word to the weird

I want it to rain. I want it to rain while the sun is shining. And if it doesn't rain, I want it to be the sort of night that's warm enough to go outside in bare feet and sit on the porch and look to the sky. I hope it's not too long until it will be nice.

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2004 30 March :: 6.31pm

I just finished Girl, Interrupted. That was a good book, too. Everything is overwhelming.

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2004 28 March :: 6.26pm

I just finished Diary. What a wonderful book.

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2004 27 March :: 11.57am

It's okay that when she tells me they'll be back by 12:30 I know she's lying. I really don't know when they'll be back. What's the point of me being home if they're not going to be here too?

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2004 27 March :: 11.51am
:: Music: senses fail- handguns and second chances

It's really weird when you dream something then when you wake up you repeat the dream. This morning I woke up and had the exact conversation I did in a dream. Then I guess it was all subconcious. I dreamt my dad was sitting in a chair yelling about how he didn't get any sleep at all last night because the puppies were barking every hour. Then he told me the same thing this morning. They're going to leave again in a few minutes. Again. It's okay because all I want to do today is read. Diary is a really good book.

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2004 24 March :: 4.54pm
:: Music: Slick Shoes- "My Ignorance"

Good song.
Last night as I slept I saw my life slip away.
Then you were next to me.
I couldn't see your face but I knew that it was you.
Giving me a second chance.
I'll never really understand why I cannot comprehend your love and grace.
Why do I take pride in what I can't control.
How can I claim what isn't really mine.
What's the point to my ignorance?
The music that I see.
The colors in the air.
The breath in my lungs tonight.
Why do I fight with you sometimes?
So today I walk down this road again.
I understand now, some of what you said.
Sometimes I lack the strength I need.
But you come through,
every time I fail you're there to pick me up,
when I need it most.
When I've fallen hard you're there no questions asked.
You lift me up when I am down.
Please open my eyes.
Please help me understand.

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2004 24 March :: 4.38pm

Golf practice = okay. We went to the emporium and I got sick of swingin. Jess and I, yes, we are swingers.
I'm going to Schueller's books tonight yippee. I'll find something good hopefully.
Ehhh I'm so tired.

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2004 24 March :: 2.22pm

Okay. . .
So. . .
I guess I'm confused. I'm really really stupid. Just shoot me already.
4 minutes till school is done.

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2004 24 March :: 2.14pm

Fine whatever. Gr.
I was driving back to school today and I saw a stray dog eating a deer.
It was gross. I thought I'd share that.
It was really really gross...

3 bonus cups | will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2004 23 March :: 6.00pm

"If you can make pain a little bit transendent, it means maybe you're suffering it for a reason."
-John Cusack

will that be ALL?

holiday

:: 2004 23 March :: 5.55pm

My puppies should've been named Bonnie & Clyde. I think I will change their names.

2 bonus cups | will that be ALL?