[(Hold Me For All Time)]

:: 2004 6 October :: 7.47pm

this fuckin blows

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strawberrie

:: 2004 6 October :: 6.20pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: knuck if u buck

hahah

I learned the part to Knuck if you Buck like i wanted.......

BaLlEr!! lol peace

xO* Heather Lauren
Crushin on Sean....Hard Core! :-X :-/

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:: 2004 5 October :: 8.34pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: clubbin'

wow what a fuckin day
so all i did was sleep in all my classes. britt hasnt sat with us at lunch this week and yesterday i saw him with this girl so i was like damn i bet they go out or are going to, well today after lunch i was walkin to class and i saw him and i was like damnn britt looks good today and neil was like "you know hes got a girlfriend now" and i fuckin start yellin "i knew it ! i knew it! mother fucker ! i knew it!"
so yeah then i find out another one of my friends got a girl... so this sucks... i cant hvae britt!the one guy i really want! i should of known!
anywayzzzzzz practice sucked balls, but i just fucked around and made it fun cuz i really dont care no more...
so when i get home me and kari get in a fight, and shes flippin out and shit and im actully controlin my self, she calls my mom and starts sayin her dumb lies and normaly i would flip and get on the phone and bitch and im like you know what fuck it moms not gunna go for her bull shit... *go me! im learning*lol....
so i go to katies cuz she needed a TaMpOn... chilled for a lil and stole her cat lol its so fuckin cute... when i got home amy and my mom were home and i ate dinner w/ them and we were talkin bout kari and i was sayin bout what she tryed to do today and my moms like i know and amys like "i was talkin to kari bout the thing" and my moms like what thing and im like the car ( cuz my mom was sayin suttin bout givin kari her old car when she gets a new one) and there both like WHAT CAR! WHAT DID KARI TELL YOU.. im like wtf the dodge and so amys like " i was sayin how she(not kari) deserves it not her blah blah blah" and i thought amys talkin bout my mom deserves a new car and kari doesnt ... so then they start askin mne bout what car.. and im like wtf if your not talkin bout the car what are you talkin bout and there like the car but in a fake way so i get mad and im like this is why i dont talk to you guys and my mom starts talkin to me and im like dont talk to me and my moms like i was gunna buy you a car and have it in the drive way for when you get home because you deserve it but now that your not talkin to me i guess not!
WHAT I HOPE SHE GETS ME THE CAR! IDK WHAT KIND OR ANYTHING BUT I WANT A CAR AND I DONT KNOW WHEN SHE WAS GUNNA DO IT! BUT FINALLY THEY SEE IT MY WAY!

lol ok im done.. i wrote enough boring shit for you guys to read

<3 michelle <3

<3 i wanna b/f!! <3

:: 2004 4 October :: 9.20pm

heyyy!! well my weekend was pretty fun, im NOT going to get into friday, but saturday i slept i til 2 and then went to kristinas. we had fun!! i slept over and came home sunday night and did maddd homework!!

next, today was awesome.. well not the whole day, but omigosh lol lauren u know the whole story -- i only raged on about it for hours haha. i dont want to get into it, well i do but its tooo long haha, lets just say the guy im obsessed with kissed me today, its nothin big, just a kiss on the cheek, but now i never wanna wash the cheek again haha. i wouldnt go that far, but if you guys saw this kid lol. wick u would be like DAAAMN. haha. so yea, we talked a lil today, when i see him i get weak in the knees.. its sooo weird. it was just a kiss on the cheek, but i swear i lilke melted, ivve never done that before haha.

anyways, after school i went to bayside, it was fun, i love lauren shes great hehe. after bayside lau came home w/ me and we did our nails, we got tired at looking at the same designs lol. then we had dinner and everyone kept asking her if she wanted anyting to eat or drink, over and over and she was like no thank u tonns of times.

had madd homework tonight, finally finished it, then i had to help aunt lee with papers for my mom, that shits so frustrating, started thinking about her, so i had to get on here to stop myself from being sad!!

other than that, this weekends gonna rock my socks, its robbies bday on the 12th and we're gonna paaarrrtaayy. the 11th i go w/ lau to get my nails done, same for the 27th haha, we're such nerds.

im so head over heals its not even funny, but i know it aint gonna work out, hes gonna have a girl, but thats okay, i want at least friendship.. i really hope i get that much. buut yeaa imma get going b/c im gettin confused im sick and im tired lol.

good talking to u patrick carly and joe, patrick thank u soo much for that song, i love youuu!! ur awsome. u too carly i miss you babe. and wick, ur so damn fuckin awesome. cant wait to see youuu!!

mucho loooove~!!

wish me luck!!

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strawberrie

:: 2004 3 October :: 8.52pm

Quick Update!
Hey..................it's been a long time! lol heres a quick update of shit

1. Break was awsome
2. Howies party...I was pimpin'
3.Met alot of cool people!

That's about it....n i just want to give a shout-out to all my girels who have helped me through anything wrong thats been goin' on latly!

1 luv- Michelle-Jess-Katie-Nikki -n- Stacy -1 luv

N also a shout out to Dee Bri n Rach i miss u all! but i gtg ill start updating more when something good happens...

p.s-- the twins are fine! lol Katie n Sean in my 6th hour u need to meet him!! Also Katie WATCH OUT SOSA-BOY!! lol

xO* !!*

:: 2004 2 October :: 1.31am
:: Mood: drunk
:: Music: locked up

fuckin drama
holly fuckin shit so much fuckin drama if this shit goes down ima cry lol... wtf im to drunk for this shit!

Fuckin Drama

--michelle--

:: 2004 30 September :: 6.24pm

he's comiing!!

yaahooo .. ill update more laterrr!! maddd hw xoxo

yay, he better show up, and better have fun. hehe :)

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:: 2004 27 September :: 8.34pm

hiidey ho, well my weekend was rather fun, but before i even get into that id like to wish the bestest person on this earth [[carly cathleen weaver]] a happy happy happy 17th birthday! i love you more than life itself giiiirl.

now, to my weekend, friday after school i did some homework and packed to go to my uncle ginos house,we leftaround 9pm and got there at like 11pm. Kristina and I played some hardcore volleyball, only with a soccer ball. soo u can imagine how much it hurt when we bumped it. Anyways, Robbie and Jimmy showed up, then Joey, and they played basketball. After a while me, joe, jim, rob and kristina played spades. my team was winning, then everyone decided not to play anymore. so that was the end of that. had some laughs w/ rob and jimmy and then Kristina and i talked and then went to bed.

saturday, krissy and i woke up and had breakfast, then we got straight into stretching for volleyball. thank goodness john and uncle g got us a new one. We played vball all day and then had a tournament.. me and aunt lee vs krissy and john, they won, but we're gonna have a rematch lol. plus, i think i did rather well. then at night, krissy and i bartended we each made like 20bucks which was niiiice lol. we were supposed to have a volleyball tournament with jimmy and robbie, but robbie ended up in the hospital.. soo we've got a raincheck lol.

sunday, played more volleyball, played some pool, just hung out. was supposed to see the boys again, never happened, me and aunt lee played a vball game and we beat em yahoo. other than that back in school, gisseppe is the hottest ever i sweear. i want him to come to my party soo bad

in other news, im having a sweet 16/halloween party at my uncle gino's house on october 30th and its gonna be awesome. caterer, dj, karaoke, volleyball, football, baseball, basketball, dancing, drinking, bartending, cards, whatever u want we got! the house is gonna look soooo spooky with all the decorations we got, and i got my costume, its nice. its gonna be badass, now all i need is friends hah wishful thinking. but i invited 3 of gisseppes frinends, now i just want him to come lol. but i really gotta go or imma rag on and on and on about trhis boy. soo ill ttyl xoxo

crushiiinnn*

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strawberrie

:: 2004 25 September :: 4.34pm
:: Mood: Bored
:: Music: Rachael yack yack yackin'

Randomness
Wow im bored! Rachaels a yack yack yackin' on the fone n this hurricane is pissin' me off i wish it was Sunday like 10 AM so it would be over with!!!! Grrrrr! I miss Rachael alot....even tho shes talkinnnnnnnnn' n talkinnnnn' lol I <3 her tho. hehe soo umm yeah we had our first football game on Wensday this kid got hurt realllll bad His shin bone's broke n his bone poped through the skin n his calf fell out n nastyyyyy shit but yeah we did alright nothing but idk i have shit to do i gtg hurricanes blow....literally

<3Heather<3

:: 2004 25 September :: 12.34pm

yoooooooooo! cant talk, im at my aunt and uncles house and im chillin w/ my cousin kristina. we're having a ton - o - fun and i dont wanna stop! soooo imma get going. just wanted to say happy birthday lauren [yesterday] hope you enjoyed it. and uh rob and jimmy, hope u guys are feeling okay today, you had a craaaZy night last night!! lol ull have a better update later. peeace!

:: 2004 25 September :: 9.52am

hurricane Jeanne
This hurricane can lick my clit! grrrr !! kari might be goin to the hospital , everyone in the house is sick and barfing everywhere and i think im gettin what they have.... troy is shitting all over the house....

I wish i had my beer.i didnt drink it last night and so theres a 12pack at wesses but w/e i dont really care..

welli gtg help around the house

:: 2004 24 September :: 10.08pm

i wish people would just listen to me sometimes!
me and my mom got in a big ass fight when i asked to sleep over heathers...so i calm her down and got it so i could go out and i was gunna go see heather... the wess doesnt get home till 10 and i got in a big ass fight w/ my mom again and she was tryin to kick me out of the house so i was like w/e i dont care anymore kick me out and wess said i could sleep at his house so im like im sleeping at wess's house and me and my mom fought alot and shit it was really bad i never fought w/ her so much cuz she was sayin i cant go out one second and the next shes tellin me to get the fuck out. so i call heather and ask if she wants me to stop by.. she asks me when i have to be home... i say tomorrow.. she gets mad cuz i wanted to sleep there and my mom said no so she gets mad and tells me im fucked up and i dont get to say anything and she hangs up... then calls me back on my cell and tells me not to talk to her im fucked up and shell talk to me when she wants....plus somethin else but i dont wanna say cuz it put me in tears
ISNT MY LIFE GREAT ALL IN ONE DAY I LOOSE EVERYTHING THAT MEANS THE MOST TO ME!

IM SO FUCKIN DUMB I GUESS WHEN I THINK IM FINALLY DOING SOMETHING RIGHT I FIND OUT WHAT IM DOING IS ALL WRONG! ALL I WANNA DO IS HAVE A RELXING NIGHT I GUESS CUZ WHAT THE FUN IN PARTYING WHEN EVERYONE IS MAD AT YOU....

--Michelle--

-- why live when you got nothing to live for

:: 2004 24 September :: 8.50pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: On the way down

Jon

aww i talked to my Jon today. Hes so fuckin cool. i love him. He knows just how to put a smile on my face. Me and him lost touch after high school started and then he moved. He always IM's me out of nowhere and its always when im feeling like shit and im at my worst and he always makes me feel better. its so weird its like he knows im at my worst and he IM's me. ... i <3 him lol

-- Michelle --

:: 2004 23 September :: 10.36pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: just like you / one thing

ups and downs
im like a fuckin rollercoaster i have ups and downs soo fuckin much ... ill be happy one minute then ill be pissed off or sad the next.

well good news- blood work this time came back really good 120 thats really high.. i normally get 11 and 50 and up is the safe zone... soo really good.... BUT my shit normally goes up and down soo in another 4 weeks ill letya know if it went back down.

bad news--- i now have to take 5 pills a day... and i cant skip any anymore or it can fuck me up... BUT the new shiti gatta take im a lil scared to take so mommys callin the hemo to se if its safe.

more good news--- park vista got there first touch down today! we got it in the first 2 mins of the game... i dont know what the final score was cuz we left early, i saw john at the game it was so funny i was soaked!

bad news-- fuckin hurricane again... no school tomorrow sept for us ! how gay is that.

I NEED A BOYFRIEND OR SOMETHING IM GOIN CRAZZZYYYYY!!!!!!!

--michelle--

grrrrr

:: 2004 23 September :: 9.29pm

happy 47th birthday mommy and aunt lee. i miss you mom. it was a hard day without you. keep us all strong.