quick entry
um hi, this is going to be a quick update cuz i have to pee and i want to go play sims for a bit and i honestly dont want neil over (guys...i never want him over anymore, maybe cuz he's here too much...no one tell him that okie? you know who you are. yup) um...i just got an ikea magazine! woo! jill and trix and jennifer and sandy, my mum and i went to get patterns and look at fabric...there were ducks..and spongebob, and loads of cute fabric! um...okie i just got in a fight with my dad which is super stupid like...i dont know...ill put the letter that i just wrote to him and um...for background, he asked me if it was my time of the month; last night he got in an arguement with my mum about the movies and he got pissed cuz he didnt think she was going to take them back so he stormed in my room and asked me (i was laying down cuz i was tired) if i was going to watch the movie. i said id like to but not at the moment, and he replied in the morning? yes most likely...."well you wont be up" ::slams door::...how nice...yea...and then this...um...*caution* not kind fights :-D but no worries...am stronger :)

Dad,
The conversation started out as me asking you, “are you the one who washes the dishes like this” you replied “no”. Granted that is how you responded, I asked you, not knowing for sure, nor wanting to put the blame on anyone, to please be more thorough. That was the extent of the conversation. Then mum came in and asked what the bitching was about (yes I am using this language to repeat correctly what was said), and you replied, “she’s bitching at me for not cleaning”. That is not what I said and you know that clearly. But when I rebutted your response, you told me that I had not spoken nicely to you. When you walked away I asked you to please come back. You rammed you body against mine, obviously an unfair action. I pushed you back and you fell, probably cause of your alcohol consumption. When you got up, you began swearing at me and attempted to hit me, which mum didn’t want to stand for and told you so, when you hit her, I refused to let you get away with bringing her in for protecting me. I picked you up to stop you. You have no right to do that to her. I don’t care if you hit me, but you were drunk and you are not fair at all when you are so. You know that was entirely wrong. You ended up throwing the French fries at her and something else at me. You kept bringing up the fact that mum and I were fighting earlier. This is why that was different:

1. we did NOT throw anything at each other
2. we did NOT hit each other
3. we only exchanged words and eventually solved it

With you, there is no solving, because you change your story. If you are upset, you need to learn to calm yourself down, rather than hurt people and break things. Maybe put some time into an anger-control program. I understand you have your stress at work and you come home and want to relax, and family doesn’t always allow that. Sometimes, when I’ve had the roughest days at school, which is all I want as well. But the fighting still goes on.
Some nights, you come down after you have laid down to go to sleep, when mum and I are arguing, saying that you would like to sleep. You expect all to come to a halt because you need to sleep so that you may make money. Granted, but I need to sleep so that I may get grades so that I may graduate into college and eventually make money for myself. When I ask you guys to stop fighting, you always tell me (again with the language thing, but these are your words) “fuck off”, “fuck you”, and “shut the fuck up”. So if you’d, please review this letter and think about your actions before you do so again. It is very hard to keep a temper if you are being yelled at. I am the only one who can soberly remember this load, and I hope to continue to do so throughout my years, because I will not allow myself to be influenced by yours and mum’s crystal clear incapacity.

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