Matt has not found himself favored by the crew, and therefore will not be chosen to take part in crew activities. Sigh, he's one of my best friends, so I was rooting for him. Alas, his shyness got in the way of having fun. It's ok. I'll probably ask him to hang out with us anyway.

If I see him anymore, I'll probably go crazy, or my PRP partner in crime will kill me. It's really not my fault that he lives on the next block. This is just odd...

Laugh, if you must, at my choice of music, but I watched a Gilmore Girls ep that I'd taped, and Sebastian Bach KILLS!

I let Cat hear this song I wrote. I played it on piano and sang, then I tried it guitar, b/c I'm a fruit cup. Apparently it sounds like a political pop-punk song. Gosh darn!

Yesterday L-Sa and I hung out with Matt, to see whether he'd be crew or not. We rented a movie, then walked to my house to watch it. He's so shy that it's kind of funny. Maybe it's b/c he says L-Sa looks "ok" ;) After that, we played Texas Hold'em. Too bad we didn't play for money, b/c I'd have cleaned 'em out.

Went running w/Justin. I forgot my inhaler, and we were running up a pretty steep hill. Asthma overtook me, and I hate being a wimp, but I couldn't get enough air into my lungs. I was all woozy and everything was spinning. Ugh, it sucked so bad.

Nearly 4 hours of recording and all we have to show for it is a few strains of a heavily distorted cover of "Cherry, Cherry" by Neil Diamond. I never got to sing b/c they couldn't mix it right. The hand claps and cymbals were a quarter beat off due to lag time, so that had to be fixed. In the end, what did I contribute to the recording session? A few "the beat's still off"s and a guitar tuner. Next time I'll suggest that we cover an Intro5pect song so I can play keyboard and do gang vox.

If you take the beat out of techno music, it kind of sounds like Enya. *shrugs*

I had one hour of sleep, but I guess it was worth it, even if I do look lit. I'm at work, but nobody has really looked too carefully at my eyes, so it's all good ;)

disillusionment no more... things aren't always what they seem...
SweeTzK333: y'know, i always thought you had it made at mhs
SweeTzK333: like, you were the girl with good grades
SweeTzK333: and you always dressed cool
SweeTzK333: and people actually knew who you were
xxpun kangEL86XX: lol
xxpun kangEL86XX: that's what i thought about liana!
xxpun kangEL86XX: but, i mean
xxpun kangEL86XX: hahaha, i don't know
xxpun kangEL86XX: i never really thought about it that way
xxpun kangEL86XX: but i think you overflattered me
xxpun kangEL86XX: i got good grades
SweeTzK333: i think i did until you actually started talking to me
xxpun kangEL86XX: i dressed decent
SweeTzK333: and then in hawaii, you told me that your eyelids were dry
xxpun kangEL86XX: and people knew who i was 'cuz i would help them with their homework
SweeTzK333: so i was like, "oh, so EVERYONE has skin problems! it's not just me!"
xxpun kangEL86XX: LOL
xxpun kangEL86XX: hahahahahhaha
xxpun kangEL86XX: so then, you're like, oh, she's normal
SweeTzK333: well, yeah
xxpun kangEL86XX: hahaha

xxpun kangEL86XX: hahaha, why don't you think you'll ever be cool?
xxpun kangEL86XX: 'cuz i think you're cool
SweeTzK333: hmm... lemme see... do you remember me from taylor to mills?
SweeTzK333: hideous nerdy chubby girl with awful glasses
SweeTzK333: totally shy
SweeTzK333: which everyone interpreted as "stuck up"
xxpun kangEL86XX: i remember you
xxpun kangEL86XX: but i never met you
SweeTzK333: same here
SweeTzK333: except, i remember this one time after school at taylor
SweeTzK333: where renee and i were waiting to be picked up
SweeTzK333: and you came along, and then renee totally ditched me and pretended she didn't even really know me
xxpun kangEL86XX: no way
SweeTzK333: *shrugs* i wasn't cool, you were the new kid
SweeTzK333: stuff like that happens ;)
xxpun kangEL86XX: you have such vivid memories and for me, everything was a blur
xxpun kangEL86XX: hahaha
SweeTzK333: nah, that was a memory only b/c it hurt
xxpun kangEL86XX: man, i'm so sorry
xxpun kangEL86XX: but i mean, that's something renee totally would've done in middle school
SweeTzK333: it wasn't your fault she was being a jerk
SweeTzK333: i got picked on a lot
SweeTzK333: but that's ok

So I'm in Washington, using my aunt's laptop, and I just registered for classes. 15 units, and hoping to add another class during open reg. Should be another busy, fun-filled semester.

I purchased 5 books at Elliott Bay Bookstore in Seattle. They are all Chuck Palahniuk novels, and they are all AUTOGRAPHED! The only novel not autographed there was Choke, and I already have it, so of course I didn't get it. I nearly died when I saw the rest of 'em. I had a huge grin on my face the whole day. Wait. It's still there ;D

This song is so awful that it's awesome.

I'm leaving for Seattle tomorrow evening. I'll be back on Wednesday. No idea what we're gonna do, but I hope it has something to do with drinking Seattle's Best coffee.

Cole: So I heard all your friends are getting boyfriends. Why are you single?
Kris: Um... b/c I'm a total loser?

Secret of Mana sucks, but it also kills. Louisa and I named our characters Milo and Cactus b/c we're just so cool like that. Riiiight... ;)

2022: russ is like...so dumb
2022: it's not even funny
2022: you should date a nerdy nice guy
333: i don't like nerdy nice guys
2022: but nerdy nice guys are husband material
2022: it's just a fact
2022: nice guys finish last
333: i don't like that
333: i want someone who's a hooligan, but who's also kinda sweet, but manly, not metrosexual
2022: lol
2022: metrosexual is awesome!
2022: it means that he's enough of a girl for both of you
333: oh gross
333: no metrosexuals
333: that's too much woman to handle
2022: haha

you might think i'm trashy, a little too hardcore, but in my neck of the woods, i'm just the girl next door
Louisa alleges that I smell good. Yes, "good" in italics! Whoop!

Mike let me paint his nails black. Sweet! We played DDR + Karaoke Revolution. We both sang Hoobastank's "Crawling in the Dark" (yeah, the songs sucked) and I killed him by about a thousand points. ;)

These past few days have been marked with so much Nina that I thought she would have gotten sick of me by now. Not the case, apparently, as she invited me to shoot hoops with her at MHS. A pre-teen boy threw our ball down the hill. I chased after it while Nina picked a fight with him. Keep in mind that she's 5'3 and less than 100 lbs. I could hear her shouting from the bottom of the hill. *shrugs* We should have just stolen his skateboard.

L-Sa and Nina trapped me in a car with nothing but country music. I think I like it now. Oh my!

your lips taste of poison
We used to be French class buddies. We used to talk about BSB, the only thing we've ever really had in common. *shrugs* Irene's always been way cooler than I, or at least she was "popular", whereas I was the freakish "smart girl" with a chip on her shoulder. After months of silence, we finally contacted each other, and the results are somwhat appalling...

pixiekiss16: what kind of music u into now..
SweeTzK333: same as before... a mix of everything
SweeTzK333: i don't really like all that new music
pixiekiss16: what new music?
SweeTzK333: except the new Bad Religion and Descendents albums have been pretty good
pixiekiss16: i see thats cooooooll.
SweeTzK333: i'm not into Avril Lavigne, Dashboard Confessional, Simple Plan, and all that supposed alterna-punk crap that's on mtv now
pixiekiss16: the dashboard guy is fucking hot
SweeTzK333: i remember i saw him, like, four years ago
SweeTzK333: and my friend fell asleep
pixiekiss16: i see. hes hot. so i dont care

disco + dragons // bagels and bedheads
I love being a hooligan. I love causing trouble. Fortunately, I don't act like it.

I'm through with THAT guy. It wasn't worth it to begin with.

Justin likes John Mayer. He wouldn't let me paint his nails this morning when he was over here. Totally not cool. Vendetta? Yes!

xxpun kangEL86XX: oh. my. goodness.
HYPER GiRL K 333: hmmm?
xxpun kangEL86XX: doug is like, "you know you're the man when a dozen other xangas are doing the survey you just did"
xxpun kangEL86XX: when YOU obviously had posted it WAAAY before him
HYPER GiRL K 333: yeah, i just read that
xxpun kangEL86XX: okay, like, 12 hours
xxpun kangEL86XX: before him
HYPER GiRL K 333: eugenia took it off of mine
HYPER GiRL K 333: so maybe he saw hers?
HYPER GiRL K 333: *shrugs* doesn't matter
HYPER GiRL K 333: i'm not a popularity queen/whore anyway ;)
xxpun kangEL86XX: but SHE gave you credit
xxpun kangEL86XX: it's not popularity queen/whore, it's more like, HE'S WRONG
xxpun kangEL86XX: and DOUG CANNOT THINK THAT HE'S RIGHT ALL THE TIME
HYPER GiRL K 333: *shrugs*
HYPER GiRL K 333: he can't possibly be right all the time
xxpun kangEL86XX: ahhh, but he thinks he is
xxpun kangEL86XX: anyway, i'm a stubborn taurus, what do i know :-P
HYPER GiRL K 333: well, i'm not gonna get all up in his shiz and be like, "hey, yeah i KNOW the feeling. thanx for swiping it from me, even though i stole it from nina." ;)
xxpun kangEL86XX: LOL
xxpun kangEL86XX: that'd shock the shit outtah his pants
HYPER GiRL K 333: it would also make me the super bitch ;)
xxpun kangEL86XX: which would be super funny!

xxpun kangEL86XX: OH MY GOD I NEED THE HANDSOME DEVIL AND THE DELUXE F&G!!!
xxpun kangEL86XX: see, if i get it for Jon, it's like, killing two birds w/ one stone 'cuz i can watch it too... on my laptop ;-)
HYPER GiRL K 333: my goodness... all the obsessions i cause...
xxpun kangEL86XX: it's all your fault!

gonna raise hell
There's a rut, and I'm definitely stuck in it.

Yesterday/this morning was awesome. Too bad Teresa only gets 2 days here and has to go back to Davis tonight. I thought it was gonna be boring b/c we were supposed to bake, but then, with KriTerLou, it's never quite an ordinary day. We baked, went to Max's for the ultimate sugar coma, got called bikers by some dude in a suit, then went back to my place. They decided to sleep over. We didn't sleep much, though, as Cor finally got the Freaks & Geeks season 1 DVD set and I got them hooked. We watched 10 episodes. Seriously. That show should never have been cancelled. It's the funniest, most real portrayal of high school kids. It's true that almost anything that's halfway decent goes on the air, it's cancelled.

Sigh, Teresa won't be back until the end of July, which means KriTerLou won't be in action for a long time. Oh well. It's always fun being dorky with the people I love. ;) I got half an hour of sleep, and I'll be going to work looking like I'm lit. It's the true spirit of the freaks ;)

SFSUCHPFC!!!
HARRY POTTER RULES!!! ...yeah, Cor bought advance tix for me and L-Sa yesterday. We went at the 12:30pm showing at Century 20 in Daly City. It was good - way better than the 2nd movie.

Afterwards, we went to my place. I painted her nails. Why? Well, her boyfriend is coming to 'illbrae on Monday, but apparently he's more girly than us, so we have to make an effort to appear more feminine. Sigh. There is nothing to do in SM County. We should just hang out in Berkeley or SF.

Ugh, JEPET tomorrow. Let's see if I can write well enough to pass the stupid thing...

"If you're gonna throw your life away for a boy, he'd better have a motorcycle!" L-Sa and I agree:
SweeTzK333: *smiles* he's buff ;)
chanlsky2022: omg
chanlsky2022: that reminds me of red dragon
SweeTzK333: but it's a nice tattoo... gotta admit that.. ;)
chanlsky2022: *drools* sweetness
chanlsky2022: dude, he looks so hot, he's so buff!!
SweeTzK333: *grins* unfortunately, he's a huffer...
SweeTzK333: rawr, he has a motorcycle...
chanlsky2022: MOTORCYCLE!
chanlsky2022: there so cool!!
SweeTzK333: gee, i'd make out with him... maybe... just for a ride on his motorcycle...
chanlsky2022: nah, you don't have to make out with him
chanlsky2022: he'll be happy to give you a ride since you'd have to grab onto him during the ride
SweeTzK333: mmm yeah... motorcycle... *drool*
SweeTzK333: motorcycle and buff... too bad he's a crackhead
chanlsky2022: just because he like to shove things up his nose doesn't mean nothing

Now would probably be a good time to puke into my dang gardenburger. Cutesy couples make me sick.

Maybe we really DO belong together. Scary thought.

Jason Kwan rented "Six String Samurai". Cor's never letting Jason pick a movie ever again. Apparently he watched it before. I dunno, though. It was actually pretty hilarious, and I learned that Death melts. Jason Park thought it was funny, too. Maybe Cor just has bad taste ;)

Jason Park's new car = *thumbs up* He drives like a maniac, but hey... niiiice car.

...and on Sunday night, I went out with Cor and Angela, and we realized once again why we always run to SF instead of hanging out in the SM area. It's sad when the bar a couple blocks from your house closes at 9:30pm. Luckily, Mike called, and he was parked outside my house with his new car. Yes, another new Toyota... sigh...

Let the squealing commence. I just checked my grades (b/c y'know that's all I do until they're finally all in) and I got an A in microecon! I was expecting a B+, so that means I must have kicked some serious butt on the final. Squeal. Excited!

I just got back from work, and I have to work again tonight, and this whole weekend. Ok. Now I'm back to my normal, upset little self. ;)

I'm listening to the Disturbing the Peace comp... bay area bands. I've gotta say... I love Voetsek... "estrogen fueled hardcore". Good stuff.

No more throwing people in jail
and leaving them to rot
while the system makes a profit
and quotas met by cops
end the war on drugs
end the war on the people
Walk the plank

they don't know that they don't know but YOU know...
One more week and this will all be over. Thank goodness.

I'm angry. People are ignorant.

*shrugs* You know what's good? I finally found some radio that I like. PunkRadioCast got really lame, but New Disorder radio is my savior. Yep. All the New Disorder bands and the good bands that they distro. It makes me smile. I just heard Pirx the Pilot and American Steel. And I think I really like The Budgets.

Asian? yes, methinks so...
Eugenia ought to know better than to tempt me with surveys by now. Anytime it says "parents" and I made it bold, it refers only to my mother. My dad's ABC (american born chinese) like me + my sis, so he's not as crazy ;)

HOW ASIAN ARE YOU? Bold items that apply.

1. Your mom has a perm
2. Your dad is some sort of engineer.
3. Your parents still tried to get you into places half-price saying you were 12 when you were really 15.
4. You ask your parents help on one math problem and 2 hours later they're still lecturing.
5.You eat rice!
6. You shop 99 ranch.
7. Everyone thinks you're "Chinese" no matter what part of Asia your ancestors were from.
8. You've had a bowl haircut at one point in your life.
9. Your parents enjoy comparing you to their friends' kids.

10. You've had to sit through karaoke videos with scantily clad, ugly Asian women attempting to dance and walk around a temple, forest, or library.
11. Your parents say, "Don't forget your heritage."
12. Your family drives mostly Japanese cars.
13. You've learned to keep bargaining even if the prices are rock bottom.

14. You've had to eat parts of animals they don't even put in hot dogs. but luckily i went vegetarian...
15. At least once, you've started a joke with "Confucius say...."
16. You know what bok choy is.
17. You've gotten little red envelopes around February. oh heck yeah... money, baby!
18. Piles of shoes tend to make it hard to open the front, back, and closet doors.
19. You hear (your name + eee (optional) + yah!) every time someone calls you (e.g. Joy - ee - yah! or Joy - yah!).
20. You have no eyelashes.
21. Idiot people try to impress you with pathetic imitation Asian languages, like the ever-so-popular: ching chong woo bok chi, etc...
22. Your parents say leaving rice in your bowl is a sin.
23. The Bio lectures on marine life (seaweed, sea cucumbers, octopii) was last night's dinner.
24. Your ancestors 1000 generations back invented the back scratcher. not exactly, but my cousin andy came up with this great (fictional) story about how his ancestor invented chopsticks haha
26. Your parents hover over your tired, caffeine-drugged body at 12 midnight to say, "In Korea (or other native country), we studied even more."
27. Your parents expect you'll be best friends with any one off the street in any given area as long as they are Asian.
28. An Asian woman comes on campus and people ask: "Is that your mother?" Well then, "Is it your sister?"
29. Your relatives' houses smell like incense, mothballs or both.

30. Your parents say, "Calculus? I took Calculus in 8th grade!"

31. Everyone thinks you're good at math. that's b/c i am, yo!

32. Your parents' vocabulary is filled with "ai-yahs, and Wah's." mine, too.
33. You like $1.75 movies. only in mexico!
34. You like $1.50 movies even more. only in mexico!
35. Your aunts and uncles bring you back adorable clothing from Asia with fuzzy bunnies, vinyl ducks, and English words that make no sense, in great colors like yellow, pink, magenta, orange, and the ever popular lime green.
36. Your parents insist you marry within your race.

37. You never order chop suey, sweet and sour pork, or any other imitation of oriental food.
38. You either really, really want to go to UCI or really, really want to stay away from it.
39. Your parents have never kissed you.
40. Your parents have never kissed each other. not that i know of...
41. You learned about the birds and the bees from someone other than your parents.
42. "You want a stereo?! When I was your age, I didn't even have shoes!!"
43. People see a bunch of scribbles on a chopstick and ask you to translate.

44. You have to call just about all your parent's friends "Auntie and Uncle."
45. You have 12+ aunts and uncles. see above ;)
46. At expensive restaurants, you order a delicious glass of water for your beverage and NEVER order dessert.
47. Your parents simply cut the green/black part off the bread and say "Eat anyway. It's still good."
48. The vast majority of the people related to you wear glasses.
49. You will most likely be taller than your parents.
50. Your parents have either made you play the piano, the violin, or both.

51. You get nothing if you do well in school, but crapped on if you don't. get out the dang bamboo stick!
52. When going to other people's houses, you always have to bring a gift. be it candy, oranges, or medicine.
53. Your dad still pulls his socks up to his knees, you know, the ones with the blue and pink stripes at the top.
54. Your family owns a tennis racquet, golf clubs, or both.
55. Your family always cheers for the Asian athlete on TV (i.e. Michael Chang.)
56. The furniture in your house never matches the wallpaper, the carpet, the decorations, or any of the rest of the furniture.
57. You have rocks, sticks, leaves, and strange-smelling, unknown substances in your pantry for use as medicine.
58. You own a rice cooker or two. two!
59. You buy soy sauce by the gallon.
60. Your family owns butcher knives bigger than your head.
61. Your parents tell you about how long it took for them to get to school, how horrible the weather was in their native country, and how much they still appreciated going.
62. Your parents buy you clothes and shoes many sizes too big so you can "grow into it" and wear it for years to come.
63. your parents believes in fong swaii ... feng shui..
64. your parents are very conservative and think that tank tops/halters/spaghetti straps shows too much skin. as do i!

65. everytime your parents lecture you, they always make up excuses that relate to everything you've done in the past. yeah, when i was 5, usually.
66. you like JIN
67.when you were little, your parents beat you with sticks and stuff. bamboo sticks, meter sticks, and the hard end of my dad's belts... yep!