gilded smile

:: 2007 27 June :: 11.32pm

my fiance is bugging me right now.

whoever invented playstation needs to like, die.

shut uppppppppppppppppppppppppp.

:: 2007 27 June :: 10.09am

screw work i dont want to go

i need a new job.

ughghghghg

3 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2007 23 June :: 11.43pm

why do things seriously have to suck so much?

tuwang

:: 2007 19 June :: 5.50am

http://factualmaterial.com/douchebag.htm

as a side note. I searched chris' journal for that. good times...

tuwang

:: 2007 19 June :: 5.34am

so the one night I say to myself... man kevin, probably a good idea to get some sleep... here I am.

3 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2007 18 June :: 10.30am

this was probably a really crappy plan, but whatever. i don't care, because i'm buzzing and i just really wanted to, and i kind of feel like i deserve it. even though i probably don't. if that makes any sense. which it doesn't. but i don't freakin' care.

i'm having a good time, dammit.

6 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2007 17 June :: 3.53pm

roman and i are moving into a fricken SWEET apartment at the end of august.

i thought our place was nice but it doesn't even compare to this.

we finally will have a DISHWASHER yay!!! and it is a TWO BEDROOM. 890 sq feet and we will only be paying about 30 bucks than we do now. yay i'm so excited.

on top of all the extra space we will have, we also have access to an indoor and outdoor pool, tennis courts basket ball courts, hot tub, saunas, and fitness center that has everything you need, it is it's own fitness center that people who aren't residents even use and have to have memberships to so it is huge and nice. there is also a community center to just hang out in and it has like a pool table and it's just a cute place to hang out.

i am just so excited!!! the only thing i am upset about is that we still wont have our own washer and dryer. that SUCKS. but i am still very pleased with our choice. YAY!

i wish we could move in tomorrow because i dont want to have to wait.

it is still in the same area we live in now- wyoming . so thats cool too.

:: 2007 15 June :: 9.20pm

so i just had an interview with a huge jerk.

fuck him.

''it makes it hard for follow up questions.''

''i'm the weeder''

3 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2007 13 June :: 5.59pm

you know, i really don't mind staying up all night. in fact, i kind of like it. it's probably my favorite part of this job. but i REALLY do not like waking up this late in the day. i never get anything done, because i feel like it's already over. and then the weekends are all fucked up. i don't know. i guess we'll tough it out.

:: 2007 12 June :: 10.48pm

*sigh*

life....

overwhelming.

:: 2007 11 June :: 11.21pm

we used to do this when we were in high school, like the early years of it i mean and you just have to assume. so i dont know. i'm really confused right now. but lets keep being all mysterious i guess because thats just how we do. ha.

:: 2007 9 June :: 2.53pm

I'm going to be a nurse.

Well, I hope I am anyway. Davenport finally created a nursing program at their grand rapids campus and I am so excited. I have been hoping for this ever since I got the scholarship. They have been planning on having one there but not for a long while. But I guess they sped things up because they are having one now.

There are only 30 spots and I just pray that I will get one.

yay.

4 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2007 8 June :: 8.40am

meine arbeit

if you ever find yourself wondering "hmm. i wonder what chris does at work, for the summer. how does he spend his time?" then this entry is for you.

story 1:

i work in a warehouse/factory. we get parts that come in on semi-trailers, and i have to take the skids and boxes of parts to various places in the warehouse, and put them on these gigantic racks. the majority of guys at work call them "pallet-tier racks". but every time they say to put stuff on these racks, i can't help but picture "palantir racks", because that's what it sounds like. palantir as in the lost seeing stones in lord of the rings. to make this story even more dorky, when i imagine these "palantir racks" they look a lot like how i mentally envisage the prophecy room in the ministry of magic in harry potter. and i laugh at myself every single time. which, you can imagine how often that happens in a night. it's cool, because i'm laughing all the fucking time.

story 2:

there is this fenced off area where they have large machines for cutting the fabric that they use to upholster the chairs and stuff. there are openings in the fence, all of which are accompanied by a sign that says "WARNING! cutters only allowed in this area". the word order in this is what amuses me. i understand that the spirit of the message is "danger! there's some sharp shit going on in here, and unless you're a trained professional, you're liable to lop something off inadvertently. and nobody wants that. especially our lawyers." however i always consider the idea that cutters, as in emo kids who slash their wrists, are only allowed to be in the cutting area and nowhere else. i realize that the cutting area would be a terrible place for such folk, so i decided that it would be cool to take a picture of one of the signs, and splice it onto an image of a padded room. that thought entertains me every time i pass one of those signs. again, just imagine how often i'm entertained in a night.

story 3:

this story isn't funny. they're putting me on the assembly lines starting sunday night. whcih means new boss, new job, new coworkers, new bullshit. and for the most part means: worse boss, terrible job, worse coworkers, and more bullshit than you can shake a tree at.

basically.

:: 2007 6 June :: 10.19pm

i know its bad but i am skipping my homework tonight. i am just so overwhelmed and i can't take it anymore. all i want to do is sit around and relax and dream about my wedding.

and my baby is home so that is it. love.

spud	:: 2007 5 June :: 8.36am :: Mood: pensieve :: Music: jamiroquai musings i would never EVER commit suicide. but ... when the time comes ... i think dying might be the easiest thing i ever do. the sun is out. i think i'll go to bed soon. 2 hold on tightly \| let go lightly

4 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2007 31 May :: 10.05pm

i don't understand how anyone can survive without air conditioning.

our air conditioning is still broken even though it was supposed to be fixed today. they couldn't fix it.

i am seriously going to die. i know it sounds pathetic. but i'm really going to die. i'm suprised i'm not already dead. i have never been so sick in my life. tuesday at 2 in the morning i puked like every hour until 9 . seriously i threw up everything in me. i was so dehydrated but whenever i drank water i would just throw it up. i wanted to die so bad.
it's a long story but i took too much cold medicine i'm pretty sure. i just layed in the bathroom and hugged the toilet the whole night and all day tuesday. omg i just wanted to die.

that's it.

:: 2007 28 May :: 6.54pm

we're engaged!

:: 2007 25 May :: 7.54am
:: Mood: amazingly good
:: Music: bnl - maroon

beer and cigarettes
i should probably get some sleep.

but i'm just really happy right now.

maybe i'll take a shower.

but i'm going to have to get up at like noon or so.

ah, well. whatever.

...

i might go see pirates tonight. should be fun. even though i can't afford it.

:: 2007 24 May :: 10.51pm

something big happened

:: 2007 23 May :: 9.56pm

seriously, i dont even like american idol that much. i just have a strange curiousity about who is going to win. i just have to know. and god i swear these random songs and random performers are getting so damn annoying i cna't watch for much longer.

they ARE deciding tonight, aren't they?

god they better be.

5 more minutes and this show is ending.

they're deciding tonight right. please dont tell me i watched this whole thing for no reason. just tell me who fricken won.

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lots of crap going on in my life i just dont feel like typing. i hate children.

that's totally not true but i just kinda feel like that.

and yet again i am getting sick. why? becausei work around snot nosed kids all day. and i swear to god i got sick from the one kid i cannot STAND because i had to keep wiping the oozing green snot from his fat little nose.

fucker.

g'night.