OH. MY. FUCKING. JESUS. I love Brandon so much that... I can't even fucking talk. I'm so fucking in love (GASP YES I JUST SAID IN LOVE) with him that it's not even funny. I never knew... the feeling... of your heart skipping a beat until him. I never knew the feeling of someone totally and completely understanding you and being there for you until him. I never have EVER been this crazy about ANYONE or ANYTHING until Brandon, and I've never ever EVER felt this way about anyone... ever... until him. I love how he tries to understand everything and I love how he actually.. just.. listens to me when I get emo and blab and... OMFG... I love everything about him so much and I'm so fucking happy. I've haven't been this happy since... I don't know when. I don't even know if I've EVER been this happy. I just... love him... so much... and I am so fucking happy to have somone that cares about me and loves me and doesn't care if I'm a fuckup and... shit. I love you so fucking much, and even though sometimes I contemplate myself and us and... everything... don't ever think that I don't love you because I've always been like this, and I'm so fucking in love with you it's not even funny. Thank you so much for everything you do to me, the littlest things you say make my day and... fuck.. I love you.

AAAHAHA! Courtacy of Rduck photos... it made me laugh so hard. Ohh I miss that kid a lot...

I ...

don't feel good.

My head hurts and things are suckular.
I don't want to go to school tomorrow, anything but that.
Anything.

I'll teach you what it's like to feel so used.

just the scent of you tonight.. can make me sick.

Survey

Ten random things about me.

10) Ketchup makes me nervous
9) when I was little, I used to chew on my hair
8) I don't like regular soda, but I'll drink it
7) starting in March, I have horse shows almost every saturday and sunday until October. (Except august which only has like 2 shows)
6) Farting is fun
5) I have a horrible habit of biting my nails
4) I will never own a car. Always trucks.
3) I like it when I stand next to short people
2) I haven't had a nosebleed since I was 10
1) I never want to hear the word "boyfriend" again. I hate boys.

Nine ways to win my heart.

9) Make fun of me
8) Be serious when you make fun of me, don't be all apologetic afterwards.
7) wear deodorant?
6) Suprise me a lot
5) Kiss me on the forehead
4) make me laugh by being yourself and being dumb.
3) burp and fart, cause only real men do it in front of their girlfriends.
2) be lazy... fall asleep with me.
1) Go for walks in the rain with me.

Eight things I want to do before I die.

8) get my PBR permit
7) get my PRCA permit
6) do something in a talent show
5) compete at the NFR
4) get married
3) kiss someone in the rain... hott.
2) sled off my roof
1) go to south america to see a brazillian rodeo

Seven things that annoy me.

7) People that talk like "u" and "o i c" and "w/e" and "b/c" because that makes me so mad.
6) when someone you love changes to something you never thought they were.
5) When cheese gets hard in the fridge and like.. goes bad.
4) THE PRICE OF BULL RIDING CHAPS.
3) Bitches at horse shows who have the ugliest fucking horses ever and they think they're hott shit and they wear like a ton of makeup.
2) yeah... Getting up for school at 6:30. it's so rediculous. Still dark out? Whatever! Who does that?
1) Drama queens. Loud... drama queens.

Six things I love to do.

6) ride my horses
5) bull ride
4) practicing bull fighting cause its just.. fun.
3) skateboarding
2) talking to my friends
1) driving the trucks

Five things I'm afraid of.

5) crabs
4) jellyfish
3) horseshoe crabs
2) fish
1) the ocean, period.

Four of my favorite things.

4) my horses
3) my bull
2) josh (belverio)
1) sweatshirts

Three things I do everyday.

3) barns (stall cleaning, water buckets, feeding, turnout/in, hay)
2) brush my teeth?
1) talk on the phone

Two things I want to do right now.

2) sleep
1) talk to Brandon

One person I want to see right now.

1) no one... I'm not in a ... social mood. But if I had to pick, probably Brandon cause he'd turn me hyper really quick.

BRIELLE JANINE PAGANO

It's kinda cute how I pretend to be everything but the instrument I am...

Yeah and you know what kinda makes me giggle? You don't even know what you're doing to me. And it fucking pisses me off. But I have to laugh, considering we just talked about it less than a week ago. Step all over me, love. Cause this is getting fucking dirty.

Today was probably the best day I've had in so long and it was purely because of the weather. ..ha.

I don't want to go to school tomorrow.

I didn't give my mom her letter yet.

What would happen if you drank straight alcohol? Like.. rubbing alcohol?

My phone is being straight.