:: 2004 25 May :: 12.16 am

reading journal entries far back in peoples journals are bad, it makes you cry, well me at least. im crying. cuz i read it, ive read it before but this time its so different i fuckin hate it so i am going to die now

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:: 2004 12 May :: 11.50 pm

i didnt go to school today i slept really late, til 3 or 4 ish yeah thats late...im sick again! its so annoying, ive been sick 3 weeks in a row and all 3 different things! it really sucks, i should just die. i think it might have to do with that whole if your sad your more likely to get sick thing. cuz im usually really happy all the time and lately i havent been and yeah ive been getting sick and its crappy and sicky and i wanna die. blah blah blah. but its weird cuz today i went to school first an all and i was ther prolly 3 minutes and i called my mom and went home. i just couldnt take it, i couldnt stop coughing and it was getting gross and i really didnt want to be in class coughing up...things...all day it was really gross, i really didnt wanna just sit there and throw up in my hands but i almost did a couple times, so i went home and slept and im still tired and i wanna go to bed and i dont even feel much better! ahhh its crappy! poop.

yeah so yeah...im almost ready for this dance thing on saturday...i just need to figure a few more things out including my hair style...if anyone finds any pictures or anything good show me! ok? cuz i need help. its so hard for me to tell whats going to look good on me and what isnt. pleh. yeah...

hmm...i need to pay my parents so much money.. first 20 from my phone bill and other stuff now after tonight i owe my mom another 28 dollars! gah its so crappy. and then shes buggin my about getting and job and such and gah! its so frustrating! i know no one is going to hire me...no one hired my this summer whats different now? noting except my age. hmm...gah die die die

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:: 2004 27 April :: 12.15 am

hmm, spencer is actually letting my pay for pictures, which im happy about but i just hope he isn't disappointed. well, obviously im not paying my mom is but anyway, Spencer always insists on getting the biggest package, and my mom isn't shes getting one of the cheaper ones, but honestly i dont know what he does with them anyway, i know he gives them to his parents but yeah i dunno i just hope he's not disappointed in me... :(

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:: 2004 26 April :: 11.44 pm

I wish life werent so hard...people live people die, people hurt and drama never stopps coming to the people who want it least...you know maybe this is all just cuz i joined theatre, there was no drama before then...but at the same time i guess i sorta enjoy the excitment and the roller coaster of feelings.


On a happier note, i didnt cry at all today, but i guess the 3 hours yesterday kinda makes up for that, but who knows the day's not over

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:: 2004 26 April :: 12.48 am

ok i guess im having problems with my other journal, i cant log in cuz my username is too long, but i dunno how i got that username in the firstplace if its too long... gah i dunno i guess im just saying dont expect any updates there, ill write them all here now cuz the other one just sucks. poop.

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:: 2004 23 April :: 11.58 am
:: Mood: hungry

Jillian and Jorian won the name that play contest, yay. we're awesome. but casey sucks cuz he beat us. poop.

so yeah um im bored i kinda dont wanna type for my book but i should since im really far behind and ill forget everything soon but blah i dunno. yea these are my random thoughts... hey whos keeping their jorunal? i dont wanna be the only one that stays here. everyone pay!!! pleaseeeeeeeeeee! i need to read and comment to ppls! yea ok so everyone keep ur journals, cept spencer cuz you just suck and never update anyway but yeah journals are fun. unless ppl say bad stuff then i dont like that. ok im gonna stop now bye bye

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:: 2004 22 April :: 10.55 pm

ok so i obviously have all my entries under private but im considering putting them back on noraml...yea i dunno

so crying, its supposed to make you feel better right? yea i guess it sorta does, in a way. But then afterwards you have a terrible headache, the worst kind of headache ever and then you eyes hurt and theyre all puffy and red and ppl notice and then ask you whats wrong and you just finished crying and forced yourself to get over it and then you explain it all over again and cry all over again and then its jsut crappy. Yeah thats what i was thinking about last night... i dunno. care to add?

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:: 2004 18 April :: 1.39 pm

i paid for my journal today! yay! you should all pay too yeah. its just $2.

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:: 2003 9 August :: 11.04 pm

Parrrrrrrrrrrrrrrty!!! Theres dirt in my belly button!
OMG tonight was so fun. Ill admit i didnt really want to go to Jorie Moores party. Its just that i dont talk to anyone else that was supposed to go except Patrice. and i got an anonomys person strongly hinting that they didnt want me there. But i went anyway! And it was so much fun! OMG it is now a face that i can not habg out with Jorie Moore and NOT get wet? you wanna know the wet story? ooo its the best. Anyway, it started when we were boating and i really didnt get wet then but lotsa other ppl were jumoing in but i didnt as much fun as it looked, i had a phone in my pocket and it wouldnt have survived. Anyway, i jumped on patrices boat then we tried to crash into the boat that Benton was on, but he splashed all of us with the oare. so when we got off the boat we decided we had to get him back. So Yasmin, Patrice and I got ice cold water bottles from the cooler. We walked right up to Benton and poured all three of them on him. Then we ran. We were scared for our lives. Then when it was cake time, Patrice suggested that someone smeared cake all over Bentons face. No one wanted to do it we were all scared already and Patrice was afraid that he would hate her after that. so we got Q to do it with Melissa. They went up behind him and smeared it all in his hair... they missed his face i guess. We stood there for a while got a few evil looks from Benton and his friends then we ran off and we hid in Wisconsin. We were sitting there for a wile then Neil came to find out who did it. We told him it was all Q, and Melissa. Neil said Benton wasn't mad he was just like ah whatever. So we figured we were fine. THen a whole parade of Bentons friends came to Wisconsin. Stunkel came and said that we were so dead he was pissed and he was comming with an army. So of course being the scared pirates that we are, Patrice and i pointed our fingers and Q and Melissa. THen it seemed our 10 seconds of fame were over and he realld didnt care, like Neil said. But when i came up, out of Wisconsin, i discoeverd that someone had just thrown Jackie in the lake. THen Patrice and Melissa came up with me and everyone looked at us. " hmmm what do you think about them?" Jennifer asked Jorie Moore. "I think we should get Jill, she said. Yeah! Lets get them all!" THen before we knew it 3 huge guys came after us. Melissa ran and Patrice screamed but i gave up and i just let them get me. SOme guy picked my up and he carried me around for a while then he threw me in the lake! Yes he threw me in the lake yukky big bear lake!! ewwwwwwwwww! Anywho, then i was pissed but whatever what the hell could i do i was small he was big. SO i walked back and JAckie and i decided that everyone that was dry deserved to be wet. Espically Neil and Nick cuz they were making fun of us for being wet. So we got them with water bottles and NIck came back with bubbles. yup nick threw bubbles on us. So then, i found the guy that threw me in and Jackie and i went after him. With more water bottles of course, so we chased him for a while and then he had friends that came to back him up. Jackie and i complained that we didnt have any friends and started calling for Patrice and Jorie. But they didnt hear us. The he came back, picked Jackie up then i ran after and tried to help Jackie so he put her down and came after me. He threw me in again and when he was done he got Jackie again. But this time it hurt!!! and i got sooooooooo muddy. but ill tell you about that later. So the guy and his friends left and Jackie and I just stood there for a minute. Sortof in shock. Then we started walking and Nick, Benton, Wender, and Chris laughed at us and we threw bubbles on them. So then, we decided we needed to get some friends to help us out. I told that guy that he had to throw PAtrice in too cuz she was making fun of us also. SO then Benton, Wender, Chris and NIck all went after him. BUt no one succeded and Benton mangaed to trip right over him and fall into the lake himself. Then he threw Patrice in and JAckie again. By this time a lot of ppl are pissed at this guy so all these people started chasing him. THen his girlfiriend that doesnt talk said we couldnt throw him in cuz she had to drive him home. She was a bitch. THen that guy was in pain of whatver and we couldnt touch him. He was totally faking it though. so me Jackie and PAtrice all very wet moved on. JAckie got to go home and shower and Patrice and i went to jories and wore some of her clothes yet again. I gotta keep clothes at her house now i always get wet and end up stealing her clothes. THen when i changed it was the most disgusting thing ever, i found dit and mud everywhere! it was so gross!! eeewwwwwww! My underwear waqs black! it was disgusting it got everywhere even my bra! eww it was gross and thats the end of it for now. So it was and interesting end to an interesting day. But hey thats not all of it! Thats not even half of it! but if i manage to tell you the rest my fingers are going to fall off and i like my fingers so bye bye

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