gilded smile

:: 2006 12 November :: 9.24pm

Create Your Own!

:: 2006 10 November :: 9.43pm

ugh i am scheduled to work at FIVE AM tomorrow again. that is so stupid.

so stupid.

they should make people who dont go to school work at 5 am. people who it doesn't really matter if they have to work at 5 am because it doesn't throw off their life because the only thing they have scheduled to do in their life is work. people who don't have to write huge research papers that are due on monday. that's who should work 5 am shifts.

well i got moved up to head cashier so at least if i stay at that position i wont ever have to open at 5 ever again. and i love hardly ever having to talk to guests. ahhh it's so nice. stupid stupid guests how i hate you.

holiday

:: 2006 9 November :: 1.57pm

I can't believe Caleb is two weeks old today. It seems like everything happened just yesterday. He's doing so well. His jaundice is all gone now so we don't have to keep going to the hospital every single day. He's sleeping right now. His hair is getting longer and it's sticking up really cute. I had no idea how expensive it is to have a baby these days. The hospital bill just came and luckily the insurance covered all of it. All $6,300 of it! I guess just to be in the hospital was $849 a day. And the delivery room was almost $3000. I got the suite though, so that might've had something to do with it. haha. Today we're going to the mall. My mom took us yesterday and we got him a TON of clothes. Old Navy was having a huge sale. You can't beat $0.98 shirts and pants and such. And they're cute. And we got him these cute little boy boots at Gap. And painter jeans. Okay, now he just needs to grow into them. Alright, I was excited about it, but it's probably just boring ol stuff. :-) He's picking his head up a lot now.

Oh, I signed up for a class, all the culinary ones are filled right now. But I'm taking pottery class with Becca! :-)

jedibumblebee

:: 2006 8 November :: 5.56pm

MySpace is really scary. I think that I will be staying away from it.

3 hold on tightly | let go lightly

spud

:: 2006 6 November :: 10.52pm

so i've been doing some research, since i'm voting tomorrow.

everyone has been in an uproar about proposal 2 and i really don't understand why. everything i've read said that it's simply banning preferential discrimination in affirmative action. which is what i've always been about. the best person for the job should get the job. if i were running a business, that's the only kind of decision that would make sense. but i've run into it a lot, especially with small-time politics, where somebody does somebody else a favor and gets a leg up. it's a fine line, and is extremely subjective, but it's still a line. so, i don't see what the problem is. equal rights should be equal. if the minority becomes the majority (look at goth kids...) nothing changes but the orientation of the situation. the situation is still there.

the only concern i have is that it would weigh down the court system with all sorts of cases about what is preferential treatment and such. when really, the system could be left as is, and rely primarily on the faith that there are still good people in the world.

in the long run, it's not really that big of a deal though.

that's pretty much all i had.

i'm far more interested in the proposal for hunting mourning doves. maybe that's because killing things excites me or something.

:: 2006 6 November :: 11.46am

i dont know what to do with my life. and i hate it.

let go lightly

stinko

:: 2006 5 November :: 11.20pm

today has been bad.
this weekend has been bad.
a lot of things have been bad.

i want to go to sleep but my stomach is upset and i feel really nervous.
it hasn't been this bad since high school.

4 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 5 November :: 9.28am

does anybody believe that your dreams have deeper, real meaning?

jedibumblebee

:: 2006 4 November :: 2.50pm

Our new house.
The house.

The backyard.

My awesome kitchen.

More coming soon.

5 hold on tightly | let go lightly

holiday

:: 2006 3 November :: 3.33pm

So we made it to the library today :-)

Caleb is doing so well. He's sleeping right now though. I thought I'd post some more pictures. Sorry the other ones were so big. Actually, I'm running out of time so some pics might still be huge. oops.

This is right after delivery.

This is with Daddy

I think he looks like a little jailbird. He's a week old in this picture.

4 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 2 November :: 10.25pm

what is wrong with me........

:: 2006 1 November :: 3.09pm

Listen up ya'll, Cuz this is it
The beat that I'm bangin' is de-li-cious

Fergalicious definition make them boys go loco
They want my treasure so they get their pleasures from my photo
You could see you, you can't squeeze me
I ain't easy, I ain't sleazy
I got reasons why I tease 'em
Boys just come and go like seasons

Fergalicious (so delicious)
But I ain't promiscuous
And if you was suspicious
All that shit is fictitious
I blow kisses (mmmwwahhh)
That puts them boys on rock, rock
And they be lining down the block just to watch what I got (four, tres, two, uno)

So delicious (It's hot, hot)
So delicious (I put them boys on rock, rock)
So delicious (they wanna slice of what I got)
Fergalicious (t-t-t-t-t-tasty, tasty)

Fergalicious def-, Fergalicious def-, Fergalicious def-
Fergalicious definition make them boys go crazy
They always claim they know me
Comin' to me call me Stacy
I'm the F to the E, R, G the I the E
And can't no other lady put it down like me

I'm Fergalicious
My body stay vicious
I be up in the gym just working on my fitness
He's my witness
I put yo' boy on rock rock
And he be lining down the block just to watch what I got

So delicious (It's hot, hot)
So delicious (I put them boys on rock, rock)
So delicious (they wanna slice of what I got)
Fergalicious (hold hold hold hold hold up, check it out)

Baby, baby, baby
If you really want me
Honey get some patience
Maybe then you'll get a taste
I'll be tasty, tasty, I'll be laced with lacey
It's so tasty, tasty, It'll make you crazy

T to the A to the S T E Y girl you tasty, T to the A to the S T E Y girl you tasty
D to the E to the L I C I O U S, to the D to the E to the, to the, to the, hit it Fergie

All the time I turn around always brotha's gather round always looking at me up and down looking at my
I just wanna say it now I ain't tryin to round up drama little mama I don't wanna take your man
And I know I'm comin off just a little bit conceited and I keep on repeating how the boys wanna eat it
But I'm tryin' to tell, that I can't be treated like clientele
Cuz' they say she

Delicious (So delicious)
But I ain't promiscuous
And if you was suspicious
All that shit is fictitious
I blow kisses (mmmwwahhh)
That puts them boys on rock, rock
And they be lining down the block just to watch what I got (got, got, got)
Four, tres, two, uno
My body stay vicious
I be up in the gym just working on my fitness
He's my witness (oooh wee)
I put yo' boy on rock rock
And he be lining down the block just to watch what I got (four, tres, two, uno)

So delicious
So delicious
So delicious
I'm Fergalicious, t-t-t-t-t tasty, tasty

It's so delicious
So delicious
So delicious
I'm Fergalicious, t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t

T to the A to the S T E Y girl you tasty, T to the A, to the S T E Y girl you tasty
T to the A to the S T E Y girl you tasty, T to the A, to the, to the (four, tres, two, uno)
D to the E to the L I C I O U S, to the D to the E to the L I C I O U S to the
D to the E to the L I C I O U S, to the D to the E to the, to the, to the (four, tres, two, uno)

T to the A to the S T E Y girl you tasty, T to the A to the S T E Y girl you tasty
T to the A to the S T E Y girl you tasty, T to the A, to the, four, tres, two, uno
D to the E to the L I C I O U S, to the D to the E to the L I C I O U S to the
D to the E to the L I C I O U S, to the D to the E to the, to the, to the, to the, to the.....

let go lightly

:: 2006 30 October :: 11.24pm

I will be the answer
At the end of the line
I will be there for you
While you take the time
In the burning of uncertainty
I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance
If you can't look down

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a
Place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind
The memory of choosing not to fight

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
'Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all burned out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind

:: 2006 30 October :: 10.36pm

well shit isnt' this just peachy. what the hell i want something to do.

6 hold on tightly | let go lightly

holiday

:: 2006 30 October :: 9.40pm

Thanks everybody! Just wanted to post some pictures and get into the gross details. hahaha.

So Tuesday night we went to the Childbirth class we were supposed to make up a few weeks before, and we're like "Uh, we're actually in early labor right now." And so the instructor told us that we had probably 24 hours. And she was right. Wednesday we went a walk and went shopping for some last minute stuff. Then around 11pm while Charlie was on the phone with his mom, asking what it was like when her water broke, mine broke. So we went to the hospital and I started having awful back labor but they couldn't give me anything for a while. Then the stadol. That stuff works. So we tried to sleep a little. Thursday morning I was in the pushing stage and Charlie says between having some of the contractions that actually push the baby out, I said "And now we play the waiting game!" hahaha. So it hurt. A lot. I had 2 episiotomies, and vacuum extraction because he was in the posterior position. She actually reached her hands in to turn him, and he turned back around. So we had to do it. And it hurt. And I am horribly horribly bruised. But he's here! We were at the hospital until Saturday afternoon. He has some jaundice so we're trying to get rid of it. I haven't slept basically since Tuesday.

Here are the pictures!

Here's Charlie and I after labor:

Here's Caleb on his wormy play-mat, he has a billy blanket for his jaundice that's why he's glowing:

He likes to sleep with his arms above his head all stretched out, it's so cute!

stinko

:: 2006 30 October :: 8.34am

gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
need
food
now.

seriously.

ouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut.

let go lightly

spud	:: 2006 29 October :: 3.50pm whoa, my journal's fifthennial extravaganza is coming up (relatively) soon. maybe i ought to buy it a bottle of tang or something. you know, to celebrate. let go lightly

spud

:: 2006 29 October :: 3.43pm

the weekend!

it was fun hanging out with kevin on friday. and i got to talk to mom, which was nice.

then, yesterday and today have been spent watching really bad movies. i've watched 4 episodes of MST3K that i borrowed from Jenny so far. Space mutiny was by far the funniest. we also watched "creepshow" and "puppet master vs. demonic toys". the bad movie marathon has certainly lived up to its name.

but now it's homework time, although probably not, since it never really is.

and since it got such a hell of a response the last time:
i could really go for punching shannon in the face, right about now!

yep. that ought to do it. ; )

4 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 29 October :: 7.30am

OH MY GOD. people are so STUPID!!!

ugh