn and butter and its sick. ugh.

so you know when you just have those days where you feel like your nobody and your just nothing special and no one will remember you when they leave or go off of just anyhting and then you go hang out with people and they're supposivly your friends and they dont even notice that your there and they tell you they dont even know your there, but then theres some people that you would actually expect above all to actually talk to you, and they dont say a word to you but they walk right in front of you...yeah that makes me feel special. whats your name again? oh yeah...yeah i dont remember you at all...darn!

the lesson learned here, is that there is nothing to learn is there? maybe i should start making loud obnoxious entrances...then everyone will know im there. thats the only solution i can think of...any suggestions?

Are you in a Solitary Shell?

:: 2004 24 June :: 12.52 am

tonight, tonight/today was not bad. i woke up and was just like dammit what am i going to do today, so i asked spencer and he told me to go to panera, so i went to panera where all the ppl that work at the school were having their lunch break, i didnt eat anyhting i just sat there, then it took me and hour to get home cuz of stupid traffic and i baked a cake. then...then we went to dinner and saw bo, that was fun we got free bread. thennnn we went to my house to eat my cake and went in my backyard and didnt really do anything. and oh man wender wore my jacket, hat and scarf and he looked so funny i took a picture. yeah then everyone left and spencer came back then he left and i got a really long e mail from my aunt, and my cousin is going to paris thats so cool!!! and now im here, so im going to go to bed now cuz i have to work tomorrow at 12. poop. okie good night. aw i gtotta drive my sister to gymnastics too double poop! okuie bye bye

Are you in a Solitary Shell?

:: 2004 23 June :: 2.17 am


LAYER ONE:ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Jill
Birth Date:2/26/87
Birth Place: Elmhurst Memorial Hospital
Eye Colour:Brown
Hair Colour:Brown
Right or Lefty:Lefty
Zodiac Sign: Pisces
Horoscope:huh? Pisces? what does that mean?

LAYER TWO:ON THE INSIDE
Your Heritage: Polish and Czechslocakian
Shoes worn today: slippers and my target flip flopsYour
weakness: im very tickilish
Your fears: i think im afraid os snakes but im not sure onle if theres one right there and loosing someone i care about.
Goals: life long or short term?

LAYER THREE:YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
Your most overused phrase on AIM: i really dont know i dont really pay much attention to what i say
Your thoughts while first waking up: i dont wanna go to work...
Your best physical feauture: uh none cept my height which is awesome, espically when i need money for school hehehe
Your bedtime: im usually asleep as soon as i get home so like 11 ish but tonight i can not sleep cuz im not tired at all
Your most missed memory: i just wish i could go back in time to like les mis and re live everything and maybe change a few things...

LAYER FOUR:YOUR PICK
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonalds or Burger King:mcdonalds
Single or Group Dating:well...being as ive been going out with my boyfriend for a year and a half and we've onle gone on 3 real dates, i really wouldnt know. but i guess it really depends on my mood.
Adidas or Nike: payless!
Lipton Tea or Nestea: i hate iced tea
Chocolate or Vanilla:vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: both are very good

LAYER FIVE:DO YOU?
Smoke:no that is the most disgusting thing ever!
Cuss: im trying to quit
Single:nope! :)
Shower: yup
Have a Crush(es): i do but i havent in a very long time
Think youve been in love: yes
Like my highschool: yes
Want to get married: i've already made the shower invitations, but i havent figured out the party favor thingy yet...i think im in trouble
Believe in yourself:not most of the time, obviously otherwise i would have auditioned for all state which i should have cuz i woulda made it...sure NOW i believe in myself!
Get motion sickness:oh yeah i hate it
Think your attractive:not at all
Think you're a health freak:i dont know i cant handle too many sweets tho, sensitive stomach, and i get sick so i dunno
Get along with ur parents:yeah
Like thunderstorms:yeah, i perfer just rain tho then i can play in it
Play an instrument: bass clarinet

LAYER SIX::IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank Alcohol:no
Gone on a date: yes
Gone to the mall:just today to get a controller for spencer's x box
Eaten an entire box of oreos:no oreos are disgusting i hate them
Eaten sushi:never
Been dumped: no, never actually
gone skating: not in the past month
gone skinny dipping: no...:(
Dyed your hair:never
Stolen anything: no

LAYER SEVEN:HAVE YOU EVER
Played a game that requires removal of clothing: no but i got close once
Been trashed or intoxicated: nope
Been caught "doing something":what does doing something really mean? like what? if it means what i think (ew) then yes. sorry
Been called a tease:nope
Shoplifted: no
Changed who you were to fiit in: yeah, how can you not? espically in junior high

LAYER EIGHT:GETTING OLDER
Age you want to get married:soon!
Number of kids: 2
Describe your dream wedding: all the details? no no theres no time for all of it, lots of flowers, outside, (hopefully he doesnt have allergies, that would suck if he was sneezing the whole time...no im just kiddint i would go inside if he was allergic) pretty, and perfect, yeah i really cant explain it all, i have a whole book about it ill show you later...eheheh
How to you want to die: laughing
What to you want to be with ur an adult: Phelan...cept me but i want his job
What country would u like to visit: mexico, and london! (i know its not a country duh)

LAYER NINE:IN A GAL/GUY
Best eye colour: there really is no best if it all goes well toghter then its best
Best hair colour: as i said before
Short or long hair: well normal guys have short hair, but in this case ive got a long haired boy, and you know what i like it!
Height: hopefully taller than me, thats not a hard requirement to meet
Best first date location: whatever seems nice at the time.
Clothing: not stylish but not stuck in tha past.
Best first kiss location: whereever we happen to be when we want to kiss

LAYER TEN:IN THE NUMBERS
Number of people I can trust with my life: maybe 3?
Number of CD's:more than 50 counting burned cds 100's
Number of peircings:my ears
Tattoos:none
Times my name has been in newspaper:3 or 4
# of scars on body: 5
Things regreted in past: did i mention i have a sensitive stomach? many many things... the most was candycorn and chicken nuggets (that night i barfed 9 times) and hot dogs, and anytime i eat meat and lots and lots of things...i cant possibly remember everything.

Are you in a Solitary Shell?

:: 2004 23 June :: 2.00 am

its 1:00 and i can't sleep im not even tired. Earlier i went to spencers house and watched a bunch of guys play video games all night blah. but first we went to pastabilities and i only ate 1 noddle. i guess i wasnt hungry. then, then i watched them play games, and tickle wender, he had a fuzzy thing on his sock and i just got it off and he freaked out, it was funny and much more entertaining than watching everyone else kill eachother. im wearing spencers purdue sweatshirt, which is weird in many ways, also because he's not even going there anymore. so im sill awake and still bored and theres nothing on tv and im not hungry and no ones on line, maybe ill walk to spencers house and look for his cat. sounds like fun. too bad i'd get busted for curfew cuz i live in libertyville and i still have a curfew...:( okie bye bye for now

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:: 2004 19 June :: 10.08 pm

gah work is no fun, i work from 2-10 and always have to stay until 11 at least, but here's the awesome part the other day one of my managers told me she lost my availability andi need to fill out a new one, so guess what i told her i cant work weekends just cuz i dont feel like it hehee im awesomei know! so now i automatically have every weekend off and next week i work monday 10-5 and thursday 12-5 its so sweet! hehehe! i love it!

so im at my dads house, and my dad left to go see the chicago and earth, wind and fire concert which made me laugh so hard because thats where spencer is right now hahah. maybe they'll see eachother. i almost went cuz my dad was at this party this morning and got all...weird and came home and crashed, but then he didnt and he went...:( oh well. so i dont know what else to say nothing else it going on...is it? guess not.

Are you in a Solitary Shell?

:: 2004 13 June :: 4.37 pm

hmm poopy jill not updating or being on line in a long time. i had lotsa things to say but now...i cant remember,

i did the relay for life the other day, im joining a team next year and spending the night. its crazy insane out there, but everyone is really nice and happy :)

hmm so bennys party and fire party, its 3:30 and my fire is still burning by the way. la de da not much to comment on that burned school papers i still have lots so we'll do it again soon ok?

Are you in a Solitary Shell?

:: 2004 29 May :: 6.10 pm

humpty dumpty sat on a wall...

im so happy with my act score, its 3 points higher than last time, and for those of you that dont know what i got last time, im probably not going to tell you and for that im not going to tell anyone what i got this time either...im just going to say im happy. im going to isu now...with patrice oh yeah. and FRED! i love fred, he's gay, hes also a plant

Are you in a Solitary Shell?

:: 2004 27 May :: 5.34 pm

Once upon a time I was of the mind
To lay your burden down
And leave you where you stood
And you believed I could
You'd seen it done before
I could read your thoughts
Tell you what you saw
And never say a word
Now all that is gone
Over with and done - never to return

I can tell you why
People die alone
I can tell you I'm
A shadow on the sun

Staring at the loss
Looking for a cause
And never really sure
Nothing but a hole
To live without a soul
And nothing to be learned

I can tell you why
People go insane
I can show you how
You could do the same
I can tell you why
The end will never come
I can tell you I'm
A shadow on the sun

Shapes of every size
Move behind my eyes
Doors inside my head
Bolted from within
Every drop of flame
Lights a candle in
Memory of the one
Who lives inside my skin

Are you in a Solitary Shell?

:: 2004 25 May :: 6.39 pm

my dog ate my set model today, i was soooooooo un believebly pissed off, i yelled ate a lot. but dont feel bad for her she was wagging her tail the whole time, she cant tell when im mad at her. i didnt stay mad long either, i still have a while to finish it i guess...yeah so im pretty bored. i am desperate. talk to me anyone! pleaseeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

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