I had an awesome time at my horseshow in Stillwater... I got a 5th, a 7th, a 6th, and another 7th... My horse was so gooooood! Oh, and Laura showed my other horse Cowboy in the beginner division and she got 1st, 1st, 1st, and grand champion for the division! Yep, as always.... ha he's so rockin'. Bliss refused her first jump when I was in the jumping class but did the rest of the course fine, so we didn't stay for the placings cause I probably didn't place because of the refusal......

I was so tired and feeling really crappy and a girl called me and was like "I wanted to call you and let you know you're an ugly slut." (or something) and then hung up. I didn't recognize the number... or the voice... but it made me feel really shitty... Oh well... what else is new? =/ People are so heartless these days, it's really unfortunate....

Tomorrow Laura's coming over again and we're gonna hang out and shes probably gonna come over another time this week before she comes over Friday at like 6:00AM hahaha then she's staying here til sunday night cause we've got 2 horse shows this weekend... GSMHA and Cloverleaf Open... yay.

I'm really tired so I should go... later...

No one knows what it's like to be the bull-boy
nobody understands how it feels
to have two holes in the side of my head
and a pain in the balls THAT ARE NON-EXISTANT!
my hoofies, they hurt
my holies, they bleed
i'm so lonely out here in the darkness of the NIIIIIIIIGHT!
my only friiiiiiiiiiiiiiends are a teal bouncy ball
and a fence post that I grunt at...
And last but not least
on occasion
a golden retriever who runs away from me...
I wish I had some friends....
I wish you were my friend...
cause then I'd be lonely no morrrrrrrrre.

Inspired by: BeefSteak
Written and Composed and Performed and Sung and Laughed at by: Laura Nelson and Casey Schwind

Yesterday was the absolute worst day as far as me being sick goes. I was so tired and my head hurt and I couldn't breathe and my throat hurt so bad... I slept a lot during the day... Then went to bed around 9... and Jude called me on his cell phone and hung up, so I called him back, and he was like "Hello?" and I said "hi......" and he hung up... so I called back and Rachel answered and I was like "uhhh... so like... you called....?" or something and she was like "yeah it was me" then hung up... and I was like wtf? So I just went back to sleep.... Then like 20 minutes later, Jude called AGAIN... and was like "AAAHH!" and was like screaming in my ear and I'm like "What the fuck do you want?" and hes like "ARE YOU SLEEEEEEEEEEEEPING?" and I was like "I was........" and hes like "AWWWWWWWWWWW!" and then hung up. I was so mad, I wanted to cry, I felt like shit. Then I went back to bed, and 20 minutes later, who calls? Rachel. I'm like "what... the... fuck." so I answer. And I'm like "hello?" and shes like "ARE YOU SICK?" and I was like "yeahhh....." and shes like "OOHHHHH. I'm not. HAHAHAHA" and I was like "okay..." and she's like well... AJ and Alyssa hate us. and I said "uh.. ok... and.. ok..." or something, I don't remember... and then she goes "HEY! Come over, and bring money! We need to go tanning. So come over and bring us money." and I was thinking "you're a fucking ass hole." and i hung up.

Jude changes her. I haaaate it...
and if it was me calling her while she was sick and trying to sleep, she knows damn well she'd be flipping a shit. She'd be like "WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM GOD SHUT THE FUCK UP" then she wouldn't talk to me for like a month.

Fuck, I hate Jude... If he wasn't there, Rachel would have never called me acting all stupid. She does stuff she normally wouldn't do when she's with him, and it's fucking annoying..... I hope she gets over that fatass soon, cause this is bullshit.

Needless to say, I got no sleep last night.......

Laura's coming over today to get ready for the show... I have a jumping lesson at 9:30AM... Tomorrow's a horse show... so yeah.... Won't be updating for a while. Later...

Bamboozle-
Okay. This... is going to be really long. If you wanna know what all went down yesterday, read it! It was awesome.

We showed up around noon time and ate sandwiches by the car watching all these "I'M SO HARDCORE" 12 year olds screaming "YEAAAH UNDEROATH WOO!" or some shit. And uhh... yeah, so it took us like... an hour to find the ticketholder exchange for wristbands... and then we went straight to Convention Hall to see Katie's cousin's band, Armor For Sleep play. Their set was SO awesome... they did such a great job. The entire place was awesome, it smelled like blood, sweat, balls, and ciggarettes. You couldn't be in there for more than 5 minutes without being soaked with sweat, which was great. I crowdsurfed 6 times during their set, and on my second surf of the day, some kid grabbed my right shoe, and was like... twisting my foot back and forth... and I was headed towards stage so like... I couldn't do anything cause people were throwing me up and away from the kid, so I kicked him in the face, but he ended up getting my shoe and yeah. So the rest of the day I had no shoe... which caught up with me... but yeah, details later. Then, on my next surf, some dickhead wrapped his arms around my waist and untied my sweatshirt and pulled it off me... so I lost two articles of clothing. What next? Tank top? YEAH. ...On my NEXT surf, some other guy put both his hands up my shirt and tried to pull my tanktop off. like... it was up by my tits! and I was like SHIT! So I grabbed his hair and like... yanked him forward with me and screamed "FUCK" and it was supposed to be "fuck you" but it just ended up "FUCK!" hahahaha! So after Armor For Sleep, Katie, Brielle, and Emily went out to the car and to do some merch shopping, while me and Rachel went in to see Catch 22. I think I surfed 9 times during their set... They were really good, and the crowd was great. The circle pits were HUGE... and me and Rachel joined them and went like... crazy. We were like throwing punches and kicking and jumping and leaping onto people... it was great. In the C22 pit I got elbowed in the face and I was like aaah! But yeah. Throughout the entire day, I got landed on by flying crowd surfers like... 15 times. And it hurts so bad, cause they like... crack your neck and everything goes silent for a second. Its like a half-concussion. We met Armor For Sleep and hung out with them for a bit and got pictures with them and autographs... We saw UnderOATH and that was THE BEST... SHOW... I have ever seen in my entire life. The place was crazy, people were punching and kicking me and Rachel and Katie and... everyone else... and poor Brielle almost died... I got punched in the temple by some fatass and I was like "WHAT THE FUCK" so I like... tried to kick his ass but I'm weak so... no. I crowd-surfed to the front during "Re-Inventing Your Exit" and I was singing and screaming and the singer grabbed my hand when I was being lifted over the barrack by the security guard and he was singing to me, and I was singing to him, and it was so awesome. Oh, before UnderOATH, we saw Circa Survive... I had never heard of them before, so I wanted to check them out... so we did... and I thought they were really great. They sounded like From First To Last, and it was really cool.... Well, some idiots were like "BOO! WE WANT UNDEROATH YOU FAGS!" And like... Everyone was like "SHUT THE FUCK UP!" and like... so many people got into fist fights cause of it... and I felt so bad for the singer cause he was like... "Sorry if we inconvieninced you, NJ..." and like... yeah. So afterwards, we all went to the Epitaph tent to hang out with Circa Survive and tell them how great they were and yeah... The one dude was like "Hey, want the pickles off my sandwich? and I was like "Touch it." and he touched it, so I picked it up and was like "yay, you touched my pickle." So we hung out with them for like 10 minutes and then went to see Alkaline Trio and someone else.. I dunno... those sets sucked. OH! Some uh... what are they called... All American Rejects... I tried to crowdsurf to get out of that, cause yeah, but they were all little girls, so I only made like... 25 feet before crashing to the ground on top of this really cute guy. HA! So yeah, then we just hung out and went to go see My Chemical Romance... THAT... was the craziest. There were so many people, there was no way you could get out once you were in there. I was like... 20 feet from stage up until the 3rd song, and on the third song, I asked this guy for help getting up and he sent me forward and I dropped RIGHT at the barrack! So I was as close as anyone could be! It was awesome. So like... yeah, I touched Gerard. And then he goes "OKAY! If you're next to your lover... I want you guys to MAKE THE FUCK OUT!" And this guy GRABBED me and shoved his tongue down my throat and I was thinking "WTF?" but I just went with it, and yeah. The entire show I almost got killed, cause it was insane. I think like... 10 crowdsurfers landed on my head and knocked me down like 5 times. It hurt so bad. So the entire time i had no shoe and like... Now I like... re-broke my foot and its like swollen and black and blue and EW. So gross. Yeah so that was our fun time.

That's definately like... triple the size of a normal foot.
More pics later.

So like... Bamboozle was incredible.
Pictures and full details tomorrow...
Here's what I posted on myspace:

Guys, it was incredible... so fucking insane. We were there for like 11 hours and ... saw so many great bands and... met so many great bands and... gah, it was incredible. I think I re-broke my foot. I was crowd surfing during Armor For Sleep's set and some dumbass ripped off my shoe... and like... for the rest of the day I was moshing and playing in the circle pits with no shoe... so I kept getting stepped on and like... beaten down and... ugh. So its all swollen and gross. Anyways, I crowd surfed 19 times and met Armor For Sleep and Circa Survive and The Method and... others... and got autographs and pics... it was really really great. and I met some really nice people and some real ass holes. So yeah, it was awesome. Oh, UnderOATH's set was amazing. Best show I've ever seen. I grabbed the singer's hand and he was singing to me... and like... at MCR's set, I was right in front at the barrack and I touched Gerard and caught a pick but dropped it cause I'm an idiot. And some guy teased me with their set, but gave it to someone else. HMPH. Yeah.

So yeah. Pictures tomorrow. and... yeah. I'm going to go heal. And how gross am I? I'm not even going to take a shower tonight... I'm going right to bed. I BATHED in sweat all day. I was dripping all over in other peoples sweat mixed with mine. I'm covered in the aroma of sex, drugs, smokes, sweat, and balls. ...so awesome.

I'm so... lucky. It just hit me tonight how fucking lucky I am. I could have no friends if I played my cards right. ...somehow... I ended up... with the best ones I could ever ask for.

Post script:
bpagano12: holy carp

Anyways... It's insane how I ended up with what I ended up with... I mean.. Ricky... Brielle... Brandon... Katie... Keith... Dan... All of them. I'm so lucky to ever have them. ...but this just hit me. So sad.