BRRRR!!!
so this morning i woke everyone up by jumping around saying "its snowing its snowing its snowing!" that was the first thing i checked and it made my day...then it only got better wehn i walked outside of the hotel to hear the town bells, which ive always wanted to hear church bells in the morning, so it was beautiful to me. yea, too bad we dont have church bells around here. yup, i was in peoria for the IDEA confrence. it was loads of fun. i relaly liked the speakers and running around wiht sandy and jen was fun, and thankies sandy for our talk. yup... two of the speakers i really liked, one of which i thought was awesome, or amazing in sandys words. he made me cry because so much of it came so close to home that it was in the room next door. yup. and then on top of it, you know so many people who you can say have been effected by one of the things he said, and you can tell the person next to you, and they could relate...but he had nearly everyone, save about twenty people standing, saying that they knew soemone who had been affected by alcohol in that way. then there was this other guy, and he gave straight facts...and pictures...his speech was long but informative. yes...i liked them...the other lady was...eh...yea...

but i come home, and again my dad starts talking about my mums fucking party. i havent written much in here about it, but i hear about it every night. granted, hes excited and its getting close, but theres only so many times you can discuss the same thing, so i told him so and he wasnt happy about that...o well, ::tear tear:: then my mum came home...from elaines. "oo lets talk and cuddle and be best friends, something i normally cant tear myself away from my tv or anything else for" she tells me to tell her about it. so i do...well if you all know my mum, she is the epitome of an advocate for what idea was against... just in case youre clueless, idea stands for Illinois Drug Education Alliance. yup...so...i start telling her, and i go in order. well i start telling her abot uthe factual guy, and telling her info...well in the middle of it she gets up and walks away...in a very sullen, pissed off voice "i have to go make dinner" o joy...you arent pissed off atme at all...she replies im not i have to make dinner so wahteer....then dad comes up.."whatd you do to piss her off now?" i told him just what i told you, that she asked and i told. and hes like you know im no saint either and we all do things we shouldnt like my skydiving. am like whats your point? that its dangerous and could klll me...am like so? he was trying to tell me that his skydiving and go cart racing and shit is just as dangerous as drinking. i dont even knwo why he started this, its not like i was lecturing him or anything...and am like, no it isnt cuz you dont hurt me wehn you go skydiving. i dont want to hear his bullshit...am supposed to listen to him trying to reason the things that they dont want me to do? arrrrrrgggg it doesnt make sense to me...they dont understand my side of it. but oh well right...ill be gone in a few years, and my mumll most likely die before she gets a chance to see my kids at an age where they can realise who she is and miss her wehn she dies. it sounds mean, but its so true. am supposed to write my paper now...but i dont wnat to...i want to sleep its relaly cold in here. my fingertips are numb. sorry sandy and jen for annoying you guys on the bus...i wanted to talk so bad...i was hyper and wanted to do stuff and everyone wanted to sleep...ama go read...::sigh:: g'night.

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