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:: 2006 20 August :: 1.54pm

okay so just a little update on my life

i wake up with roman
go to work
come home
do dishes, clean, maybe go for a run and get yelled at
make food
go to bed witih roman

never get on the internet

and go to the beach alot.

hooray

ookay so i went for a run the other day and this guy driving by yells at me "IF YOU DIDN'T EAT SO MUCH, YOU WOULDN'T HAVE TO JOG, BITCH!!!"

How fucking mean is that?

so then i cried and went home.
and i'll never run again (not really)

dickhead.

but in all seriousness, the thing that made me the most upset hearing that was that people can say stuff like that and honestly not feel bad.

take a look at yourself people. honestly.

:: 2006 20 August :: 1.34pm

bomb! this is the first time since moving i've been able to use my lap top. i found wireless at the hojo (howard johnson) hotel on 28th street, about 5 minutes from my house so awesome... yay.

um anyway, i gotta do some stuff so just wanted to say, hello woohu. and now good day.

ps. life is pretty good.

:: 2006 17 August :: 3.12pm

sooooo wow.

i still dont have any internet at the apartment... haven't been able to steal anyone's wireless. so now i'm at the wyoming library. which by the way is so cute. it has a little water fall thingy in it. has anyone ever been here? it's so cool. it must be brand new. it even has a little cafe in it. ahh it's so cute. but my main reason for being here is using the internet.

ughhhh money is stupid. i'm getting mad over it even though i really am fine. but whatever.

anyway. i'm still alive. and that's it. that's all you get.

stinko

:: 2006 16 August :: 6.05pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: "white walls" still remains

major suckage
you suck so much sometimes.

jedibumblebee

:: 2006 16 August :: 3.25pm

and this too...

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jedibumblebee

:: 2006 16 August :: 3.10pm

I GOT A REAL JOB!

:: 2006 16 August :: 2.01am
:: Mood: selfless, cold and composed? except for not.
:: Music: BnL - Born on a Pirate Ship

Mittwoch

man. so, i've been working on getting the truck ready. i took the cap off today. it looks better without it, but i need to put it on, so that way our stuff stays dry while we're camping, and so it doesn't blow away in transit. but it's pretty badass right now. and it's more fun to drive. i'm enjoying it, anyway. but the neighborhood nazis are sure to not be crazy about the truck cap now sitting on our front lawn, so i have to be quick about this. but it can't go back on until i wash the truck, fix the license plate lights, and replace that plate glass window on the front of the cap. which is proving to be a bigger bitch than i first anticipated. i can't even find a damn window to put in. lowe's said that they could have me one for 62 dollars, in about a month and a half. i basically gave them the finger and left. except, without giving them the finger. but i'm going to get up tomorrow morning and cruise plainfield looking for a hardware store. there's bound to be one somewhere. hopefully they can hook me up with some plexi and i'll be able to rig a setup to fit it into the opening. and there was this nasty-ass tar sealing the old window frame to the cap. it got all over my hands, and on my toe, and on the floor of the garage. sticky as shit. but i'm better now.

kevin is coming over tomorrow night. it's been awhile since i've had my fix. i asked mom for some booze. we'll see if that happens or not. either way it's bound to be a riot. but i'm feeling much more comfortable with my alcohol situation, which is good. i'm not so nervous all the time about it.

lifted weights tonight. that was a good time. we hit 'em pretty damn hard. i'll be sore tomorrow, but it feels good. i'm gonna try and bench 250 on thursday. wish me luck. that's pretty fraggin' heavy. but i did 245 tonight without too much trouble, so i'm feeling good.

now i have to go to bed, dammit.

be tired!

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it didn't work.

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:: 2006 14 August :: 4.02pm

64 days till baby!
~
Pretty interesting weekend. Charlie worked Saturday morning. I had intentions of getting up but those soon fell through. Sleep was nice. Found out some awful things on Sunday. Now I feel more alone. Cuddling is nice but it'd be nicer to be able to still trust you with my thoughts and feelings.

Second bridal shower (ha it's over two months after the wedding) was a lot of fun and I love Charlie's family. His cousin's baby Gracie was there and she's adorable. I can't wait to use our new waffle maker. :-)

I'm reading a pretty good book right now. It's called "To Feel Stuff" and now I'm almost done with it.

I'd write more, but my feelings kind of shut off. ha.

5 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 13 August :: 11.59pm

i updated myspace. because i'm a loser, and i had nothing better to write about since last night.

went to church like i said i would. went out on the boat like i said i would.

we went to aunt sally and uncle gerry's cottage. i had forgotten how nice it is up there. i just love it. and the water was so warm. i was sad we didn't have more time to go swimming. but it was nice just to get out on the boat. and apparently i have all of these reputations that precede me.

and i have this problem with finding these really cute shirttail cousins, which it kind of weirds me out that they're cute. and i sometimes get the vibe like they think i'm cute too, and they're just as freaked out about it as i am. it's interesting.

speaking of which, apparently i'm somehow distantly related to emily rowe. i thought that was interesting. and again with the cute cousins. meh, whatev.

time to go do something not at all productive, until i pass out.

spud	:: 2006 13 August :: 2.48am :: Music: yes i'm going camping in a week. i'm moving into my apartment in a week. i'm starting school in two weeks. i'm going out on the boat tomorrow. i have to get up for church. i'm frickin' tired. i'll go to bed soon. 3 hold on tightly \| let go lightly

stinko

:: 2006 12 August :: 8.15pm

gaaah.
i got like 3-4 hours of sleep last night and then i had to work.
so crapppppppppy.
but then i took one of those 'not quite a nap' naps. i don't know if it did me any good. i woke up two hours ago and i am finally not sleepy.

and all this week i have to be in by 6 or 7 because all these morning people quit and i agreed to come in early. i thought it would be for a day or two. not a week or two.

oh well.

2 hold on tightly | let go lightly

:: 2006 11 August :: 2.22am
:: Music: DMB - Crash

i love hudsonville ice cream. i like it better than plainwell ice cream.
primarily because i've never had plainwell ice cream, but secondarily because i grew up on hudsonville, and tertiarily because i like to tease shannon.

time for bed. setting my alarm for 9:30. hope i wake up.

stinko

:: 2006 10 August :: 10.05pm

so . . . i am downtown right now.
someone just got chased and arrested for carrying knives!

so scary!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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:: 2006 10 August :: 5.08pm

I quit Applause today. It's sad cause I like the people I worked with but it was getting too hard.
I think the baby's eyes are open now because there's a LOT more action going on in there! Wow.
I'm getting sick in the morning again. :-(
I'm kind of excited about going back to school but I know once I do I will be upset. I'm not going back until next year, probably winter. Just taking a couple night classes. I know it'll be hard to leave baby!
Nothing else is really happening at the moment, just sick a lot.

:: 2006 10 August :: 2.15pm

sooooo i'm at the davenport library right now. i haven't been able to update in a long time.

i had the photoshoot thing at davenport today, hence why i'm here. i also got lost on the way here since i was coming from 28th street. yeah, that wasn't fun because i was alreayd stressed enough about this. but it ended up being a nice time.

i haven't been able to update like i said, but i ended up moving in on tuesday. roman actually came tuesday too because of work crap and he was just able to take the day off. so that was nice because then i didn't have to lift all the heavy stuff.

living on your own is weird. its nice being with roman but unpacking was stressful and annoying. and i miss my mom. lol i had to call her yesterday because i missed her.

we are finally almost totally unpacked and our apartment is SO CUTE. we have stuff hung up and our cute walls painted. ahh it looks so nice. there are ducks that are outside our balcony in the pond every day and it's just so adorable. i love our decorations and it's just so cool.

we went grocery shopping yesterday.... we found out that we wll be shopping at ALDIS from now on. it's so cheap. and they have good cereal so yeah lol.

i think tonight we'll finally go down the trail by our house. it's so cute. and we haven't had time because i keep having to get up early for things... yesterday was my makeover thing and today was the photoshoot.

jess was supposed to come over last night but hmmm dont really know what happened with that.

but beans was so great and helpful and packed everything in to her car and then tuesday night came over and helped us bring it upstairs . thanks beans i love you!

so yeah... living by all the busy streets is nice exccept for the stoplights. it's nice being like 5 minutes from the mall.

blah blah blah..... so i got the lettinga scholarship which means i have free school here at davenport but the thing is, i also receieved the Buger King scholarship which i applied for a long time ago. soooooooooo then when we got the check in the mail , i t was made out to davenport and not me, sooooooooooooo i'm waiting here for a woman to talk to about how i'm gonna get that money. because if it goes to the school it's pertty much pointless because my school is free anyway.

they were telling me i oculd use it on my books but i already got all my books cheap online so i only have one more book i need to get so i'm doing that with my 1000 dollars.

grr.

anyway. i guess i'm gonna mosy around the interent some more before i have to go... my wireless i guess can't find a connection to mooch off of yet while i'm out in the a[partment. hopefully i'll figure something out soon but for now i duno.

well, peace out.

jess

:: 2006 9 August :: 7.43pm

I can't wait till the hot weather goes away. It's starting to, but not fast enough!

:: 2006 9 August :: 4.56am

ever since saturday, my sleep schedule has been all fucked up.

i mean, it was well worth it, but still. i'd like the turbulence to stop now.

i'm setting my alarm for tomorrow morning. hopefully i'll get into bed at a reasonable hour tomorrow night, and back into the swing of things by thursday. or i'll just keep on keepin' on.

tomorrow i have to make a couple of phone calls, and drive out to allendale to pay my rent.

blarg.

:: 2006 8 August :: 4.27pm

Weird.

:: 2006 8 August :: 12.33am

slight change of plans ....

im moving in tomorrow