ugh, such an emo girl today. cry emo girl, cry! ehhh... the bus went by rossuah's house and i threw him a note and it made me giggle in my head... uhh.... haha... creek. speaking of bus-

some kid was sitting with robert today and i was all pissed off. so i sat 3 seats in front of him and didn't talk to him the whole ride cause i couldn't and it sucked and ugh whatever. and i didn't sit by jimmy either cause he went to the back... i just made faces at him and smiled. bahhh... story of my life. i love jimmy though... what a cool kid...

wow woah wouldn't that be weird to fall in love with ROBERT?! that would be so cool! ...not gonna happen. ew cause then i'd have to open up to him and he'd have to experience my ''emo phases'' and such. *sigh*... it would be cool, though. wow haha you're stupid.


stupid fuckers.

thank you god.

oh casey, you've never looked so good on your knees. hahah fuck it. what i said to brielle. i'm fearing that i'm halfway responsible for whatevers going on. i'm not afraid of much, and this is sort of the definition. i don't even remember her fucking phone number. 916... something... fucking... five plus... fucking whatever the fuck. not 7. plus 2... whatever. fucking shit and her fucking math problems don't work forever. i need to talk to her so fucccking bad. God send her fucking back so i at least... sort of know what i did.

i haven't recieved anything in the mail...

..

...thank God.

sorry if this gets all... strange and i kinda... mess up on spelling or make a typo because i'm wearing emo clothes. --no, because i can't really see my monitor. hahh... but hm.xgrayxmatterx: silverstien would be a so much better band if they didn't scream
boy hits car306: they kick ass
xgrayxmatterx: they should stick to being a rock band rather than a screamo/rock band
xgrayxmatterx: i love listening to them until he makes a lame attempt at "screaming" and then i get all... "what the fuck is this?" and i get all sad

leeloh.

i wrote that all over my science book this morning and i have no idea why i did it or what possessed me to do such a thing, but now my book reads: "leeloh LEEloh lehloh lehhhhhh loohhhh....."

casey <---strange kid

ugh so contemplative.

i'm dressed all emo. why?
::green longsleeve shirt
::white collared shirt underneath
::white pants
::85964 emo bracelets

i think i might wear this to school tomorrow... you know... sleep in it and wear it.

passed out in our school clothes to wake up in our sunday's best...

here i am, it's in my hands, and i'll savor every moment of this...

hey guys, hey guys, yeah little did i know that mr. chimmychoo has internet service in his room and i didn't find that out until... oh... 5 minutes ago. so here i am downloading AIM at the speed of light, and by the time i get done with this entry, i'll be signed on, hopefully.

so, when was the last time we spoke? a really long time ago i guess. fun times man, fun times. i went to the varsity game, i figured i should go, considering it was my school... playing my school... and i'd see everyone and say hi. i saw ross and jason which was really cool, and that definately made my day. of course brielle did, too, but we won't get into that. ..oh, and i pantsed Jude.

this weekend is Kevins concert at that clinton kids house, so i guess i'm going to go and "SUPPORT"! \m/ >< \m/ haha, no really i love kevin and i'm going to go and... yep. when i get online... (44%) i have to ask JOE if he's going because if he is that would be maaaaad sweet.

mad sweet.
that reminds me...

these kids in this school have got to be the most egotistical people i've ever met, damian excluded. they really are a chipper bunch, selling drugs in class and lighting up during study hall. xD ... this kid during math wanted to buy ciggs off me and i was like "wtf, fuck off." and hm. people will be people. my backpack smells like bog and i'm sure mother knows somethings fishy. FISHY! fiiiishhhy....

(59%)

i've made a few friends though, i was pretty doubtful in the beginning. theres um, mandy querido who is the ultimate, cause i sit with her at lunch now. then theres shaylen whos totally cool and i want to do her.. then theres... jimmy, the kid i sit on the bus with and we talk to each other for the bus ride... then theres JEREMIAH. oh god how could i forget jeremiah? god... he wrote me a love letter and i taped it to my bedroom wall. ...that kid. is the ultimate. he was wearing a FFTL shirt the other day and i was like ::orgasm:: and he was like ahh and i was like ::pant::... so anyway. i hugged him for like 5 minutes straight during study hall. i was like... "JERE!" and he was like "oh my god. it's CASEY." and we hugged for so long and i loved every second of it.

77%.

man okay phew die.

*Yawn* ::scratches nose:: *rubs forehead* ::stretches eyes out like chinese:: *itches leg* .... I have nothing to do. *itches nose.* I could go outside, but... I dont feel like it. *rolls head around* I feel so blah right now. Like.... eh. Dead kind of. But then again, I always-- *scratches nose* --feel like this. I kind of just wanna collapse and sleep for a week. *twitches*

i really am starting to need jess.

Mary belongs to the words of a song. i try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her. but she will not wait for me anymore. why did i say all those things before?

once again, i'm left sort of wondering. wondering why it's always me that has to be the wonderer. and wondering why she wonders why i wonder. i'm also wondering why i wonder. ehhh... i can't wait until i get my license. as soon as i do, i'm gonna fill up my tank, and drive to orangevale and beat that bitch senseless for never emailing me or calling me and telling me where the fck she is and what's going on. yeah. what respect to give to the girl who saved your life, huh? yeah. nah, i love her.

right now i'm kind of moving, so before you get your panties in a bunch, xD, that's why i'm not updating and that's why i'm hardly ever home. so when you want to talk, not like many people do, ;D, call me... 908 797 2825.

much luv to all mah FRIIIIends.... ;D

oh yeah. boardies? i'm not having AOL anymore or something. so... much love, bitches. =]

i went to see joe today... but i didn't see joe. it was pretty depressing. lol...

i can't update now because things are crazy.

mm... kay, a bug just landed on my hand and it was hot. like... the bug was hot. i swear. i shook it off really fast and i was like "DUDE!" and i flipped out. hm... i really would like to know where jess is.

TOMORROWS MY HORSE SHOW! SHIT! I JUST REMEMBERED. WTF DO I DOOOO? ahh wtf damn it I don't want to take her. she's going to be an idiot. ugh. ew.... i'm not in the mood. and i have to get a tour of my school...tomorrow, also. these bugs are da shit.

i'm all pumped up for the 23rd.