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2004 15 November :: 10.49 am
my teacher took this of me during class.
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2004 15 November :: 10.22 am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: [Sugarcult]
can anyone predict what's going to happen here? xD
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2004 14 November :: 9.08 pm
read it all and you get a cookie.
l CaughT FlRE: not... to be rude
Auto response from abstract barbe: i hope you had the time of your life...
l CaughT FlRE: but... in what way are you so "different" from everyone else?
l CaughT FlRE: i mean, you're very persistant on the fact that you're "different"
l CaughT FlRE: what makes you... different? from.. most 13 year old girls?
l CaughT FlRE: eh...
abstract barbe: why do you care?
abstract barbe: oh i can give you reasons
l CaughT FlRE: i'm just curious
l CaughT FlRE: you constantly say how different you are from.. whoever you're comparing yourself too
l CaughT FlRE: and it caught my interest.
abstract barbe: ohkay, i don't only think of myself.. i speak my mind... i don't give a damn of what others think of me and there is more but i realize that you have a tad sarcaum in your comments here
abstract barbe: sarcasum*
l CaughT FlRE: sarcasm.
abstract barbe: whatever, it starts with an "s"
l CaughT FlRE: so what you're saying is, you're... different... from the steriotypical hottie with a body stick up the ass bitch whore?
l CaughT FlRE: which takes up about 20% of the grade you're in?
abstract barbe: no everyone
l CaughT FlRE: you'd be suprised how many people really don't give a fuck.
abstract barbe: actually probably 85%
l CaughT FlRE: i mean... everyone cares what other people think.
abstract barbe: um ohkay that's only one thing... but i really don't have the time, or want to get in this discussion
abstract barbe: not me
abstract barbe: i don't care at all
abstract barbe: not anymore
l CaughT FlRE: you wouldn't walk to school with peanut butter smeared on your lips like lucious peanutty lipstick and suck someones cock on the auditorium stage.
abstract barbe: no because i'm not a whore
abstract barbe: i am myself.
l CaughT FlRE: why don't you want to get in the discussion? it's not a bad discussion.
abstract barbe: even if people hate it
l CaughT FlRE: why would people hate someone being themselves?
abstract barbe: yeah it is... but, you can keep going on
abstract barbe: no that's not what i ment
l CaughT FlRE: why is this a bad conversation?
l CaughT FlRE: that's not what you meant?
l CaughT FlRE: but its what you said.
l CaughT FlRE: ...
abstract barbe: no it's not
abstract barbe: i said, i am myself
abstract barbe: no matter what anyone says or thinks.. i won't change because of them
l CaughT FlRE: we're talking about two different statements, i see.
abstract barbe: there's a little tid-bit
abstract barbe: what are you talking about then
abstract barbe: ?
l CaughT FlRE: well... that's a good stance of charachter on your part.
abstract barbe: i would really like to know
l CaughT FlRE: but... i just wanted to know how you're so different from everyone else.
abstract barbe: and i gave you a sample of why
l CaughT FlRE: so? you are yourself. ... that's not... a rarity.
abstract barbe: i have other "characteristics" which makes me different, but i only gave you some.
l CaughT FlRE: abstract barbe: i am myself.
l CaughT FlRE: why don't you want to get in the discussion? it's not a bad discussion.
abstract barbe: even if people hate it
l CaughT FlRE: why would people hate someone being themselves?
abstract barbe: yeah it is... but, you can keep going on
abstract barbe: no that's not what i ment
l CaughT FlRE: that's not what you meant?
l CaughT FlRE: but its what you said.
l CaughT FlRE: that's what i was talking about. now that we're all satisfied, continue.
abstract barbe: what?
l CaughT FlRE: i layed it out black and white for you, kiddo.
abstract barbe: what are you talking about, you still havent answered my question on what statement you were looking at
l CaughT FlRE: i can't do it any better then that..
l CaughT FlRE: I JUST DID
l CaughT FlRE: holy fucking lord
l CaughT FlRE: look at the large letters, taylor.
l CaughT FlRE: that.
l CaughT FlRE: is.
abstract barbe: not exaclty
l CaughT FlRE: what i was talking about.
l CaughT FlRE: yes love, that IS what i was talking about.
abstract barbe: what did i say.. ? that's what i've been asking you
l CaughT FlRE: you said:
l CaughT FlRE: abstract barbe: i am myself.
abstract barbe: yeah
l CaughT FlRE: then i said
abstract barbe: i gave you a breif description on why i said that...
l CaughT FlRE: jesus i feel like i'm explaining this to a 2nd grader
abstract barbe: you took it the wronge way
l CaughT FlRE: anyways, i said:
l CaughT FlRE: i know. it was just a simple mix up. that happens online. big whoop. why must i explain?
abstract barbe: oh
abstract barbe: ohkay*
abstract barbe: i can be a 2nd grader to you.
l CaughT FlRE: i see that
abstract barbe: no you don't
l CaughT FlRE: but you haven't... answered my question
l CaughT FlRE: why are you avoiding me?
abstract barbe: .. how the hell could i do that?
l CaughT FlRE: you know, i think this would be a whole lot easier over the phone. my fingers are getting tired and i'm tired of repeating myself.
l CaughT FlRE: give me a call
l CaughT FlRE: 908 797 2825
abstract barbe: no i think this is over now
l CaughT FlRE: ...are you afraid of me?
l CaughT FlRE: o_0
abstract barbe: i'm done with talking and trying to explain myself to you
abstract barbe: every single time
abstract barbe: no i am not
l CaughT FlRE: you're not explaining yourself
l CaughT FlRE: you're explaining your actions
abstract barbe: to me, i am .... to you, i'm not
abstract barbe: ohkay? ohkay
l CaughT FlRE: for some reason, i just don't see you any differnt than your steriotypical 13 year old
l CaughT FlRE: 14 year old
l CaughT FlRE: whatever, however old you are.
abstract barbe: ohkay.. you can think that
abstract barbe: it won't matter
l CaughT FlRE: why won't you answer me though?
l CaughT FlRE: i don't understand it
abstract barbe: i did
abstract barbe: once again.....
l CaughT FlRE: all i asked was why you're different. and you said because you're yourself.
l CaughT FlRE: .... that's not being different.
abstract barbe: i do not care what you think of me, that's my answer. plain and fucking simple.
l CaughT FlRE: ... i don't care what people think of me.
l CaughT FlRE: i'm... not all that different.
abstract barbe: no i didn't only say that
abstract barbe: ohkay that's great for you!
l CaughT FlRE: so why do you get the benifit of being called "different" when... you're... just being yourself?
l CaughT FlRE: i want to be called something fancy like that.
l CaughT FlRE: i want people to join the fucking "Different" club
abstract barbe: that's not the only reason, i told that to you a billion times it seems like.
l CaughT FlRE: i know, and i asked you to explain in more depth
abstract barbe: hold on let me quote you.. "jesus i feel like i'm explaining this to a 2nd grader"
l CaughT FlRE: you could have given me 10 more reasons by now
l CaughT FlRE: but instead you beat around the bush
l CaughT FlRE: why? why do you do that?
abstract barbe: no i said i am not giving it because you have a sarcastic tone.. i told you that from the beguinning
l CaughT FlRE: we've been talking for about 10 minutes. you could have given me numerous answers
l CaughT FlRE: taylor
l CaughT FlRE: i'm not being sarcastic
l CaughT FlRE: i honestly.. want to know
abstract barbe: because i guess, i like to beat that damn bush
l CaughT FlRE: or because you're avoiding the initial question?
abstract barbe: i think i'll beat that damn bush now... or stroll around it.
abstract barbe: right now... yes i am!
l CaughT FlRE: why do you get so defensive around me?
abstract barbe: it's just how i am now
abstract barbe: i used to be someone you could push around
abstract barbe: not anymore
l CaughT FlRE: why don't you just give me a call, taylor. it's so much easier. that way i don't have to worry about you avoiding my questions.
l CaughT FlRE: taylor, you've always been like this.
l CaughT FlRE: just call me.
l CaughT FlRE: 908 797 2825
abstract barbe: no i havent actually
abstract barbe: no. it's over casey
abstract barbe: i'm not calling you
abstract barbe: sorry, but no
l CaughT FlRE: it was over 10 minutes ago according to you.
l CaughT FlRE: but you continue talking
l CaughT FlRE: i think you just are afraid to speak to me in person.
abstract barbe: yeah i do, and yes i said that
abstract barbe: but also..
abstract barbe: you said that i keep saying the same thing over
l CaughT FlRE: but taylor
l CaughT FlRE: i could get a straight answer from you if i speak to you in person
abstract barbe: and that's because, too me.. it was over 10 minutes ago
l CaughT FlRE: so why not just speak to me for a minute?
l CaughT FlRE: why is it an issue?
abstract barbe: sorry.. i want to skip around that damn bush once again!!!
abstract barbe: GLEE* THIS IS FUN
l CaughT FlRE: it's strange... i talk to you online and you act all... defensive and you always have a slick remark. but when i talk to you in person, you hover and get nervous and don't talk.
l CaughT FlRE: is it because you can't stand up to me?
l CaughT FlRE: or... what's the deal?
abstract barbe: because that was before
abstract barbe: i'm not the same
l CaughT FlRE: taylor it was a 2 weeks ago.
l CaughT FlRE: 2 weeks and 3 days
abstract barbe: no oh i can buit this is so dumb, you did the same thing to me last year about chuck
l CaughT FlRE: "a 2 weeks ago" ... ha.
abstract barbe: i just don't care anymore.
l CaughT FlRE: ... so why don't you?
l CaughT FlRE: stand up to me, that is.
abstract barbe: ^look up there
abstract barbe: i don
l CaughT FlRE: all you're showing me are cowardly acts right now.
abstract barbe: i don't care anymore
abstract barbe: ohkay, you can think that
l CaughT FlRE: i said
l CaughT FlRE: l CaughT FlRE: ... so why don't you?
l CaughT FlRE: stand up to me, that is.
l CaughT FlRE: :sigh
abstract barbe: ...
l CaughT FlRE: why don't you stand up to me?
l CaughT FlRE: if you can.
l CaughT FlRE: you say you can.
l CaughT FlRE: why don't you?
abstract barbe: yeah i sighed too, you know.. runnig around that bush
abstract barbe: because once again.. it's dumb... d. u.m.b.
abstract barbe: and i don't want to get in a fight
l CaughT FlRE: i love how you change the subject, or, as i stated it earlier, beat around the bush, when you don't have an answer, don't want to answer.
l CaughT FlRE: fucking christ.
l CaughT FlRE: taylor.
l CaughT FlRE: life. is dumb.
l CaughT FlRE: life is fucking dumb.
l CaughT FlRE: you're going to have to learn to deal with itl
abstract barbe: oh yeah i know it is
abstract barbe: nothing new
l CaughT FlRE: not everythings going to be perfect for you
abstract barbe: oh you don't think i know that?!! HAHA that's so funny
l CaughT FlRE: why is it funny?
l CaughT FlRE: i'm.. not laughing.
abstract barbe: because you said, not everythings going to be perfect for you.. and i think it is sad because you think i think everything is going to be perfect
abstract barbe: really funny.
abstract barbe: amazingly funny.
abstract barbe: see thats what i don't like about you.. you think you know everything about everyone, but you don't.
l CaughT FlRE: if you think everythings perfect, stop complaining that its "dumb"
l CaughT FlRE: and answer.,
abstract barbe: i don't think everything is perfect!
abstract barbe: are you a second grader too?! wow.
abstract barbe: just let it go, and move on with your life please.
abstract barbe: buh bye
abstract barbe signed off at 9:06:40 PM.
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2004 14 November :: 6.29 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: [A Perfect Circle]
Your like an angel. You pocess love and bring love
to any thing or person. You love being
yourself. Even though your cute or not. I think
your just awesome. Like you are peace:)
What Type Of Girl Are You???(Amazing Pics)
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2004 13 November :: 10.34 pm
:: Mood: apathetic
:: Music: [MCR]
Where does your true inner beauty lie?
Your true beauty lies in Dreams. Day-dreamer, creative and forever lost in thoughts. You're a dreamer, wanting more in your life than you have now. Though you a lot of your dreams never seem to leave your own mind. You've created your own little world inside that head of yours and you're most beautiful when your mind is in the clouds with sparkles in your eyes. You'd rather be asleep than awake and people find it hard to have long conversations with you as you mind often wanders and you aren't a big fan of reality. You are long and almost child-like probably with a great love for Fantasy or Science Fiction. You're very creative and most likely love to write wonderful stories or draw and even sing, anything creative that you can use that vast imagination of yours. You're a bit of a puzzle too. People love to wonder as to what is going in your mind.
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2004 13 November :: 10.04 pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: [My Chemical Romance]
We had a great night. Paul and Ed came over with their wives and it was really nice. Ed was having fun teaching me different prayers including this one that I really wish I could remember. It was something like... a prayer to the angels, and it was really nice. Our family doesn't pray before meals, but we do if we have company over... I guess it's just polite. Ed and I lead... it felt good. I felt great today. He was just resting on my shoulder the entire day. Everything felt great today. Everything. Except when my horse tried to kill me in her stall. Except for that, today was just pleasant. There's so many more things I could have done today but someone told me to spend it wisely, so I did. This isn't going to last. In two weeks I'll be wishing it was today, and you can't turn back time. --You also can't turn back things that are non-existant.
Bravo on the sunset, by the way.
He's putting me up to this, and it kind of makes me nervous. He wants me to do this. He wants me to be a bull rider. Why else would he assign one person an office job as a sleazy secretary and me as a bull rider? That sleazy secretary will live forever. I don't have as long. I don't know why, I just don't, and I can tell you that with honesty.
Where's Bev?
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2004 12 November :: 10.09 am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: [Blink 182]
abrokendreamx
As we grow up we learn that even the one person that wasnt supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken more then once, and it gets harder everytime. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing so fast and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too hard, and love like youve never been hurt, because every minute you spend mad or upset is a minute of happiness that you'll never get back.
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2004 11 November :: 8.54 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: New Found Glory
a "my day" entry. how cool.
before 1st period:
walked around with bev and josh, got my water, satisfied myself, hung out in the halls and whatevah.
first period
aid ashley a dollar to let me wear her bracelets and proceeded to pay her another dollar for two peices of gum. ...sleazbag. noticed Fitz was missing half a tooth and laughed at him. talked to alessi about pot smoking, how i'd never do it, yadda. sat there.
second period
got bitched about by mandy about my things. sat on the bleachers with rob, tyler, and ashley... listened to my chemical romance... talked... punched tyler in the penis and sat on his foot, whatevah.
third period
sat there. drew. wrote. i was doing my world cultures homework and mr. f. came up behind me and read over my shoulder and i jumped out of my skin and i was like "WHAT?!!?!!" and he was like..."...i ... .didn't say anything" and i was like ::WHEEZE:::: "OH." and he was like "i just thought it was interesting that you were studying archaelogy." and i was like "::pant:: holyum. yes. ahem." and put my music back on. i don't know why i got so scared, but i did. waited. left.
fourth period
sat on my ass.
lunch
hung out with bev and josh… it was basically just larry curly and moe today. Josh had an orgasm over his snapple again, as always. that’s just how he rolls. mm… josh raped me at my locker and of course I loved it. Hmm.. got yelled at by some chick for making out in the hall, when we weren’t really.. making out. Ha but she didn’t really yell at us, either so ha.
fifth period
took a test. sat on my ass. ate a bagel.
sixth period
hung out with bev and josh… got cheese everywhere… I put warm sharp cheddar cheese in my palm and said “HEY SLATER! HIGH FIVE!” and he so gave me a high five and so got cheddar all over his hand. \m/ took notes. Ignored.
seventh period
had a very uncomfortable sub. He looked very confused and very wronged. His face was bright red and he was quite nervous. I felt really bad for the guy. hm. I freaked out with Blair all period.
eighth period
got out of class early with chrissy… ran aorund the school for a few minutes… ran into the gym while they were having a class and ran out when we realized this was so. Whatever else, uhm. Saw josh…
bus ride
sat with my love Blair, josh sat in front of us. Josh and I like.. fucked and katie watched with glee. Haha no uhm, anyway… josh and I talked about when we’re getting married… and… haha… talked about… how bev and I fuct in the girls bathroom and such… I dunno, I just love josh.
so um. hey.
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2004 11 November :: 10.19 am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: [My Chemical Romance]
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2004 9 November :: 7.33 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: [Clint Black]
"i ate a carrot.
the goonies tonight, or something of that calibur. something sweet.
the carrots, like half done. its starting to get sour. ill be a trooper and eat the whole thing though.
i think a smidge of carrot got stuck in my nasal passages. this really sucks. it kind of stings. well, not really. it just makes me a tad nervous. thankstas to gangstas, im out like a thug (whips out uzi) GET DOWN!"
i love how he writes what i think.
and ross, it really was stinging. it stings.
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