For the first time in my life I can't sleep. This never happens. Like, you don't understand- I normally can sleep WHENEVER , wherever for how ever long I wish. Like when I'm bored, I just sleep sometimes. I have never hjad this problem but for some reason I am sooo tired but I can not sleep. I got about an hour last nite and trying to nap since I left work and I can't. On top of it all, I am really sick and feel like total crap so I really need the sleep. Ugh this really sucks and I look like a zombie. Wtf?
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2009 9 May :: 3.28pm
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie- Cath...
Soon everybody will ask what became of you...
pretty boring day today. Paul is at football camp, so I am making homemade bagels and doing laundry... just call me Martha. Except I just burnt my hand and it's starting to blister...
HIMYM
"Here's the thing, Barney: I'm snuggly. You're not. Who wouldn't want to snuggle up next to this business on a Sunday morning? Wrapped in a comforter, and its raining outsode, and there's muffins warming in the oven... I'm cuddly, bitch! Deal with it!"
"Oh, Fran. Oh Franny Franny Fran. We are gonna have some fun."
"This circle... represents people who are breaking my heart. And this circle, represents people who are shaking my confidence daily. And where they overlap...Cecilia."
"This is a pie chart, describing my favorite bars. And this is a bar graph, describing my favorite pies!"
"What the hell happened to my charts?"
"We threw them away."
"WHAT?!?"
"That's how an intervention works, Marshall... You wouldn't stop using, so we flushed your stash."
"C'mon, Ted... I need my charts, man! Just for a day... and then I promise I'll never ever use charts again! I'm under a lot of pressure here, I NEED MY CHARTS, JACK!"
"God, you're doing charts at work??"
so today roxy got into my purse which had a chocolate bar in it from last night when we went to the movies and i bought one! it was opened cuz i didn't finish it and i was hanging up clothes in my room when i came out she was chowing down on the chocolate. I went to take it from her and she about bit my hand off and started growling I had to basicallty throw her across the dang room to get it away from her. but all in all she probably ate a total of an ounce or so but so i call the vet and they tell me that even though that's not much, it could be lethal to her beacuse she is so small (only 6.2 lbs. - shes a chihuahua) and so i freak out and they tell me i have to go buy hydrogen peroxide to induce vomitting. so i'm like bawling my eyes out thinking WHAT IF she dies and i rush to the dollar store and buy some and then i have to do soemthing i wish i never had to do and seriously pour this "poison" down her throat-- okay i know it's not poison but who wants to give hydrogen peroxide to their baby and MAKE them vomit???? so i had to lock her and i in the kitchen and Paris, my other dog, is just looking at us like what the heck is going on? and i'm just sitting there waiting for her to get sick and crying my eyes out saying "I'm so sorry baby i'm so sorry" she finally starts vomitting after about 4 minutes of just being unsuspecting and looking at me like "why did you give me that gross stuff mommy?" and then all of sudden its like oh yeah because you're trying to kill me!!! and she starts puking all in all like 5 times! and she is so tiny so its so hard to watch her walking around wondering why she's throwing up... wondering what is going on whats happening to her... shes probably did not understand at all because shes i think puked maybe once before and hardly at all. and this puking was a LOT for this tiny little creature. but luckily she barfed it pretty much all up but then i called the vet to see what to do next cuz i was still really worried and she told me to keep on eye on her (obviously) and her heartrate so then i'm sitting there trying to count her heart beats per mminute which is hard when its hard to even feel it and then she keeps moving and so i just let her sleep and then a few minutes later i pick her up and it seems like her heart is beating so fast which there was no reason for that since she was sleeping and so then i start to worry again and this whole time i've been googling on the situation and so that is panicking me even more and so i call the animal hospital by my hosue and ask if i can just bring her in and they say yes and long story short they said shes fine just keep an eye on her and i have to give her special bland food- and not feed her til late tonight cuz she needs to make sure all the chocholoate is out so thats pretty much it but ughghghg my baby i'm just glad shes ok!
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2009 30 April :: 9.30pm
:: Music: Kings of Leon- Use Somebody
off in the night/ while you live it up/ i'm off to sleep...
i've been roaming around
always looking down at all i see
painted faces fill the places i can't reach
you know that i could use somebody
you know that i could use somebody
someone like you
and all you know
and how you speak
countless lovers undercover of the street
you know that i could use somebody
you know that i could use somebody
someone like you
off in the night,
while you live it up, i'm off to sleep
waging war to shake the poet and the beat
i hope it's gonna make you notice
i hope it's gonna make you notice
someone like me
someone like me
someone like me
go and let it out
someone like you
somebody
someone like you
somebody
someone like you
somebody
i've been roaming around
always looking down at all i see
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2009 27 April :: 7.57pm
:: Music: Matt Giraud- You Found Me ;)
Where were you, when everything was falling apart?/ All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang/ And all I needed was a call that never came...
i am sick and a little bit sad
really hope i'm not coming down with swine flu.
Oh my gosh I am watching wedding shows and tearing up like crazy at every little thing- imy shower was yesterday and it was a total blast, stef did sucha good job planning and executing it I am so so so so excited for our wedding ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh yay roman I love you I can't wait
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2009 24 April :: 10.14pm
:: Music: Erin McCarly- Love, Save the Empty
Little girls don't know how to be sweet girls/ Mama didn't teach me/ Little boys don't know how to treat little girls/ Daddy didn't show me...
lots of weekend plans... now through mid summer.
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2009 14 April :: 10.47pm
:: Music: OAR- This Town
In the morning wake me up/ And tell me everything/ So I can understand your world/ And you can understand my dream...
who needs twitter? i've got woohu.
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2009 14 April :: 9.56pm
:: Music: The Killers- Sam's Town
I’ve got this energy beneath my feet/ Like something underground’s gonna come up and carry me/ I've got this sentimental heart that beats/ But I don’t really mind that it’s starting to get to me...
I don't like playing the waiting game...
Vegas was crazy. I spent too much money (but that's what vacation is for, eh?).
Not a big fan of real life. Still really ridiculously tired.
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2009 4 April :: 9.46pm
:: Music: Lily Allen- The Fear
And I am a weapon of massive consumption/ And its not my fault it’s how I’m programmed to function/ I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror/ I’m on the right track yeah we're on to a winner..
maybe i have a higher purpose in life.
going to vegas on tuesday, and planning on getting crazy.
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2009 3 April :: 10.19pm
:: Music: Everclear- Amphetamine
She looks so bored sometimes/ She has that super pale skin and those soft green eyes/ She looks like she could have been happy in a better life...
She came out west to find the sun
She lost her name but found a new one
Amy goes to school all day
But at night in the neighborhood
They call her amphetamine
She is perfect in that fucked up way
That all the magazines seem to want to glorify these days
She looks like a teenage anthem
She looks like she used to be happy
With the girl inside
She looks so bored sometimes
She has that super pale skin and those soft green eyes
She looks like she could have been happy in a better life
She came out west just to break away clean
From her family and her friends
Just a little girls dream
All she wants to do every night
Is sit beside my window and listen to the sirens
She is perfect in that fucked up way
That all the magazines seem to want to glorify these days
She looks like a teenage anthem
And she looks like she should have been happy
In another life
In another life, ooh, in another life
Yeah, in another life
She came out west just to break the spell
After three long years in a marriage from hell
Six months clean, living sober and right
The doctors tell her everything will be alright
Yeah you just take your pill
And everything will be alright
Yeah you just take your pill
And everything will be alright
She looks like a teenage anthem
She looks like a magazine girl
She looks like a teenage anthem
Like she used to be happy in another world
She looks like a teenage anthem
She is happy with the girl inside
She looks like a teenage anthem
And looks like she could have been happy
In another life
In another life, happy in another life
Ooh, in another life, happy in another life
In another life, happy in another life
Met her at a party and I took her home
She is the saddest girl that I have ever known
She wakes me up in the middle of the night
Just to tell me everything will be alright
Amy smiles at me and tells me everything will be alright
Yeah, amy smiles at me and tells me everything will be alright
Yeah, I tell myself the same damn thing
Everyday
Everything will be alright
Ooh, everything will be alright
Everything will be alright.
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2009 1 April :: 10.02pm
:: Music: Everclear- I Will Buy You A New Life
They might think you're happy/ Yeah maybe for a minute or two/ They can't make you laugh/ No, they can't make you feel the way that I do...
maybe tomorrow brings good news for once?