Survey
01. Full name: Casey Noelle Schwind the FIRST.
02. Birthday: 6-7-89
03. Birth state: Jersey
04. Birth town: I don't know.
05. Hospital: I think I was a bathtub baby.
06. Age: 15
07. Sex: Female
08. Six words to describe you: complicated, optimistic, bored, daring, outgoing, crazy.
09. Weight at birth: 7 lbs 1 oz... I was a pimp baby.
10. Weight now: 136
11. Time of birth: 7:01 PM.
12. Height: In between 5' 8" and 5' 9"
13. Eye color: Brown
14. Tan/pale/black/mixed: paleish... I get an insane farmer's tan in the summer.
15. Race: Um. black? hahah I don't know.. white? yellow? WHITE.
16. Heritage: German I think..
17. Hair color: brown/red.
19. Kind of hair: stick ass straight.
20. Hair length: shoulders... maybe a tiny bit less. It's growing out.
21. Shoe size: 10-11
22. Shirt size: well... small, medium, 8, or 10.
23. Bra size: 32 B...?
24. Piercings: 7 in the ears.
25. Tattoos: none yet.
26. School: homeschooled.
27. Grade school: Blairstown Elementary and Hope Elementary
28. Class of: I don't have "class" grades.
29. Sports played now: bull riding, calf roping.
30. played in the past: T-Ball! hahah...
31. pets: 6 dogs, 3 cats, 3 huge tanks of fishies/starfish, 2 bearded dragons, 10 horses, soon to be 11 or 12, 6 monster geese, like... 100 or so chickens/roosters, 6 guinea hens, a bull, 2 bunnies, and... there's probably others.
01. Parents names: Marti... mom.
02. Color hair your mother has: light brownish.
03. Color hair your father has: i don't remember.
02. Parent's occupations: my mom works in Labor and Delivery in the Morristown Hospital
03. Kind of car you have: 1996 Dodge Ram... royal blue.
04. Sibling age/names: Trevor = 16, Bridget = 34, Brad = 29 ... stepbrothers Matt = 18, Erik = 23.
05. Live with: Mom, stepdad, brother, step brother.
06. How many rooms in your house: four.
07. Color theme of your room: tan and blue.
08. Color of carpet: black and tan..?
09. Room size: very small. it used to be an office. if you can imagine.
10. Bed size: twin?
11. sheets: dark blue, plaid blanket.
12. How many pillows: two.
13. Furniture in your room: desk, book case without books, dresser, mini dresser.
14. Kind of computer: my stepdad made it.
15. Money in bank account: 64 dollars. lol that's cause I bought 3 horses with my own cash. I used to have over 10 grand.
16. Posters in room: just notes and letters on my wall, pictures.. lots of pictures. newspaper articles.

01. Ask or answer questions? answer.
02. Bathe in the morning or at night? both? preferably night.
03. converse or participate in awkward silence? talk..
04. Talk or listen? listen.
05. Dress up or dress down? dress down...
06. Stay up late or get to bed early? middle.
07. Get what you want or get what you deserve? deserve.
08. Get attention or give your attention? give... I hate attention.
10. Give a hand or give hand outs? give a hand. its more useful.
11. Listen to music or watch TV? always music. always always.
12. Win or lose? win fo sho..
13. Plan or follow-through? follow through.
14. Smile or cry? smile!
15. Get up early enough to see the sunrise? all the time. I take pictures of the sunrise at least twice a week.
16. Use books or Internet for research? INTERNET, FOOL.
17. Sing it or hum it? sing.
18. Style your hair or just whatever? whatever.
19. Call or get called? call.
20. Visit or have people over? have people over.
21. Eat or skip breakfast? skip.
22. Make a meal or go out for one? depends?
23. Drive or get driven? drive.
24. Do what you had planned? sure.
25. Attend or skip class/work? attend... get it over with.
26. Act like yourself or act appropriately? myself.
27. Laugh or get laughed at? laugh.
28. Indulge or abstain? abstain.
29. Help others or help yourself? others.
30. Eat what's good for you or eat what tastes good? tastes good!
31. Turn it up or just get closer? turn it up!
32. Start it or finish it? finish it.
33. Stay bored or get things done? depends i guess.
34. Apologize or be stubborn? i'm so rediculously stubborn.
35. Tell them you have a crush on them or hope they figure it out? tell them.
36. Pay for yourself or get paid for? pay for yourself.
37. Lean in first or wait for them to make a move? wait.
38. Get rejected or never ask? rejection is life!
39. Hope it happens or make it happen? make it happen.
40. Try your hardest or hard enough? try your hardest.
41. Work it out or put up with what you got? work it out.
42. Talk it through or ignore it as much as you can? depends.
43. Know or think? sometimes it's better to know.
44. Trust or suspect?: trust, fo shiz.

01. Are You Straight or Gay? straight?
02. Ever been kissed? yeah.
05. Held hands? yeah.
06. Hugged someone? yes...
31. Can you relate anything to sex? I do it all the time.
32. Is there someone you're longing to be with right now? josh.
07. Said "I hope you die" to someone: lol, my computer.
08. Tried to kill yourself: you're dumb.
09. Gotten in a fist fight: yeah
10. Lied to your parents: yeah
11. Broken a bone: my left foot got crushed... lol... and... thats it.
12. Lied to your friends: probably.
13. Bit someone: omfg... ask anyone. lol. i'm sure all of my friends have felt my wrath at some time or another.
14. Bungee jumped: no! never!
15. Been skydiving: no! never.
16. Gotten drunk: bbbbbbbbbbbbwahhahah yeah.
17. Gotten totally wasted: refer to the above.
18. Given someone a bruise: yes.
19. Skinny-dipped: yes.
20. Driven illegally: more so when i was younger.
21. Ditched someone: probably..
22. Freak danced: hahahah probably.
23. Shoplifted: yeah.

25. Skipped school: yeah
26. Hung up on someone: yeah.
27. Gone commando: yeah ... for those extra low jeans. hah
28. Thrown up at school: i've always wanted to, cause it seems like everyone has at one point... i never did.
29. Made yourself throw up: yeah
30. Flashed someone: girls gone wild.
31. Done anything sexual with/for opposite sex for beads: no.
32. Had a burping contest: yeah all the time. hahah....
33. Snuck out: yeah
34. Been to a school dance: totally.
35. Thought your teacher was hot: hashway. ross.
36. Had an eating disorder: not.. no.
39. Had cyber sex: lol, no.
41. Had surgery: never.
42. Seen a therapist: ROBERTA R. FALLIG. lmfao...
43. Farted loud and people heard: i'm sure..
44. Burped louder than a guy: yes, a lot.
45. Done a split: never... I want to be able to, though.
46. Been on a cheerleading team: for 3 months.
47. Played spin the bottle: yes
48: Grinded: LOL!


THE PAST
01. Any good memories from this year? meeting joshh...
02. Any bad memories from this year? ugh yes.
03. Do you regret anything from this year? oh for sure.
04. Do you regret anything you've ever done? duh.
05. Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? uh... chris schneider? shut up.
06. Did you ever had braces? yeah in 3rd grade.
07. What is your best childhood memory? i don't know.
08. Do you have the same friends you did when you were 10 and under? yar.
09. What was your favorite childhood toy? DUCKHUNT!
10. What was your favorite cartoon when you were four? I didn't watch TV much.
11. What was your favorite movie as a child? I don't remember.
12. Did you ever suck your thumb? no.
13. What color hair did you have as a kid? bright blonde.
14. What was your first word? i don't know.
15. How did your parents name you? after a dude in a movie. CASEY.
16. What does your name mean? it means I'm a lesbian. hahaha...

THE PRESENT
01. Current Song: Senses Fail - Angela Baker, blah blah
02. Current CD in player: senses fail - let it enfold you, the used - the used, and coheed and cambria - second stage turbine blade
03. Current conversations: none.
04. Current time: 10:54 AM.
05. Current clothes: plaid PJ pants, gray tank top, flannel shirt
06. Current hair: messy pony tail
07. Current taste: morning.
08. Current mood: tired.
09. Current smell: french toast?
10. Current thing you should be doing: class.
11. Current desktop picture: a collage i made of me and Josh.
12. Current favorite group: coheed and cambria, as always.
13. Current book: none.
14. Current refreshment: none. im chillin.
15. Current worry: that my mom's going to come up and be like GET STARTED WITH CLASS.
16. Current crush: joshua belverio. <3 ... hahah.

I got a paper cut before.

Doesn't sound that bad, does it?

How about...

I got a fucking CARDBOARD paper cut UNDER MY FINGER NAIL and it BLED like CRAZY?

yeah, ow.

You're more than a lover. There could never be another to make me feel the way you do. And oh, we just get closer. I fall in love all over every time I look at you. <3

If I could have anything right now, I'd have Josh here, kissing me, telling me how everythings going to be okay. Because when he says it, it almost seems real. I'd do anything to be laying with him, my arms around him, my face burried in his chest and his warm breath on my neck. I. Would. Do. Anything. I miss him so much... I miss seeing his happy smile and I miss him and his perfectly timed hugs. I miss just hearing his voice and having him around.

Come over on Friday, okay?
Y

I needed to sleep last night, but I didn't. I did ladders for an hour and then slept. 10 push ups. 10 crunches. 9 push ups. 9 crunches. 8 push ups. 8 crunches. 7 push ups. Eccetera. And back up. Then back down. Then back up. Blah blah blah blah BLAH. I watched the Tom Green show last night and that made me kinda happy. It's 37 degrees out and I'm not outside, and I should be. It's kind of sad to think that 37 degrees is now warm. If we had eighty degree weather right now, we'd all die. What a pleasant thought.

I hate how I fall for people that I can't have.
I hate how sometimes I fall for more than one person.
I hate how I feel like I'm falling for people I don't even know that well.

FUCKING.
I just realized something.
I just... can't say it on here.
But if you want to know, IM me and I'll tell you if you're worthy.
Fucking jesus.
That's a long time.
Maybe this shit IS working.

Seven things in your room:
1. stuffed animals
2. picture frames on my wall with pics of me bull riding
3. ribbons
4. trophies
5. a tv
6. this computer
7. a rocking horse. heh.

Seven things to do before death:
1. get my PRCA card
2. teach kids to ride bulls
3. get on Gatorback (sexy bull)
4. get on Dean Drake's Catfish
5. loose weight
6. make up a dance
7. stop smoking

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
1. sense of humor
2. originality
3. bouncy and talkative
4. gutsy.. willing to take risks.
5. guys that don't do drugs?
6. independant guys, able to take care of themselves.
7. loyal and caring

Top seven things you say most:
1. "fuck."
2. "fucking fuck."
3. "dude."
4. "ohmygod."
5. "for real."
6. "are you serrrrrious?"
7. "HAHAHA! hm."


Do You:
Smoke?: occasionally.
Do drugs?: not at all.
Read the newspaper?: yeah. I'm not a fag.
Pray?: occasionally.
Been in love?: yeah.
Gone skinny dipping?: yeah.. a lot.
Had a medical emergency?: yeah uhm. yeah.
Had surgery?: never.
Swam in the dark? a lot... it scares me though.
Been to a Bonfire: yeah.
Got Drunk: um, yeah.
Ran away from home?: twice? the one was just for a few hours, the other was for 3 weeks. except the 3 week one, my mom knew where i was and knew i was safe for the most part.
Played strip poker?: I can't play poker period.
Gotten beaten up?: badly? once.
Beaten someone up?: yeah, badly? twice. I've got major bull riding arm muscles, don't fuck with me.
Been on stage?: yeah... I act.
Slept outdoors?: yes. great fun.
Pulled an all nighter?: once... went to Dorney Park the next day and like ... died.
If yes, what is your record?: 1.
Made out with a stranger?: yeah.
Been on radio/tv?: radio for singing when i was younger, and tv for driving my horses...
Been in a mosh-pit?: um. if the less than jake "mosh pit" counts.
Been to a party: yeaw.
Gotten lost in the woods: OMG YES.
Been in an Undertow: uh yeah. scarey shit. i'm scared of the ocean now. i will never go.
Smoked a Cigar: no...
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: ha... my bestest buddy is bisexual and I love him with all my heart... my other good friend is a lesbian... yeah it's like one big half-circle of homos. i love it.

About You
Three words that sum you up: outgoing, daring, stupid.
Wallet: non-existant. that's what pockets are for.
Coffee: milk and one sugar
Shoes: fuckin... 11. sometimes 10.
Cologne/Perfume: anything berry I love.
Clothing you have on: light light light almost white.. really kinda tight pacsun jeans... and...a green cammi spighetti strap thingy... a black zip up hoodie... and... ha my cherry thong that I love.. and just.. a black bra.

In the last 24 Hours have you....:
Cried: erg yes.
Bought something: yes, this bracelet. ::jingles it in your face::
Gotten sick: as in puked? yes. wait no. that was 2 days ago.
Sang: yeah.
Been kissed: yeah.
Felt stupid: yeah. when i got the truck stuck today.
Wanted to tell someone you love them, but didnt: yeah.
Talked to an ex: ...yes.
Talked to someone you have a crush on: yes. =X
Had a serious talk: yeah about me getting homeschooled.
Missed someone: yes, my baby. =[ Joshuaaaa....
Hugged someone: yeah... Mike Melina... wow.
Argued with a parent(s): yes, about homeschooling.

Social Life:
Boyfriend/girlfriend: not recently.
Car you drive: 1999 Dodge Ram truck
Would you rather be with friends or on a date: depends.
Job: Village Saddlery in Hackettstown
Attend church: yeah... Walnut Valley Methodist
Like being around people: not a lot.

Last :
Thing you ate: bread
Thing you drank: diet lemon coke
Place you went: Village Saddlery
Person you kissed: mike
Person you hugged: mike
Person you talked to: Josh
Person you IMed: Jill
Song you heard: Senses Fail - Lady In A Blue Dress

Currents:
Current Mood: drained
Current Taste: garlic. gross.
Current Hair: um. up and messy.
Current DVD In Player: 8 seconds
Current Refreshment: um. hi.
Current Worry: my shoulder hurts and it's worrying me.
Miscellaneous: give me a backrub now.
Are you artistic: slightly.
Are you athletic: ...say hi to the bullrider.
Are you a brat: no, gross. i hate bitchy, spoiled brats.
Do you like spiders: eh. don't particularly mind them.
Can you do anything freakish with your body?: If i was a lesbian, I would give a girl their biggest orgasm cause I can do crazy shit with my tongue. ...but i'm not, so screw that. ha.
What are you listening to: Brand New
If you could be anywhere, where would you be?: in my bed.
Makeup or natural look: both... more times makeup.