word to the weird

5 bonus cups | will that be ALL?

:: 2003 8 November :: 8.44pm

Awww that's just so fucking sweet.

Aw, yeah, awwww *gag gag gag*

:: 2003 8 November :: 8.27pm

Hey!...

yeah...

Hehe, fun stuff. Don't feel like embellishing right now.

1 bonus cup | will that be ALL?

:: 2003 5 November :: 8.44pm

Phrase of the day: I am excited!
I am. I really am.
After school I went to take my test and I...failed. kidding, I passed. Then I went to the sec. of state and got my license. Went home, and then I picked up Becca and we went out to eat. It was fun. It still doesn't feel like I can actually drive...but I guess. Picking up concert pics tomorrow during 6th hour. I bet they're gonna be awesome. I got so many of everyone crowd-surfing. Yay!
That was the highlight of my day.

6 bonus cups | will that be ALL?

:: 2003 4 November :: 7.18pm

Wow this is crazy. The worst thing that could happen tonight, did. Went to the grocery store, got some food, and went out. My battery was DEAD. D-E-A-D. I couldn't start my car at all. And so I had my mom call my uncle, who came to jump start it. It's good I know what to do, because my mom definitely didn't. haha. So he came and he followed us home but it took such a long time. And I was all tense and worried and stuff, my test is tomorrow and here i am with a car that doesn't work. Mom said if it didn't work, i'd have to take the truck. That's one sure-fire way I'll fail. Oh dear.
Yep well. . .

*Sarah wants some CLAY!!!*

1 bonus cup | will that be ALL?

:: 2003 4 November :: 3.18pm
:: Music: Chevelle- Don't Fake This

Love it love it love it.
I get my license tomorrow. I am excited! Today was really tiring though. It rained so hard. But I love rain. I'm excited about Friday. yayyyy. goin out goin out goin out. yayyy.
I guess I really don't have anything interesting to talk about.

*let's get yogurt!*

:: 2003 3 November :: 9.23pm
:: Music: Cold- Remedy

I don't love how you love, but please don't leave me here alone, I don't feel how you feel, well it's my fault I'm bones...
I don't die how you die, I can't just waste away.
~
I really should learn to trust my gut. I knew this was going to happen. But I kept telling myself things would get better. I've done this before, so I should obviously know this feeling.
And every slow song makes me want to kick something.
And every person I see makes me want to run.
And I cover up all my feelings with different drugs to get away from hurt.
I won't cry because I know he won't be sad.

Feelings are worthless if no one else cares.

~
If it burns I'll keep fueling the same dream
If you fall I'll remember to save game
I don't want your Remedy

I don't fall how you fall
I won't hold on you can't let go
When it's pain I feared
I made you take it slow

:: 2003 2 November :: 8.07pm
:: Music: Trail of Dead

I hate this.
I wish I was anywhere but here. Any possible way I could escape I would. And I can tell every word they say is heartfelt, even the way they shove things back in my face. *sarcasm*

I really love them.

:: 2003 2 November :: 4.04pm

This weekend WAS a complete blast!
Yayayaya. I haven't been on here in a while, feeling a bit deprived.
Friday night I went trick-o-treatin' w/becca. I don't even care that we are too old. We want candy, and they shall supply. Hahaha.
*throws fist in air*
Then went to Casey's and had a very very fun time, then last night I went to Becca's house and we...eh hem...well that's private. But yes, all in all it was a very good time.
I got the Clerks animated uncensored edition on Friday, along with some books I am quite excited about.
Well, I'm off to do my...homework. ugh. I put it off long enough. History!!!!!! BAHHHHHHH!!!!!
ta-ta

:: 2003 30 October :: 4.27pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: [Silverstein]

I am so happy. Last night was nice. Today was alright. My head hurt a lot. I read some stuff, did some work, ate some food. Yeah, all in all it was a normal day. I had a really weird dream last night. Did you know that eating pizza before you go to bed gives you bad dreams? This dream wasn't bad, but it was most certainly odd. It did involve a certain boy being at my house when I got home, wearing a dress and a wig. Do not ask why.
I do not secretly wish he was a woman.
hahaha.
Tomorrow will definitely be a total BLAST. :-)

:: 2003 28 October :: 4.07pm

:-)
I love my friends.
I'm so happy.
~
Do you want a funny example of Murphy's Law?
Okay.
Came home today and I took the puppies out to go *sigh* potty. Dad got this really tall package that was covered with huge trash bags. I set it up against the inside wall of the garage. When I took out the puppies, I guess Oscar felt he had to mark his territory, which was awful, I was so mad. He peed on the bags on the package. GRRR.
I put them in their kennel, then went down to get the mail.
Got a note from the mail-lady, you know, one of those things saying you've got a package on your front porch. On it in pen, it said:
"Oh, and could I have those large bags back please! Thanks"
Yeah. So now what.
hahaha. ahhhhh

1 bonus cup | will that be ALL?

:: 2003 27 October :: 6.41pm

Yay. I'm excited! Things are going great. Actually, this morning wasn't so nice. You know when people fill your head with a lot of crap? And then he calls and says that there's nothing to worry about. And makes me feel better. And happy. And today was such a great day I can't even begin...but I guess I already did. By having this entry. haha. I'm so dumb. I hope tomorrow is as good a day as today. I just felt so nice. And everyone got along today. It's wierd how you can go from on the verge of tears to an ecstatic mood in a matter of...seeing your friends. GAH! Today is GREAT!
*sob*
now I must finally start my homework.
*sob sob*
Oh, and...I did something bad today.
I took my dogs out. It was freezing. I had plans of taking them in...soon. But then he called and I...uh, forgot. Flash to an hour later, and you have chilly dogs. haha. blahhhh. Such awful humor. I know, I know...it wasn't that funny.

:: 2003 26 October :: 4.44pm
:: Music: Modest Mouse- Dirty Fingernails

It feels like it should be much later than it is. It feels like it should be the end of the day already.
Yummmmm pumpkin bread. Yummy.
I want to do something.

:: 2003 26 October :: 9.32am

According to the great time change, I got up at exactly 6:40 this morning. And I have been up ever since.

:: 2003 25 October :: 8.50pm
:: Music: [Smashing Pumpkins]

Come into my life forever
All the hurt you call your own...love is suicide.
~

I had the weirdest feeling all day today. It has contributed to a deeper feeling about...life. All day I had the feeling of deja vu. My aunt and I were walking into the theater and talking about a book she read and about something really out of this world. On the way out of the theater, trying to find her car, I kept having this weird feeling. I passed this car, and I looked inside for some reason, and in the backseat was the EXACT book we were talking about. And right next to that car was my aunts. It's so weird. Coincidence or not, it's still weird. Just weird stuff happened like that all day long.
I was thinking, what if life is all we imagine, just every thought we've ever had put together. And that is our life. I am so out of it, so yeah...today was just plain fun/odd/crazy. And if I say weird again in this entry I will slap myself.
So...now my parents are going to go make me watch some movie with them about a monster that eats people's bones.
Are anyone else's parents weird like this?
Oh no. *SLAP!!!!*
I must go.

:: 2003 25 October :: 5.09pm

I. . .never. . .want. . .to. . .look. . .at. . .food. . .again...
Wahhhh. I feel so sick right now. And it doesn't help that I just say Kill Bill. Ahhhh.
My head hurts.