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2003 24 September :: 4.35pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Cauterize
My heart will break my ribs if I hold this in
I must confess. I hate myself for needing this.
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Yeah. Today has been full of odd events and just plain...weirdness. Indeed. I'm confused about a lot of stuff but also glad I've made some new friends too. I like this. Today was really nice. :-)
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I need you, I bleed you, I would give up breathing for you.
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2003 23 September :: 7.44pm
I'm not so sure if I'm sure of anything anymore.
You sure?
Honest...
Okay, so this week has been off to a pretty good start, excluding the homework and lack of time to do it. Everything else has been fun. I made some twice-baked potatoes today and they looked really good. My partner is so funny! She's from Grand Rapids and her name is Kuresa, she's hilarious. All I feel like doing is falling asleep. There's this cool kid named Josh who rides my bus and another cool kid named Matt. They make me laugh so much. Hm...trying to think of anything else...Went to Grandma's last night for dinner. Yummy. I spilt some pie on my pants. haha. Yeah...well, the pie was good. Um...not much else has happened. Robby, ever heard of Acid Horizons? hahaha. :-P
Yeah, today the power went out too. It was cool and dark and just overall a good rainy-sort-of day. I love it when it rains. Always. Anyway, that's about it for now...
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2003 21 September :: 4.43pm
:: Music: [Radiohead- Exit Music (For A Film)]
Breath keep breathing i can't do this alone
This week will = good/fun/happiness... I WILL MAKE IT! hahaha *evil grin*
Today I bonded with my dad and laughed at the expense of other's egos. It was great fun.
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2003 20 September :: 11.07pm
:: Music: eek a mouse
oh yeah...
Today ended up not so bad. Yeah, I did something stupid about an hour before I left to go 4-wheeling. 4-wheeling is a lot of fun! Especially when you don't crash into anything/anyone. It feels like you're flying. I feel like a loser, maybe because I am one. haha. Then after I got back I left again to go babysit and now I just got home. I just spent the last 5 hours watching Scooby-Doo and playing football. Then I read an I-Spy book. hahaha. And now I'm really tired, and when I left, that kid was wide awake playing computer games. Man, I'm getting old...
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2003 20 September :: 8.17am
:: Mood: tired
Everyone is gone right now. I am never up this early. I really should go back to sleep. My weekend...sigh. Down the drain. :-(
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2003 18 September :: 8.13pm
:: Music: [Cauterize- Choke]
You said I always sang too loud to sing you a love song.
Well I save my soft voice for the things I really mean.
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Today was okay. It seems like it's going by really slow though. I actually did my homework. Did my Trig. homework, I'm failing but I'm not sad about it anymore. So that's okay. I'm kind of sad about something else though. I don't want that kid to leave, he's so nice. :-/ ...
Oh yeah, ahahaha. Lunch today....That was really gross. :-P ehhhhhhhhhh gahhhhhhh.
:-D
Anyway. blah blah blah. Tomorrow is Friday!!!! I think I'm going to bed now...er...soon. ;-)
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2003 17 September :: 9.38pm
...except for the fact that I'm worried about 2 people now.
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2003 17 September :: 9.33pm
:: Music: [Cauterize- Taste of Tears]
Show me where it hurts...
Today was a really good day. I made some...
white chili !!!!!
yum yum yum! And i was just talking to Robby about it. Oh it was so good. So I decided to make it for supper too. haha. :-) And after our half-day Becca and I went with Kevin and Tom and Mitch to Maynard's and it was a lot of fun. We ate all Tom's fries...thank you. hehe. And after that I went back to Becca's and we watched a movie and slept. It was just such a good day. And out of the whole day, I only had 15 minutes of a real class, that consisted of sitting in a room with becca and beans. Which was fun. :-)
I hope tomorrow is a good too.
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2003 16 September :: 10.04pm
:: Music: [Radiohead- No Surprises]
This song fits the moment...
a heart thats full up like a landfill. a job that slowly kills you. bruises that won't heal.
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this is my final fit. my final bellyache. with no alarms and no surprises. no alarms and no surprises. no alarms and no surprises please.
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long story short, i've been on a radiohead kick! haha :-)
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2003 16 September :: 8.56pm
Tuesday:
-Get to skills @ 6:55am
-Go to class
-Make soup, make rice, make bread.
-Get yelled at for something they explained wrong. (Soup for tomorrow=Soup for today...)
-Blah Blah Blah
-Get back to school @ 9:45am
-Go to classes.
-Go to lunch, get dissed with the dessert I bought for them.
-Find out her parents know.
-Find out I'm failing Trig. (BIG FAT F)
-Find that out after I've already stated my life is at a pointless stage anyway, so why not.
-Actually think things through, decide not to do...
-Re-decide w/friend not to do...
...so much...
-Come home @ 3pm
-Start homework
-Give up on trying to catch up with Trig. @ 8pm
-(That was 5 whole hours of Trig HW)
-Mom makes my homework that's due tomorrow (cookies)
-Contemplating relaxing walk.
..to get rid of it..
I'd feel better if it were all gone. I'd feel better if life seemed interesting.
I need something beautiful in my life.
I don't want to feel like some ignorant person, not knowing that life itself is beautiful and blah blah blah, but really, it is boring me to death, and depressing me. Dumped on with everything. Blah
i'm going.
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2003 16 September :: 8.49pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: [Radiohead- Climbing up the walls]
[so Tuck the kids in safe tonight]
and sHHHHHhut the eyes in the cupboard
do not cry out or hit +the panic buttonhit>+ hit the Al Arm
you'll get the
loneliest feeling that...
eitherway you turn, i'll be there
open up your skull i'll be there
climbing up the walls
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2003 15 September :: 8.33pm
Glad that you can forgive. Only hoping as time goes, you can forget.
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2003 15 September :: 1.25pm
Damn. This weekend has been the weirdest one of all. And it has good reason. But...I might add, I am feeling a bit odd. Well, I am sick, but other than that...A few feelings that are mixed among the choices that I've made.
And people that I've reconsidered. But all in good fun it was. These yogurt poptarts are good.
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2003 15 September :: 1.22pm
:: Music: [Radiohead- OK COMPUTER]
please could you stop the noise im tryin a get some REST?
from all the unbornchikkenVoicesin my head?
huh whats's that??
when i am king you will be first against the wall
with your opinions which are of no consequence at all
huh whats's that??
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaambition makes you look very ugly
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2003 13 September :: 9.26am
Yeah...so, last night was fun. I'm suffering the repercussions now though. Blah. And I cannot believe I got up early today, what is with that??? haha. I don't think I even slept last night, just sort of layed there. Today is homecoming. sigh. blah. but i think it'll be fun. gotta call jeff. haha.
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