why are you hiding from the scars of your own reality
hi...so um...the story about babysitting..(jennifer skip this section) um...first when i got there, morgan and mackenzie were argueing and i told them to stop about ten times, then i told them they were going to not play that anymore if they kept fighting about it...and then they did again so i tld them to pakc it up and morgan started crying and threw herself into a pillow "i dont wanna talk" well hten you cant play either....lol whatever it was funny. then later on time for bed, megan was laying on the ground and i took the other girls to bed...she wouldnt get up so i just left her; little girls are scared of being alone. so then i went upstairs and the other girls were getting pajamas on and teeth brushed and i went downstairs...megan was laying on the stairs!.....???....shes like i wanna sleep on the stairs....am like...um...you have to brush your teeth and pajamas on first. shes like okie..then mackenzie and megan were still getting ready and morgan was done so i started tickling her and playing around. then the other two wanted to play so we did...then it was nine am like time for bed. so then they all got into bed save megan who went and layed on the stairs...am like...okie fifteen minutes. so i left her....five minutes later, morgan comes down "megans laying on the stairs" yes i know "how am i going to get up the stairs?" how idd you get down them? "well i went to the side and i was afaid i was going to step on her hair because i couldnt see her" go up the way you came dwon lol...o ::sigh:: then i went to put meghan into bed, and i heard voices and footsteps. so i went and am like morgan and mackenzie get into bed! then i went back downstairs....at nine thirty, i go up cuz i hear voices, and am standing at the door trying to figure out who it was....and mackenzie opens the door...am like hi...what are you doing out of bed? "megan has the radio on" megan why do you have the radio on? "cuz i like it.....and they like it too" girls do you want the radio on? ::both shake heads:: megan they dont want it on... ::she turns it down:: girls go to sleep!!! finally they shut up. i told thier mummy...she was pissed. ::sigh:: okie um...next story


yesterday I came home from jennifers and was like trix, wanna do something? And shes like yea (she was onlyn) but I have to wait for my parents to come home….am like okie….so I went to take a bath (mmm) it was warm and relaxing…..yes…..um. then katherine called once trix and I had decided that we were going to the library via her mum…katherine pickd me up and there were too many fines on trixs card so we couldn’t go to the library so then we watched ya-ya sisterhood after laughing at people in the yearbook. It almost made me cry! ::sigh:: then katherine had to leave and jackie called asking if we wanted to go see brother bear…I wasn’t too excited at first, I didn’t feel like doing much. But it was awesome I liked it loads! Go see it everyone! Then we got in the car and went to quiznos where lisa met us, and jessica came with her two sisters, but they were pissed cuz she claims jackie said shed sleep over, but jackie said she didn’t…so wahtever. Um…then we came to my house and lisa was looking through my journal (book) and it has nothing important so its on the floor you know? Like everything else. And I was meh ::shrugs:: then she opened up my binder of stuff from this year….cards drawings letters…..and I don’t care that she wsa reading the cards….but the letters I had just put in yesterday, that’s why it was still out. And hse read every one of them. This is the thing. People write about her….sometimes….but not a lot…so that’s like ….hmm no…and then they write stuff that she isnt supposed to know…shes pretty nosy, she wants to know everyting that’s going on…and that would be fine if she didn’t repeat to everyone else! Arg it drives me nuts…but I think that’s what she wants…like it stands out…then people are like lisa told everyone! Then she moved and I was like ahh…the light…you moved…..shes like you should get a shade…I had one but it broke…o you shud put…..the popcorn bag over it….am like…um…no…she did it anyway. ::sigh:: popcorn kernals…floor….oil….lightbulb…..smell….mess……aarrrrrrg…..i asked her to clean it up and she wouldn’t! but it isnt the first time! She leaves messes here all the time! I hate it…cuz okie my room is a mess….but candy wrappers arent smelling up the room because theyre burning on the light bulb and nothing is ruining my carpet! Arrg…she just left it. So I wrote her a note sayign that she wouldn’t be invited back if she keeps doing it. And she takes every thing as if people hate her…she loooks for stuff! So am like….i don’t hate you, never have , most likely never will…don’t think that…..its just that it bugs me. I don’t know about you, but I feel bad leaving my mess in other peoples houses…she doesn’t do it at her house tho! Everything is…clean up guys…I don’t want my mum to have to do it.. so yea….that’s my rant. :) um…then trix was sleeping over….and neil came over at midnight..what the hell??? So I was like okieeee….but then he left…..::Sigh:: I need to spend time away from him…I don’t even treasure him anymore. :( ::Sihg:: yea…um…so trix left and I finished neils boxers for his christmas present…um…yea…..um…christmas list is in process….:-D am excited for snowwwwwww! Yay! Okie bye bye….ama go read oliver twist. :)

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